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Time really flies. It's october already.

My last entry was august. I have taken a break from ministry. Was busy, really busy at work. My office is a wreck, like a warzone. Workload is lesser these days, as gradually we are finishing up the job that has been eating us away at work. It's also a time for me to heal and rest. Yes in the midst of business at work, I found out that I am a foul mouth who is bitter about things, hates my work and my boss, can't make myself available to church, a loner....and appreciate the works of God. I could have rot and fade away, which to some point I did. But I think all these while, all the melees I had, I just came back strong. The mirror is an enemy I can't deny. I ultimately found friends among friends. There are actually people who cares alot about me. Emptiness fades away......I am encouraged. What can't kill me, only makes me stronger.

As He continues to use me for his ministry, I can't help but feel wonderous. He could and should have kick me out so long ago, and yet time after time, He uses me. I am guilty, shameful. But these are the basic tools to humble me before Him. He had broken me down for Himself. Thats the only way to work on my other aspect in life, to move forward. I want to give the ultimate sacrifice, and for Him I must do it. For He is worthy.

I am scheduled to be on the team next week. Really looking forward to it.





" He was wounded for our transgressions, crushed for our iniquities; by His wounds we are healed. " Isaiah 53