Goodbye my past, hello my present.

It's late and i have to wake up early tommorrow for work.

Just feel like saying something.

Hi this is Michel.
Drummer. Music lover. Aspired music lover, who is finding it hard to lift up his puny pen to write anythin lately. Who is not playin any right beat on his drums lately.


Think that was the blow that i need. But it's fine actually. People are comin and leavin like it's a club or mall. Feel so deeply unappreciated. But of cos there's a few who were there and stickin to it like a tattoo on their bodies....sometimes i just wonder why do i even bother....which in this case, at this moment, i have decided......i will just have to move on with the rest.

Been reading abt Keith Green. Thanks to Tim who bought me this book about Keith Green. Was so inspired by what i read...the way he and his wife operates...its just so amazing.
I begin to reflect on my life. Wow if only i could be like him. haha....His wife is like the ideal sidekick. Just can't help but to think that it will be wonderful to have somone who plays music passionately with me for the rest of my life. Someone who plays the guitar, or piano...someone who can love God together with me....who can write songs with me.....my thoughts jus go on and on.......yupp that person is so near. I know her face. God....it's amazing.

and so.....He leads me right to Yamaha in the most unnoticeable corner of tampines mall. Yamaha sell many beautiful acoustic guitars. Really lovely ones. Did God lead me here. I was so filled with Him as i walk into the shop, my ipod is playin Don Moen...I begin to ask if this is what He wants me to do.....

Shared this with Polly. I suggested we can ling xiu together once a week, and perhaps practice guitar together once a week too..she was so supportive and totally excited about this. Man...i was so encouraged! I still don't know if this amounts to anythin at all in the future, but for now this is it. U have to believe it to make it happen. But to see Polly's beautiful eyes gleaming with those smiles, what can be wrong about this? :)

For a whole afternoon of reflection....to knowing my existing demons from the past, to God's reassuring breeze, to Polly's readilly nods and smiles....i know there are things i have to do. First is to exorcist any remaining past demons that is holdin me back. Have to ask for forgiveness too, if i offended ppl in the past. Have to talk to my sheperd. Have to account for Polly, for it's my job as a man. For i wanted to take care of her. So i have to do this. I have to look forward, not peek backwards every now and then. Goodbye my past, hello my present.

Thanks Polly. I have find in you all the comfort and inspiration and love. You are always so sweet and understanding. And u never look into my past and judge me. And always encouragin me to move forward....

Thanks........to God who is almighty and was always patting on my back and said: "get up and go!" When times are bad, when people judge, it's always You who stretch out your hand for me. Thanks for being my best friend. :)