偏偏喜欢你

愁绪挥不去苦闷散不去
为何我心一片空虚
感情已失去一切都失去
满腔恨愁不可消除

为何你的嘴里总是那一句
为何我的心不会死
明白到爱失去一切都不对
我又为何偏偏喜欢你

爱已是负累相爱似受罪
心底如今满苦泪
旧日情如醉此际怕再追
偏偏痴心想见你

为何我心分秒想着过去
为何你一点都不记起
情义已失去恩爱都失去
我却为何偏偏喜欢你

爱已是负累相爱似受罪
心底如今满苦泪
旧日情如醉此际怕再追
偏偏痴心想见你

为何我心分秒想着过去
为何你一点都不记起
情义已失去恩爱都失去
我却为何偏偏喜欢你

情义已失去恩爱都失去
我却为何偏偏喜欢你

Heaven?

Finally!

I have spent some of my precious savings on photography equipments. Being a photographer for six years without my own camera, I must be kidding right? But it's so true. The Canon 5D is of superb build and it's a Canon DSLR fans' dream....I can't believe I am holding it la. Never bought such an expensive item in my life. But there was no pinch. Becos I am gonna need it. And wait, and there's the nice nice nice 17-40mm L lens! I am secretly tellin God that I am ready to use it for Him, be it camps, or events, or even mission trips. This is one peice of equipment I am gonna use for God. I might not be in the fashion industry/ Studio for long, so I am sure God has plans for me and my 5D. Who knows what kind of magic this camera will produce for the kingdom of God? We'll see. Thank You for this lovely gift.

Think this week will be spend on the preparation of curch camp publicity. So excited. There's like so many things happening over at the publicity side...gonna do one good one. This year's camp's gonna be a blast.


I was dreaming of lovely landscapes and sceneries these few nights while sleeping. I dreamt that I was talking pictures of animals and trees and rivers and mountains and really enjoying my work. I felt like a bird, free. Free of bondage. Free of depression. Free of people. Free of the world. Free.

I felt mightily contented, and can breathe so easily. Was that heaven I saw?



The italic Smiley:)

Sunday 21st Oct 2007

Sunday marks my return to the worship team after a good break, and what a break it was. And of cos, what a big day it was to me on sunday. My worship leader has planned a unplugged worship presentation. Most of us have to sing and has a mic to themselves. It was truly awesome, and truly hard to play and sing at the same time. And also new songs to challange us. But we all had fun figuring the hard part out. Definitely refreshing. I don't know, I really felt shy standing on the stage. So many faces.....I remind myself to smile for the Lord, and the congregation. Must show a welcome face.

Sunday evenings used to be special to me. Thats usually the time when I will chat with my friend over the phone. Usually short ones...but always interesting topic in our chats. We will enquire our well beings and spirituality. That was a long time ago. Years.

This sunday evening brings comfort.


I was really unsure, but I am glad. Thank you Lord.

Thank you.



I like the sliced fish soup with rice.

思念

想要写封信给你
点点滴滴
沿著回忆
凭著感觉执笔
总是闭上了眼睛
思念却漫溢
不著边际的想你

恨不能
一辈子贴在你的怀里
穿梭时空也如一

你亲吻了我
绵绵的呼吸
连空气
都充满 欢喜

好想为你唱首歌
熟悉的律
将思念慢慢 累积

WE were talking about this song the other day. It's by Evelyn Tan and I happen to have this track in my library. It kinda brings me to back to Glory days. That's when I started coming to church for the first time..it brings back alot of memories. I like the lyrics alot.

Tired & Bothered

Am really drained right now. Both Seani and I barely rest, just so that we, by any good chance, can finish that dumb Johnnie Walker job, which is due this morning. This job has been carrying on for the past 2 months. We haven't take a breather since. And we feel utterly unappreciated. What a waste of effort. This thing is breaking us.

Anyways I tried to be calm knowing that we might never get it done by today. As the night moves closer to morning, we are spent and wasted and disheartened. And we're not getting paid for this many many digits job. And we're doing all the dirty work.


Shame on you.


But....

I am going to rehersal this evening, by hook or by crook!

your best days are ahead of you!

Monday night is interesting. A filling dinner with a totally fulfilling conversation(for me). A outpour session of sorts. I think learning has ways to surprise you, unknowing ways. It comes in all shapes and sizes, forms and ways. I want to be student, a student of Christ.

"Your best years are not over, your best days are ahead of you!"

I am looking ahead. From now on. And also, I want to be the guy who opens the store room and pushes the trolley with gladness and joy every sunday. My best days are still ahead.




"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and discipline."
~ Proverbs 1:7

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Time really flies. It's october already.

My last entry was august. I have taken a break from ministry. Was busy, really busy at work. My office is a wreck, like a warzone. Workload is lesser these days, as gradually we are finishing up the job that has been eating us away at work. It's also a time for me to heal and rest. Yes in the midst of business at work, I found out that I am a foul mouth who is bitter about things, hates my work and my boss, can't make myself available to church, a loner....and appreciate the works of God. I could have rot and fade away, which to some point I did. But I think all these while, all the melees I had, I just came back strong. The mirror is an enemy I can't deny. I ultimately found friends among friends. There are actually people who cares alot about me. Emptiness fades away......I am encouraged. What can't kill me, only makes me stronger.

As He continues to use me for his ministry, I can't help but feel wonderous. He could and should have kick me out so long ago, and yet time after time, He uses me. I am guilty, shameful. But these are the basic tools to humble me before Him. He had broken me down for Himself. Thats the only way to work on my other aspect in life, to move forward. I want to give the ultimate sacrifice, and for Him I must do it. For He is worthy.

I am scheduled to be on the team next week. Really looking forward to it.





" He was wounded for our transgressions, crushed for our iniquities; by His wounds we are healed. " Isaiah 53