A friend

Can't sleep.

It has finally come to an end.

Didn't know this can hurt so bad. Didn't expect this to happen. My happiness is short-lived. But still i want to be thankful. I want to be thankful cos i am able to help, in certain ways.I am thankful at least she can speak to me, pour out to me. Even though i choose to be taken out of the picture, i want to be joyful, though i am searchin my happiness in an empty void. I prayed that i can cry. That my tears will be able to wash away my sadness. But there's no tears, and my heart is ever so heavy. But i am thankful still, for every heart break comes a lesson, comes an experience, comes a surrendering.

Will God give me a cheerful face when i see her again? So she can be freed. So she's will not be worried. Even if it hurts, at least, it 's still for her. Even in hurt, she can be freed. That she dun have to look thru the windows anymore, but roam freely towards her dreams, without havin to worried about there's a me behind her, every now and then. If that's the least i can do for her, i am willing. I am not a burden anymore. Just be freed.

I will remember everythin that happened last night. It is bittersweet. How can i forget? Cos there might never be another time like this. I will remember, like i have always remembered everything since Day one......maybe its blurry to you, but its always so fresh,ever so clear, ever so sweet to me. I can only savour these memories alone. And be reminded to be thankful for all that had happened.

Let me slowly fade into the background. Let me be smiling from a distance. Let me be quiet again. Let me be a memory. Let me be a joy giver.Let me help, in the most subtle way. Let me listen to you, whenever you need a listening ear. Let me be just............just a simple friend.

A friend. Always.