HELP!

Help came in the form of good friends.

God's grace is sufficient for everything. As i am facin the consequences from my past mistakes, cant help but feelin really down. Things are a little too difficult to handle for me these days. My sleeping habit is way too jumble up. I dun think i am sleepin like a regular guy..even though i know i am not your regular guy, anyway. Have to drag myself to work. work has been cool so far. PPl have been nice and all. No sweat. Jeffrey, Boon and Co rocks! Oh and i had beer from Jeffrey's beer test shoot..finished the whole bottle by myself. BRRP! And then i was like, "hey Jeff any more beer?" "Yah there's stout in the fridge, but i need to shoot it!" Fine.

Evening is perhaps the time when i felt so lost in the crowd of hustle. Lost in the music in my ears. I got down at a totally wrong station, i dun know where i am goin...and the rain is not helpin at all. But i think God make me stop there so i can pay my friend, JC, a visit. Before long i was on my way to meet him.

JC put my whole set of problems on the table and begin to dissect all the difficulties which i am facin now, details by details. U know what, i feel like he's doin a better job than the rest. Yah sure he hasn't been to church lately, regularly..blah blah blah....but he's such a encouraging bro. And whatever reasoning did not jus comes from his heart but also base on God's teachings. And i do see his point. I really do felt better. And i can move on a little better. And i am clearer abt things. At least, he's not judgemental abt things. Like he said:"ppl can blame you for the mistakes u have make in the past, but they can never judge u!"..............thanks bro. Thank God. We had a great time sharing. And he forced me to go home.

I know i am not a perfect person. I am working on that. And if ppl want to hold me down for the mistakes i make in the past, they can do that. For I only do things and changes for God, and only thru that perspective, i can be a blessings to ppl. I am not here to please ppl. I am sorry abt my past. I am sorry abt the wrongs that i am still correcting. And i am dependant on God's ever beautiful grace for me to pull this thru. It's goin to be hard i guess. But i have to drag myself on this journey.
Yes i make mistakes, dun u? Only time will tell......i will face this bravely.

∂ 1:32AM 28th FEB TUES.