"I wanted to be brave but I am a tired soul. There are fears and I am scared."

"I wanted to be brave but I am a tired soul. There are fears and I am scared."


Yes. Truly I don't wish to meet with same fate again. I don't want to go through another year of endless waiting and endless heart breaks. I am tired. I just can't find the strength to face that kind of same situation again. I don't want to. Things are so hopeless sometimes. And helpless too. Shades of grey covering my life. There's no distinctive path. An endless trail of searching. I have been dependant on God, I know i do/did.

Things can be so uncertain at times. Sometimes things happened so fast. Too fast to even savour the beauty of certain situations. I can't seem to grasp anythin at all. Just hate the feeling of waiting and waiting and waiting.....and waiting. Waiting for nothin. One way or another U get the blame. For being there or not being there.

There are so much fear in me.

I am just so tired. I don't know whats right or wrong anymore. What to do or not to do. What to expect or what to wait for.

I look for answers but i got more questions.

I hate to guess yet afraid to know the truth.

I need to sleep now..................


∂ 12:41AM Mon May 15th