6 X Wonderful Months...'nuff said!!
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Sunday, December 10, 2006
I am back!!
How long has it been?
I counted the days away in absence.
Yes there are times when I don't know why I have to do something, or not doing something. Perhaps there are times when you just want a breather. You need your own space. You need to attend to love ones. Work has been not so gracious, even though jobs are coming in. I was lost in work, lost in myself, lost in this world, lost in being lost. You have to wonder if the world is a sane one to live in. Everything starts spinning around, revolving, misty, unknown.....what lies ahead?
But just when things are so crazily insane, a light pierce through the thickened darkness. He stretched out His hand, and pull me thru. There were tears in my eyes. His hands comforted me. His voice soothed my soul.
Thank God.
Now I am back.
I counted the days away in absence.
Yes there are times when I don't know why I have to do something, or not doing something. Perhaps there are times when you just want a breather. You need your own space. You need to attend to love ones. Work has been not so gracious, even though jobs are coming in. I was lost in work, lost in myself, lost in this world, lost in being lost. You have to wonder if the world is a sane one to live in. Everything starts spinning around, revolving, misty, unknown.....what lies ahead?
But just when things are so crazily insane, a light pierce through the thickened darkness. He stretched out His hand, and pull me thru. There were tears in my eyes. His hands comforted me. His voice soothed my soul.
Thank God.
Now I am back.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
一生爱你
一生爱你
亲爱的宝贵耶稣
你爱何等的甘甜
我的心深深被你吸引
爱你是我的喜乐
一生爱你一生敬拜你
一生爱你一生荣耀你
一生奉献一生不回头
一生爱你 跟随你
亲爱的宝贵耶稣
你爱何等的甘甜
我的心深深被你吸引
爱你是我的喜乐
一生爱你一生敬拜你
一生爱你一生荣耀你
一生奉献一生不回头
一生爱你 跟随你
一生爱你一生敬拜你
一生爱你一生荣耀你
一生奉献一生不回头
一生爱你 跟随你
一生奉献一生不回头
我爱你 跟随你
O Lord cleanse me with your song.
Help me see much further than my eyes can.
Make me seek you before all things.
I love you, but your love for me is incomparable.
Take my sins away O Lord, take me away,
into your arms of love.
亲爱的宝贵耶稣
你爱何等的甘甜
我的心深深被你吸引
爱你是我的喜乐
一生爱你一生敬拜你
一生爱你一生荣耀你
一生奉献一生不回头
一生爱你 跟随你
亲爱的宝贵耶稣
你爱何等的甘甜
我的心深深被你吸引
爱你是我的喜乐
一生爱你一生敬拜你
一生爱你一生荣耀你
一生奉献一生不回头
一生爱你 跟随你
一生爱你一生敬拜你
一生爱你一生荣耀你
一生奉献一生不回头
一生爱你 跟随你
一生奉献一生不回头
我爱你 跟随你
O Lord cleanse me with your song.
Help me see much further than my eyes can.
Make me seek you before all things.
I love you, but your love for me is incomparable.
Take my sins away O Lord, take me away,
into your arms of love.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
We are 4......................months.
We will like to give thanks to the One that makes every dream possible. And our dream too.
And of cos, the friends that has been our friends during all these time.
Eh of cos, we ain't forgetting God's melody makers, Falter None.
Also our NYC friends.
THANK YOUsssss!
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Happy Feet
A new show is on the way!!
And it's really cute..too cute to handle! Happy Feet's all about penguins, i suppose. And that reason is good enuff to watch the show! Aw...i can't help but go: "Didi, Didi!" hahaha....
Didi should watch this show.
http://wwws.la.warnerbros.com/happyfeet/
Enjoy!!
And it's really cute..too cute to handle! Happy Feet's all about penguins, i suppose. And that reason is good enuff to watch the show! Aw...i can't help but go: "Didi, Didi!" hahaha....
Didi should watch this show.
http://wwws.la.warnerbros.com/happyfeet/
Enjoy!!
Sunday, September 24, 2006
3MTHSOLD
We are 3 months old...and countin'!
She got this very nice necklace with 3 different pendants. A crown, a tresure chest and a star. Well she kinda put them together herself. And also she got me a photoframe with her best favourite drawing. Very nice of her. And I think she looks like me!
Work has been a down. Life has been neutral.
Gotta find that juice again to flow.....someone I have been seeing for the last five years told me to put that kind of fire for God into work. And add on that God has nothin to do with his sucess. We must depend on ourselves for every sucess that has to come. And a huge bag of stuff fell near him after he said that. "God must be angry?!" he mumbled. My dear boss sounded scared.
Anyways have a nice day.
She got this very nice necklace with 3 different pendants. A crown, a tresure chest and a star. Well she kinda put them together herself. And also she got me a photoframe with her best favourite drawing. Very nice of her. And I think she looks like me!
Work has been a down. Life has been neutral.
Gotta find that juice again to flow.....someone I have been seeing for the last five years told me to put that kind of fire for God into work. And add on that God has nothin to do with his sucess. We must depend on ourselves for every sucess that has to come. And a huge bag of stuff fell near him after he said that. "God must be angry?!" he mumbled. My dear boss sounded scared.
Anyways have a nice day.
Monday, September 11, 2006
Its been some time....
It's been some time, since I last blogged.
It's been some time, since the 'kids' joined Falter None.
Looking back, I really think we have achieved quite something for the past half a year. I take great pride in seeing my 'students' thru their musical 'BMTs'. And they have grown a big step. Man, did I mention how fast they can go with their rollings?
This is a blog entry taken from one of my student's blog. It's for Teacher's Day.
This is my babe. Daphne Blue. Nice.
It's been some time, since the 'kids' joined Falter None.
Looking back, I really think we have achieved quite something for the past half a year. I take great pride in seeing my 'students' thru their musical 'BMTs'. And they have grown a big step. Man, did I mention how fast they can go with their rollings?
This is a blog entry taken from one of my student's blog. It's for Teacher's Day.
This is my babe. Daphne Blue. Nice.
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Falter None Is Mystery Inc.
We had this very funny outing on Monday evening.
Falter None took one day off to go see guitar together. By grace my dad lent me his car. We went to almost all the good guitar shops in town, most lah not all. Had a stupid fine ticket cos I forgot to use the parking coupon. Was lookin fer this hardcase for my newly arrived Epiphone acoustic electric guitar. But all the cases i fancy won't fit. haha. We spent the rest of the night having dinner abd cruising around Singapore in my daddy's car. Went exploring. At one point we even parked inside the gas station for quite some time figuring out where to go next, and eating chips....and chatting. I felt like we are Mystery Inc. when we are trying to find the abandon mansion. But we cant find it, probably they have it teared down. Thanks guys! Its really fun!
For the people who didnt join us, next time we shall do this again yah.
I am vocalist for the next combine service. Laugh. :)
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Friends
Friends
(Eric Johnson)
Night, darkness of night
I've got a friend, I'm turning to
Stay, beside me now
Though night and day, might slip away
Always with you, there I will be
Where you might go, I'll be there too
I have in you, such a good friend
I have in you, such a good friend
Days, numbers of days
Giving us now, love in this day
Life, all of my life
I've got a friend, I'm turning to
Always with you, there I will be
Where you might go, I'll be there too
I have in you, such a good friend
Friend like as you, there is no end.
(Eric Johnson)
Night, darkness of night
I've got a friend, I'm turning to
Stay, beside me now
Though night and day, might slip away
Always with you, there I will be
Where you might go, I'll be there too
I have in you, such a good friend
I have in you, such a good friend
Days, numbers of days
Giving us now, love in this day
Life, all of my life
I've got a friend, I'm turning to
Always with you, there I will be
Where you might go, I'll be there too
I have in you, such a good friend
Friend like as you, there is no end.
Thursday, August 17, 2006
The third post for the day...crazy!
Okok, maybe its abit too much havin posted the 3rd post of the day!!
Well...this picture posting is really fun...i felt so denied for the past eight months..hahaha!
Still tryin to fix a logo for the band....i really love wings....
we had great fun!!
*thanks to Kaiwei for the pics....!!
pics
My padawan just taught me how to upload pics on my blog...aiyo so easy lor...i am like "what so easy..i could have been uploadin pics all these while..!"
so I am gonna make this blog, pictures blog.
Enjoy!
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
I'll Remember You
I'll Remember You ~ Amy Grant
I will be walking one day
Down a street far away
And see a face in the crowd and smile
Knowing how you made me laugh
Hearing sweet echoes of you from the past
I will remember you.
Look into my eyes while you're near
Tell me what's happening here
See that I don't want to say good-bye
Our love is frozen in time
I'll be your champion and you will be mine
I will remember you.
Later on
When the nights not so tender
Given time
Though it's hard to remember
I will be holding
I'll still be holding to you
I will remember you.
So many years come and gone
And yet the memory is strong
One word we never could learn
Good-bye
True love is frozen in time
I'll be your champion and you will be mine
I will remember you
So please remember
I will remember you
I will remember you
I will remember you
I will remember you
*this is a lovely song, just to share....
I will be walking one day
Down a street far away
And see a face in the crowd and smile
Knowing how you made me laugh
Hearing sweet echoes of you from the past
I will remember you.
Look into my eyes while you're near
Tell me what's happening here
See that I don't want to say good-bye
Our love is frozen in time
I'll be your champion and you will be mine
I will remember you.
Later on
When the nights not so tender
Given time
Though it's hard to remember
I will be holding
I'll still be holding to you
I will remember you.
So many years come and gone
And yet the memory is strong
One word we never could learn
Good-bye
True love is frozen in time
I'll be your champion and you will be mine
I will remember you
So please remember
I will remember you
I will remember you
I will remember you
I will remember you
*this is a lovely song, just to share....
Monday Night Jamming
Monday Night Jamming happened to be a wonderful experience.
So glad God gave us a wonderful start. We are supposed to be rusty, but I supposed we did well. Seen improvements in my students and that encourage me alot. Perhaps thats all i am looking for on this night. I dun care if I played off beat, but I am so glad to find the wonderful surprises they have unknowingly given to me. Play on girls. Play on Falter None. Thanks to Ivy for gracing us with her pressence! Its great to have a keyboardist/guitarist/drummer in our midst. It's fun! Jiayou to Polly, glad to have you playing with us.....its real nice to be able to share a band with you.
Thanks Kaiwei for the lovely pics on your blog.
Polly is getting Fender Hello Kitty Stratocaster, that comes with a nice pink and black Hello Kitty gigbag. She already had the Hello Kitty guitar picks.
Hey Yijie, nice complete drumrolls. Least now its not broken up and it sounds full on, and continue to evolve your drumrolls. Let every stroke breathe.....:)
Should i get a tele, strat, or SG?
Oh Weiyang, mr brown rocks!!! Thanks!!
So glad God gave us a wonderful start. We are supposed to be rusty, but I supposed we did well. Seen improvements in my students and that encourage me alot. Perhaps thats all i am looking for on this night. I dun care if I played off beat, but I am so glad to find the wonderful surprises they have unknowingly given to me. Play on girls. Play on Falter None. Thanks to Ivy for gracing us with her pressence! Its great to have a keyboardist/guitarist/drummer in our midst. It's fun! Jiayou to Polly, glad to have you playing with us.....its real nice to be able to share a band with you.
Thanks Kaiwei for the lovely pics on your blog.
Polly is getting Fender Hello Kitty Stratocaster, that comes with a nice pink and black Hello Kitty gigbag. She already had the Hello Kitty guitar picks.
Hey Yijie, nice complete drumrolls. Least now its not broken up and it sounds full on, and continue to evolve your drumrolls. Let every stroke breathe.....:)
Should i get a tele, strat, or SG?
Oh Weiyang, mr brown rocks!!! Thanks!!
Wednesday, August 9, 2006
SleepinFaith Revisited
Lucify didn't win, but I admire them for their stand in their style and music and being true to themselves.
Yes bro, it does brings back the good o days of SleepinFaith when i tot of Ah Huat(Lucify's guitatrist). How ecstatic we are at that point of time. Even though SleepinFaith wasn't technically the best band I had, but SleepinFaith was my soul, and I guess the same can be said to u guys too. And we are not technical anyways...but we enjoy every single minute in the lifespan of this wonderful band.
The next jamming is around the corner, and I am feeling nervous.
I have a good rest all these while. Sorted out my thoughts and ready to go. My apologies to the students affected by the sudden stop. Hopefully you gus are not too rusty. Feeing nervous cos I want to do it good.
I must have neglected a few ppl. Hey, I am sorry for that too. Sometimes I should just open my mouth to express how i really fel inside, but then again I feel paiseh sometimes. I need to talk to these ppl. :)
Spent good amount of time with Polly these few days. I found a mother, in her mum. She really cares alot about my well being. She will called and make drinks and do this and that. From cai po neng to fried potatoes to my cupboard in her room, I am truly touched. Frankly, I have done nothing to deserve all these blessings.......so..........THANK YOUs...!! Thank you Jieying.
Doin DI in 213 isnt't really bad, it's GOOD.
Alrite, my lunch is callin' me......
Yes bro, it does brings back the good o days of SleepinFaith when i tot of Ah Huat(Lucify's guitatrist). How ecstatic we are at that point of time. Even though SleepinFaith wasn't technically the best band I had, but SleepinFaith was my soul, and I guess the same can be said to u guys too. And we are not technical anyways...but we enjoy every single minute in the lifespan of this wonderful band.
The next jamming is around the corner, and I am feeling nervous.
I have a good rest all these while. Sorted out my thoughts and ready to go. My apologies to the students affected by the sudden stop. Hopefully you gus are not too rusty. Feeing nervous cos I want to do it good.
I must have neglected a few ppl. Hey, I am sorry for that too. Sometimes I should just open my mouth to express how i really fel inside, but then again I feel paiseh sometimes. I need to talk to these ppl. :)
Spent good amount of time with Polly these few days. I found a mother, in her mum. She really cares alot about my well being. She will called and make drinks and do this and that. From cai po neng to fried potatoes to my cupboard in her room, I am truly touched. Frankly, I have done nothing to deserve all these blessings.......so..........THANK YOUs...!! Thank you Jieying.
Doin DI in 213 isnt't really bad, it's GOOD.
Alrite, my lunch is callin' me......
Wednesday, August 2, 2006
nunchucks and sticks
I keep dropping my sticks while I am playing. :(
Oh man, it's really embarrassing. Haha, thankfully didn't got too bad. But I saw this pair of Zildjians with yellow rubber grips, looks interesting to me!! What's happening to my grip? Shawn Yue's character in Dragon Tiger Gate uses nunchucks, so cool.
During one scene he lost his grip on his nunchucks during a duel. Then he realise it's because he uses might to hold them, not heart, hence it cause him to lost grip. Oh man, did i hold too tight then? Haha. I like Shawn Yue's character. Polly said the clothes and hairstyles in that show all me. I think they are really cool.......cool show.
Polly' mum is a blast! She's cool and funny....I called her jie jie the other day! Haha, cos I am 20 years older than her bro, and her bro called me gor gor. Her mum is 20 yrs older, so by right I should also call her jie jie lor..! Then she said, I better think carefully whether is it wiser to call her sister or auntie, cos auntie can evolve into mummy one day wor...she's legend!!
Gonna have my arm X-ray tomorrow. Somethin isn't right. Dunno whats wrong. Please pray for me when u guys read this. Hopefully nothin big.
Ok, I am gonna practice my nunchucks.....and dyed my hair ash, wear denims and look cool.
Kidding.
Goodnight.
Oh man, it's really embarrassing. Haha, thankfully didn't got too bad. But I saw this pair of Zildjians with yellow rubber grips, looks interesting to me!! What's happening to my grip? Shawn Yue's character in Dragon Tiger Gate uses nunchucks, so cool.
During one scene he lost his grip on his nunchucks during a duel. Then he realise it's because he uses might to hold them, not heart, hence it cause him to lost grip. Oh man, did i hold too tight then? Haha. I like Shawn Yue's character. Polly said the clothes and hairstyles in that show all me. I think they are really cool.......cool show.
Polly' mum is a blast! She's cool and funny....I called her jie jie the other day! Haha, cos I am 20 years older than her bro, and her bro called me gor gor. Her mum is 20 yrs older, so by right I should also call her jie jie lor..! Then she said, I better think carefully whether is it wiser to call her sister or auntie, cos auntie can evolve into mummy one day wor...she's legend!!
Gonna have my arm X-ray tomorrow. Somethin isn't right. Dunno whats wrong. Please pray for me when u guys read this. Hopefully nothin big.
Ok, I am gonna practice my nunchucks.....and dyed my hair ash, wear denims and look cool.
Kidding.
Goodnight.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
if u are reading this.....
I have tagboard for my blog!
Didn't even see that comin, but it brings a smile to my face when i saw it! Thanks to my super duper Padawan, without her, none of this will happened! So a hundred million thanks to you!! And also your message. I was so anxious to read my email as the studio internet was down. That email makes me think alot. And i wasn't negative at all when i read the email. Just reflected on several aspect of what went down. Anyway it still feels good to be part of monday night RAW, erm, i mean monday night jamming, sorry got carried away by wrestling.
I gotta buy a replica championship belt to match Polly's unthinkable trophies and medals collection.
Bro, if u are reading this, i am sorry for the stuff that happened. But I think we need to cool it. Let time heal, and let God reveal whats to be done.
Bro, if u are reading this, we miss you at jammings.
Bro, if u are reading this, teach me more leh....Paige is like wasting away. :)
Sis (plural), if u are reading this, thanks thanks thanks. The practice provides fun and laughter. Talentime feels like it's mine too.
Polly, if u are reading this, I love you!
Epiphone on the way baby!!
Didn't even see that comin, but it brings a smile to my face when i saw it! Thanks to my super duper Padawan, without her, none of this will happened! So a hundred million thanks to you!! And also your message. I was so anxious to read my email as the studio internet was down. That email makes me think alot. And i wasn't negative at all when i read the email. Just reflected on several aspect of what went down. Anyway it still feels good to be part of monday night RAW, erm, i mean monday night jamming, sorry got carried away by wrestling.
I gotta buy a replica championship belt to match Polly's unthinkable trophies and medals collection.
Bro, if u are reading this, i am sorry for the stuff that happened. But I think we need to cool it. Let time heal, and let God reveal whats to be done.
Bro, if u are reading this, we miss you at jammings.
Bro, if u are reading this, teach me more leh....Paige is like wasting away. :)
Sis (plural), if u are reading this, thanks thanks thanks. The practice provides fun and laughter. Talentime feels like it's mine too.
Polly, if u are reading this, I love you!
Epiphone on the way baby!!
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
It's time to go
This is it.
I think I need to pour it all out. And so it begins.
I think I have taken crap from time to time. And I have been absorbing it and keeping it within. And not wanting to tell it cos it might affect relationship and friendship. So any unhappiness was kept within. I always have this fear of makin ppl angry, tryin to please ppl, being understanding. Giving benefits of a doubt. From time to time. And still doin it til this point of time. But enough is enough. Work has been hard. Hardly find any real friendship there. Just me and my struggles, and me keeping mum about it. Well, fine. Anyways the ppl @ work are only colleagues. So I can don't dwell so much into it. Have this feeling of getting chewed and spitted. Fine.
Anytime a friend or someone question me on things they are not even remotely understand, this puts me into a huge rage. Ignorance has a price. Where is the concern in this matter? They like to comment on something they dun understand. But where's the concern shown? Dun get me wrong. But there are ppl who are concern, and they show concern, the right way. They talk to you. They ask genuine concerning questions. And yes, they are not sacarstic. They dun make u feel like a lesser human being. C'mon, lets face it...i think to even begin questioning ppl abt certain things, I feel they should look inot their lives and look into themselves and reflect on their lives and question themselves about the way they live thier lives. Kinda make me think that these ppl are quite 'yaya' lor. Church ppl are a headache most of the time. They think they care but they continue to judge, or make ppl feel like they are been judge. Where is the love? Love doesn't comes in harsh tones or harsh words. U think bitter the better? Think twice when u want to approach ppl in bitter medicine. Sometimes you ain't no cure, but the Almighty One is. WWJD?
I have to be frank, but there are ppl who has spoken to me reflects kindness and the genuine want to help and understand things. Not that I have alot of mess that there are constantly ppl approachin me on that. No. Thses ppl, i truly appraciate. I feel respected and encourage by these folks.
My relationship. Goin strong. God has been a great part in our lives. We never left Him out of the picture. The mercy He has shown is great. We are forever grateful. Been talkin to Ying's mum, and have a greater understandin of her as well. We truly enjoy family life with her family, sometimes mine. Her kid sister and bro is such fun!! So is her dad, who is really funny and polite. And her mum and me are like best friend liao. We talk alot and have alot of mutual understanding. We hardly quarrel. We usually talk. She's such an easy goin person and she really listen when we are havin conversation. She's simple and understanding, and always take the effort to make things better and never raise her voice. Sometimes when I am down, she will take me by my hand and ease me. I guess shes the sweetest thing i have ever known. And i really do cherish her. Shes everything I have imagine a partner in life to be. She's simply..her. Thank God.
Jammings.
Got to be frank, but I want to stop jamming, soon. I have been thinking hard about it. We hardly really jam christian songs anymore. Things are messy. Esp when Weiyang left. But i understand he has his commitments, and i know i have mine. Its not cheap to jam too. I need to save and I am not enjoyin it as much. To make myself perfectly clear, i love music. But goin to jammings on every monday doesn't reflect my passion for music at all. The music at jamming is not somethin i want to do anymore. Church music is all i care. Perhaps i really don't want to play like last time. I like what i am playin for the service now, and i plan to stick to that. Back to my commitments, i think i want to spend more time on that. I know it's only once a week, but its been a dreading few weeks for me these while. If not for my students, i would just leave. Cos I am tired. And all that tension that has been building, relational problems, Polly's head been pushed(damn angry at that point)...i dun see God has anythin to do wif jammings anymore. In a way, thru my perspective, it is quite self-entertaining, self-focus, in many aspect during jammings. And i dun like it. I dunno why I am doin it, this jamming thingy. I dun understand it anymore.
So I rather be like Weiyang, when I can help, i will help. But at this age and this point of time, i think there are some things i should prioritise. I also feel there's certain dangers arise from our weekly jammings. Which is so unclear sometimes to what it really is. And i don't want Polly to go thru this either. I am beginning to think it's kinda unhealthy. Somthings are clear lah. If u see a dead-end, u detour. I appreciate some of the nicer stuff that happened during these few months, but there are also stuff i totally dislike.
I guess my work there are done. I feel like I have nothin more to give. And I am happy to see ppl playin music. And hopefully one day all these gift will be given back to serving God. And I am embarking on another music journey for myself. Yes i want to learn string instruments. And I have yet to begin actually. People have been encouraging me to step forth and learn. And it happen that I am not alone in this journey. Polly will be joining me for it, which is like another encouragement. I am not alone:)
It's time to go.
I think I need to pour it all out. And so it begins.
I think I have taken crap from time to time. And I have been absorbing it and keeping it within. And not wanting to tell it cos it might affect relationship and friendship. So any unhappiness was kept within. I always have this fear of makin ppl angry, tryin to please ppl, being understanding. Giving benefits of a doubt. From time to time. And still doin it til this point of time. But enough is enough. Work has been hard. Hardly find any real friendship there. Just me and my struggles, and me keeping mum about it. Well, fine. Anyways the ppl @ work are only colleagues. So I can don't dwell so much into it. Have this feeling of getting chewed and spitted. Fine.
Anytime a friend or someone question me on things they are not even remotely understand, this puts me into a huge rage. Ignorance has a price. Where is the concern in this matter? They like to comment on something they dun understand. But where's the concern shown? Dun get me wrong. But there are ppl who are concern, and they show concern, the right way. They talk to you. They ask genuine concerning questions. And yes, they are not sacarstic. They dun make u feel like a lesser human being. C'mon, lets face it...i think to even begin questioning ppl abt certain things, I feel they should look inot their lives and look into themselves and reflect on their lives and question themselves about the way they live thier lives. Kinda make me think that these ppl are quite 'yaya' lor. Church ppl are a headache most of the time. They think they care but they continue to judge, or make ppl feel like they are been judge. Where is the love? Love doesn't comes in harsh tones or harsh words. U think bitter the better? Think twice when u want to approach ppl in bitter medicine. Sometimes you ain't no cure, but the Almighty One is. WWJD?
I have to be frank, but there are ppl who has spoken to me reflects kindness and the genuine want to help and understand things. Not that I have alot of mess that there are constantly ppl approachin me on that. No. Thses ppl, i truly appraciate. I feel respected and encourage by these folks.
My relationship. Goin strong. God has been a great part in our lives. We never left Him out of the picture. The mercy He has shown is great. We are forever grateful. Been talkin to Ying's mum, and have a greater understandin of her as well. We truly enjoy family life with her family, sometimes mine. Her kid sister and bro is such fun!! So is her dad, who is really funny and polite. And her mum and me are like best friend liao. We talk alot and have alot of mutual understanding. We hardly quarrel. We usually talk. She's such an easy goin person and she really listen when we are havin conversation. She's simple and understanding, and always take the effort to make things better and never raise her voice. Sometimes when I am down, she will take me by my hand and ease me. I guess shes the sweetest thing i have ever known. And i really do cherish her. Shes everything I have imagine a partner in life to be. She's simply..her. Thank God.
Jammings.
Got to be frank, but I want to stop jamming, soon. I have been thinking hard about it. We hardly really jam christian songs anymore. Things are messy. Esp when Weiyang left. But i understand he has his commitments, and i know i have mine. Its not cheap to jam too. I need to save and I am not enjoyin it as much. To make myself perfectly clear, i love music. But goin to jammings on every monday doesn't reflect my passion for music at all. The music at jamming is not somethin i want to do anymore. Church music is all i care. Perhaps i really don't want to play like last time. I like what i am playin for the service now, and i plan to stick to that. Back to my commitments, i think i want to spend more time on that. I know it's only once a week, but its been a dreading few weeks for me these while. If not for my students, i would just leave. Cos I am tired. And all that tension that has been building, relational problems, Polly's head been pushed(damn angry at that point)...i dun see God has anythin to do wif jammings anymore. In a way, thru my perspective, it is quite self-entertaining, self-focus, in many aspect during jammings. And i dun like it. I dunno why I am doin it, this jamming thingy. I dun understand it anymore.
So I rather be like Weiyang, when I can help, i will help. But at this age and this point of time, i think there are some things i should prioritise. I also feel there's certain dangers arise from our weekly jammings. Which is so unclear sometimes to what it really is. And i don't want Polly to go thru this either. I am beginning to think it's kinda unhealthy. Somthings are clear lah. If u see a dead-end, u detour. I appreciate some of the nicer stuff that happened during these few months, but there are also stuff i totally dislike.
I guess my work there are done. I feel like I have nothin more to give. And I am happy to see ppl playin music. And hopefully one day all these gift will be given back to serving God. And I am embarking on another music journey for myself. Yes i want to learn string instruments. And I have yet to begin actually. People have been encouraging me to step forth and learn. And it happen that I am not alone in this journey. Polly will be joining me for it, which is like another encouragement. I am not alone:)
It's time to go.
FYI
Just FYI, my co pilot and I didn't kiss.
She just told me how she feel about me, and by saying "I love you" is something beautiful for me to want to blog so when I looked back again, I will be able to remember the nice moment. And be able to savour it in the future. And it's the first time she said that to me.
Yes, yes...Mr Popular indeed.
That's not a title i want.
And FYI, the lower half of the previous blog is the lyrics to a song by Extreme.
Nothing to fuss about. Nothin in link with me and my girlfriend. Thanks so much for your concern.
Thank you.
She just told me how she feel about me, and by saying "I love you" is something beautiful for me to want to blog so when I looked back again, I will be able to remember the nice moment. And be able to savour it in the future. And it's the first time she said that to me.
Yes, yes...Mr Popular indeed.
That's not a title i want.
And FYI, the lower half of the previous blog is the lyrics to a song by Extreme.
Nothing to fuss about. Nothin in link with me and my girlfriend. Thanks so much for your concern.
Thank you.
Monday, July 24, 2006
The Precious First time.
24th July Monday 11:10 PM
Her Place.
Her words: "I love you."
The first time.........she said that. :)
'When I First Kiss You' ~ Extreme
New York City can be so pretty,
from a bird's eye view.
Because up there,
Yeah, that's where I first kissed you
A modern day romance.
A perfect performance.
Acting like two fools.
Saying silly things.
Whisper sweet nothings.
Live young lovers only do.
I was shaking.
You were breathtaking.
Like the Empire State.
My voice was so far.
Not quite Sinatra.
Singing songs so great.
The clock struck one.
The night still very young.
In the city that never sleeps.
Then a whirlwind blew.
When I first kissed you,
nearly swept me,
Swept me off my feet.
When I first kissed you.
That's when I knew,
I was in love.
Because up there,
Yeah, that's where,
I first kissed you.
Her Place.
Her words: "I love you."
The first time.........she said that. :)
'When I First Kiss You' ~ Extreme
New York City can be so pretty,
from a bird's eye view.
Because up there,
Yeah, that's where I first kissed you
A modern day romance.
A perfect performance.
Acting like two fools.
Saying silly things.
Whisper sweet nothings.
Live young lovers only do.
I was shaking.
You were breathtaking.
Like the Empire State.
My voice was so far.
Not quite Sinatra.
Singing songs so great.
The clock struck one.
The night still very young.
In the city that never sleeps.
Then a whirlwind blew.
When I first kissed you,
nearly swept me,
Swept me off my feet.
When I first kissed you.
That's when I knew,
I was in love.
Because up there,
Yeah, that's where,
I first kissed you.
Sunday, July 23, 2006
John Lennon Signature Acoustic
Eh I dunno what to blog at this moment of time. Just want to type something. Fingers itchy.
A lot of books read halfway. Let me see, there's this book abt Keith Green given to me from Tim which I read halfway. 'Fit To Be Tied' has yet to be finish. I got this new book called 'Singles and Relationship', which is so apt at this point of my life, and so is Fit To BE Tied. And also the daily devotional book the YF ppl are reading right now.....cos Ying is reading, so I want to gain something from that book too. At the same time we can have daily devotional together, which we are doin right now.
I have yet to get that acoustic guitar. Very picky this time. I would say much more pickier compare to the times when I am getting my bass guitar. I was throw back and forth from my choices of Epiphone, Fender and Yamaha. Epiphone is my choice brand, and John Lennon Signature and PR50E is the two acoustic/electric I gotta have! Yah, my Fender bass amp just arrived! NICE!
So happy Iris wanted to further improve Jieying pn the piano. Hopefull fruits will bear. Jia yous to the both of u guyz!
TODAY is monday, but there will be no jammings today! Think the studio is goin to 'bai ti gong' or something la. MAybe it's due to the Hungry Ghost Thingy..i dunno. So today I shall rest. Think gonna spend alot of days goin to T21 this week. YF rehersals and also this Sunday's Baptism service and Sunday service. Wenguang was encouragin me to get the John Lennon's guitar. Yes, it's so beautiful. Oh I am the photographer for church camp this year.....mmm, sweet. Gonna do a better job this year. Hopefull it will be a beautiful experience at the camp this year.
So what should I get? Lennon's or PR50E? Or my Nissan Sunny?
Or save for 'next time'... the BIG THING?
Haha.........(I think this is a happy blog, Dear..hee..)
A lot of books read halfway. Let me see, there's this book abt Keith Green given to me from Tim which I read halfway. 'Fit To Be Tied' has yet to be finish. I got this new book called 'Singles and Relationship', which is so apt at this point of my life, and so is Fit To BE Tied. And also the daily devotional book the YF ppl are reading right now.....cos Ying is reading, so I want to gain something from that book too. At the same time we can have daily devotional together, which we are doin right now.
I have yet to get that acoustic guitar. Very picky this time. I would say much more pickier compare to the times when I am getting my bass guitar. I was throw back and forth from my choices of Epiphone, Fender and Yamaha. Epiphone is my choice brand, and John Lennon Signature and PR50E is the two acoustic/electric I gotta have! Yah, my Fender bass amp just arrived! NICE!
So happy Iris wanted to further improve Jieying pn the piano. Hopefull fruits will bear. Jia yous to the both of u guyz!
TODAY is monday, but there will be no jammings today! Think the studio is goin to 'bai ti gong' or something la. MAybe it's due to the Hungry Ghost Thingy..i dunno. So today I shall rest. Think gonna spend alot of days goin to T21 this week. YF rehersals and also this Sunday's Baptism service and Sunday service. Wenguang was encouragin me to get the John Lennon's guitar. Yes, it's so beautiful. Oh I am the photographer for church camp this year.....mmm, sweet. Gonna do a better job this year. Hopefull it will be a beautiful experience at the camp this year.
So what should I get? Lennon's or PR50E? Or my Nissan Sunny?
Or save for 'next time'... the BIG THING?
Haha.........(I think this is a happy blog, Dear..hee..)
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Woke up at the wrong side of the bed.
Woke up at the wrong side of the bed.
Didn't sleep much last night. Slept at five, woke up at eight. Didn't need that much rest, i guess.
Being zombie-ish at work is hard enuff. More stress from work. After five years in the studio, i felt like a discarded trash paper. I dun feel important at all. I think I am beginning to feel unimportant anywhere else. I feel like shit. I feel like I am an empty carcass. Fit to burn. There's no hope whatsoever. And I can't leave my post. Cos there are ppl depending on my income. Cos I have my priorities and commitments.
I remembered my 29th birthday again. Being at this age, and at this stage, in career and life, I really think I haven't achieved as much as I ought to be. I always think that a job is just a means, and being Jesus' disciple is the utmost role and the most honorable thing to do. Perhaps I wasn't wrong. But I do want to earn more for my family next time. I didn't study hard, and I am payin for it now. So what if I am hardworking? I really can't face this world head on...can I survive another five years. God, what's happening to me? Why do i feel this way?
I don't want to assist anymore. I don't want to be doin people's stuff. Yet I think I can't handle my own. What can I do?
Perhaps I should be the plain me.
Every corners i turn, there's dead-end. Every aspect of my life is ugly. I felt unappreciated.
I should just shut up, and hide away. Where no one can find me.
Didn't sleep much last night. Slept at five, woke up at eight. Didn't need that much rest, i guess.
Being zombie-ish at work is hard enuff. More stress from work. After five years in the studio, i felt like a discarded trash paper. I dun feel important at all. I think I am beginning to feel unimportant anywhere else. I feel like shit. I feel like I am an empty carcass. Fit to burn. There's no hope whatsoever. And I can't leave my post. Cos there are ppl depending on my income. Cos I have my priorities and commitments.
I remembered my 29th birthday again. Being at this age, and at this stage, in career and life, I really think I haven't achieved as much as I ought to be. I always think that a job is just a means, and being Jesus' disciple is the utmost role and the most honorable thing to do. Perhaps I wasn't wrong. But I do want to earn more for my family next time. I didn't study hard, and I am payin for it now. So what if I am hardworking? I really can't face this world head on...can I survive another five years. God, what's happening to me? Why do i feel this way?
I don't want to assist anymore. I don't want to be doin people's stuff. Yet I think I can't handle my own. What can I do?
Perhaps I should be the plain me.
Every corners i turn, there's dead-end. Every aspect of my life is ugly. I felt unappreciated.
I should just shut up, and hide away. Where no one can find me.
Being 29
My 29th birthday just passed. I am 29. The last birthday with the 2 in front. I want to believe it's a special birthday. I was really lookin forward to it. Alot of anticipation. Alot of thoughts. But quietly, 29th birthday crept pass me in a blink.
That's basically how i felt.
It's a special day....i would want to think that it is. Being 29. Spent the whole day with Dear. She is lovely.
I am thankful for all the nice messages of well wishes for me. thanks guys for typin a special message for me for this day. Thanks for the celebration too. I am thankful.
I am 29 this year.
19th birthday seems like yesterday. It's beautiful.
29th birthday.........gone.
And I love you.
Goodnight.
That's basically how i felt.
It's a special day....i would want to think that it is. Being 29. Spent the whole day with Dear. She is lovely.
I am thankful for all the nice messages of well wishes for me. thanks guys for typin a special message for me for this day. Thanks for the celebration too. I am thankful.
I am 29 this year.
19th birthday seems like yesterday. It's beautiful.
29th birthday.........gone.
And I love you.
Goodnight.
Monday, July 10, 2006
Never leave God out of your relationship.
The pressence of God seems really near these days.
Someone told me she didn't like reading my blog as I sounded negative most of the time. I do really think I blog better when I am down, and didn't blog deeper when I am high. That's just me I think. Living a life full of downs and sins all these while, I really wish I can blog deeper about happier times. I will try.
But happier days are just ahead.
Most of you might already know about my new relationship. It's a baby at this moment. Young, child-like, needs nurturing, alot of care and love to allow growth. Sometimes happy and bright like a playful baby. Other times like a whimpering child. Suddenly my identity has taken new roles and was thrown into so many different and difficult situations all at the same time. Who said that a loving relationship is an easy one? Nope, it's never easy. Just when you thought this someone is so similiar with you, you choose to close your eyes on the differences. Love defeats all obsticles, God's love. Realise that without God nothing works. Even if the love of two individuals is so strong, without God, we are nothing.
I am not complaining, I am not sad. I am not regretting, I am happy to be where i am right now. I am glad for the trials and test and the tears. U need rain and sun to grow. A plant can only grow with the planter's effort and love. The rain and shine provides the best lessons in life. Really looking forward for this new journey. I want to get there. We want to get there..Me, her and God. See the special thing about christian relationship, it involves a third party. When thing are down and out, God's eminence is prominant!!
Never leave God out of your relationship.
Someone told me she didn't like reading my blog as I sounded negative most of the time. I do really think I blog better when I am down, and didn't blog deeper when I am high. That's just me I think. Living a life full of downs and sins all these while, I really wish I can blog deeper about happier times. I will try.
But happier days are just ahead.
Most of you might already know about my new relationship. It's a baby at this moment. Young, child-like, needs nurturing, alot of care and love to allow growth. Sometimes happy and bright like a playful baby. Other times like a whimpering child. Suddenly my identity has taken new roles and was thrown into so many different and difficult situations all at the same time. Who said that a loving relationship is an easy one? Nope, it's never easy. Just when you thought this someone is so similiar with you, you choose to close your eyes on the differences. Love defeats all obsticles, God's love. Realise that without God nothing works. Even if the love of two individuals is so strong, without God, we are nothing.
I am not complaining, I am not sad. I am not regretting, I am happy to be where i am right now. I am glad for the trials and test and the tears. U need rain and sun to grow. A plant can only grow with the planter's effort and love. The rain and shine provides the best lessons in life. Really looking forward for this new journey. I want to get there. We want to get there..Me, her and God. See the special thing about christian relationship, it involves a third party. When thing are down and out, God's eminence is prominant!!
Never leave God out of your relationship.
Grace
"Grace is what makes you keep checking your pocket to make sure your life with God is still there. Worship is what happens when you find out it is."
God's grace. The wonderful element that frees us all from our own sins.
We are such underserving creatures. Unworthy, and sinful. Yet not a day pass by without God's amazing grace happening in our lives. If I think of myself as super rubberband that refuse to snap after so much pull, God is a super super super rubberband that never snaps for all of us here in this world. He is always patient, and always waiting for us to speak to Him.
I cannot lift up my face to see You, for You are pure, and i am not.
Thank You for the things that make me who I am today.
Thank You for your unmeasureable Grace.
Thank You for all the tears.
Thank You for being there all these while.
God's grace. The wonderful element that frees us all from our own sins.
We are such underserving creatures. Unworthy, and sinful. Yet not a day pass by without God's amazing grace happening in our lives. If I think of myself as super rubberband that refuse to snap after so much pull, God is a super super super rubberband that never snaps for all of us here in this world. He is always patient, and always waiting for us to speak to Him.
I cannot lift up my face to see You, for You are pure, and i am not.
Thank You for the things that make me who I am today.
Thank You for your unmeasureable Grace.
Thank You for all the tears.
Thank You for being there all these while.
Sunday, July 9, 2006
We and our Families
Went to church with her in the morning. Attended chinese service today.
It was abit funny for us to walk into the service hall together. We are still not use to attend church together. I guess it's normal to feel that way. So many people. But I guess we will get used to this soon. It's another stage of our journey to get used to. We went our seperate ways as she needs to meet her frens for lunch and i have to attend a WEC debriefing. Its kinda long, the meeting. I was really drained after that. But I still meet her after the meeting. She brought me to her Grandma's place for dinner. Oh man, wasn't ready for this. There were many people there when we reached. A family gathering of sorts. Cousins, uncles and aunties were there. Her family were there. I was thankful for we were greeted with affirming smiles and teases. They were nice to me. We had a nice time there. I am glad I agree to go cos I really want to meet her family members. To get to know them. Was really dependant on her mum and bro cos they are closer to me.
After that, we went to my place as i needed to shower badly. She had sharings with my parents when i am having my shower. My mum said to her she's pretty. She's like so paiseh. Haha. I told her she's beautiful too. She help them filled up the baptism form. She did that with such sincerity. Was happy to see her mixing well with my folks. Then i showed her my Tee shirt collection. And of cos, my jacket collection. She's amazed by the amount of clothings i have, yet I didn't seem to wear them at all.
She told me I have to wait 5 years to marry her. I suggested three years. Haha....she told me her mum said she will marry me in three years time. I hope for God's blessing in this. Be it 3 or 5 years, I told her I am willing to wait.
We're in love.
It was abit funny for us to walk into the service hall together. We are still not use to attend church together. I guess it's normal to feel that way. So many people. But I guess we will get used to this soon. It's another stage of our journey to get used to. We went our seperate ways as she needs to meet her frens for lunch and i have to attend a WEC debriefing. Its kinda long, the meeting. I was really drained after that. But I still meet her after the meeting. She brought me to her Grandma's place for dinner. Oh man, wasn't ready for this. There were many people there when we reached. A family gathering of sorts. Cousins, uncles and aunties were there. Her family were there. I was thankful for we were greeted with affirming smiles and teases. They were nice to me. We had a nice time there. I am glad I agree to go cos I really want to meet her family members. To get to know them. Was really dependant on her mum and bro cos they are closer to me.
After that, we went to my place as i needed to shower badly. She had sharings with my parents when i am having my shower. My mum said to her she's pretty. She's like so paiseh. Haha. I told her she's beautiful too. She help them filled up the baptism form. She did that with such sincerity. Was happy to see her mixing well with my folks. Then i showed her my Tee shirt collection. And of cos, my jacket collection. She's amazed by the amount of clothings i have, yet I didn't seem to wear them at all.
She told me I have to wait 5 years to marry her. I suggested three years. Haha....she told me her mum said she will marry me in three years time. I hope for God's blessing in this. Be it 3 or 5 years, I told her I am willing to wait.
We're in love.
Saturday, July 8, 2006
Ying
Just can't fall asleep.
And I have to wake up early for church later. Sigh...haha...my mind's full of Ying at this moment. I just can't fall asleep.
Went to her place for her bro's birthday the day before. Her mum invited me. I wasn't nervous, but more like excited to meet her family. I have met and talk to her mum when I just got back from my mission trip. She's a nice lady. According to Ying, she has been encouraging in our relationship. Many many thanks for this. Well, I think I just click with her siblings right away. They are friendly and warmth. I had fun with her bro playin monopoly, which is really cute. Met her daddy. Funny guy, full of humour. Had this wonderful sumptious dinner with the whole family. Her mum show me all her pics from baby time to now. She's just such sweet kid...beautiful kid. I am indeed fortunate to have her by my side. Somehow the pics make me love her even deeper. Sweet.....
Went to her place agin yesterday. Help her sort out some of her piano scores. She feel asleep while lazing on her couch. I was beside her when she rested. I just looked at her....every breath she exhale, every passing moment...i was in such a thankful state. I was mesmerise by her. Words can't describe.
She went for YF later and i waited for her. She went to CG today with me, after her own CG. I wanted to introduce her to my group. We had buffet somewhere at Killiney, and she was nervous abt meeting my bros and sis. Yupp i announce at the table..Jieying is my girlfriend! And of cos alot of questions were shoot for us to answer....haha...Serene ask abt what physical part attracts us to each other...and our answers are, our eyes. Yes I love her eyes, and she love mine too.
Mu heart was filled with what had happened the past 2 days. I have took some of her pics home, a suggestion from her mum. Haha...gonna scan them and do something special and nice. Maybe a section of my room will be dedicated to her and our pics...so much has happened...I am really at lost of words. Just plain happy. So in love with this person. And I know, she loves me as much. Thank God for giving me such a gentle and beautiful person whom i can share my life with.
God, gave us peace. Guide us along. Help us in this walk. Be with us every moment. Teach us the right things. Let us have you in this relationship. We need You.
Jieying, my love, thank you.
( I better sleep now, or else I will be late for church later!!)
And I have to wake up early for church later. Sigh...haha...my mind's full of Ying at this moment. I just can't fall asleep.
Went to her place for her bro's birthday the day before. Her mum invited me. I wasn't nervous, but more like excited to meet her family. I have met and talk to her mum when I just got back from my mission trip. She's a nice lady. According to Ying, she has been encouraging in our relationship. Many many thanks for this. Well, I think I just click with her siblings right away. They are friendly and warmth. I had fun with her bro playin monopoly, which is really cute. Met her daddy. Funny guy, full of humour. Had this wonderful sumptious dinner with the whole family. Her mum show me all her pics from baby time to now. She's just such sweet kid...beautiful kid. I am indeed fortunate to have her by my side. Somehow the pics make me love her even deeper. Sweet.....
Went to her place agin yesterday. Help her sort out some of her piano scores. She feel asleep while lazing on her couch. I was beside her when she rested. I just looked at her....every breath she exhale, every passing moment...i was in such a thankful state. I was mesmerise by her. Words can't describe.
She went for YF later and i waited for her. She went to CG today with me, after her own CG. I wanted to introduce her to my group. We had buffet somewhere at Killiney, and she was nervous abt meeting my bros and sis. Yupp i announce at the table..Jieying is my girlfriend! And of cos alot of questions were shoot for us to answer....haha...Serene ask abt what physical part attracts us to each other...and our answers are, our eyes. Yes I love her eyes, and she love mine too.
Mu heart was filled with what had happened the past 2 days. I have took some of her pics home, a suggestion from her mum. Haha...gonna scan them and do something special and nice. Maybe a section of my room will be dedicated to her and our pics...so much has happened...I am really at lost of words. Just plain happy. So in love with this person. And I know, she loves me as much. Thank God for giving me such a gentle and beautiful person whom i can share my life with.
God, gave us peace. Guide us along. Help us in this walk. Be with us every moment. Teach us the right things. Let us have you in this relationship. We need You.
Jieying, my love, thank you.
( I better sleep now, or else I will be late for church later!!)
Wednesday, July 5, 2006
I Love Polly
I love Polly.
Goodbye past, hello future.......
Thank you God for giving us peace and joy.
Goodbye past, hello future.......
Thank you God for giving us peace and joy.
Sunday, July 2, 2006
Quiet Sunday
Sunday passed by real quick.
Today we had Holy communion. I was in the worship team today. Wasn't supposed to be in the team but i volunteered to play, since i thought i am free on weekends and have nothin much to do on friday so i went for rehersal on friday night. Glad i make that choice. Diana was playin for us, which is great. Really enjoyed her way with the keyboard. She has such flow.
Halfway thru the set, i broke my bassdrum pedal. Was very sure i didn't hit real hard this time, but it broke anyways. Somehow i wasn't caught off guard, and continue to play like nothin happen. Thank God my trusty Ele Congies were around to make the save. Really glad I didn't took her home. Sermon was really good. Make me reflect on many things.
Had lunch with my CG. Has been awhile since i hang out with them. Really long while. It's fun to be with them again. Didn't watch Superman Return with them as i had already watch it with Polly. Wanted to get that Dr Martens Boots and the acoustic guitar today, but my pay's not in yet. So i went home. Wanted to clear my messy room, but fell asleep instead.
Woke up around eight. Had dinner. Cleared my room. Surf abit of net. Nothin much to do at all. But feel really satisfied cos my room is back to it's original clean state. Went thru some old clothings, realised i have some many cool vintage tees and jeans that i dun wear anymore. But I think they are really cool just the way they are, lying there in the closet. Resemble so much like the vintage clothing stores at HK. Cool.
I had a real quiet sunday. Just very simple and nice. Had good rest. That explains why I am still up. I think of Polly. I think of my friends. I think of things to come. I really like a simple life. But I don't like being alone. Somehow empty.
I want to quickly learn the bass, and practice guitar with Polly. Paige is mad at me, she must have feel bored to be in the case all the time. Haha.
Something weird happened. But I am not gonna blog about it. it bothers me for awhile. Really funny at the same time. Well, hope it's not I thought it is.
I think I am like just waiting for tuesday to come around.
Waiting for the plane to touch down.
Today we had Holy communion. I was in the worship team today. Wasn't supposed to be in the team but i volunteered to play, since i thought i am free on weekends and have nothin much to do on friday so i went for rehersal on friday night. Glad i make that choice. Diana was playin for us, which is great. Really enjoyed her way with the keyboard. She has such flow.
Halfway thru the set, i broke my bassdrum pedal. Was very sure i didn't hit real hard this time, but it broke anyways. Somehow i wasn't caught off guard, and continue to play like nothin happen. Thank God my trusty Ele Congies were around to make the save. Really glad I didn't took her home. Sermon was really good. Make me reflect on many things.
Had lunch with my CG. Has been awhile since i hang out with them. Really long while. It's fun to be with them again. Didn't watch Superman Return with them as i had already watch it with Polly. Wanted to get that Dr Martens Boots and the acoustic guitar today, but my pay's not in yet. So i went home. Wanted to clear my messy room, but fell asleep instead.
Woke up around eight. Had dinner. Cleared my room. Surf abit of net. Nothin much to do at all. But feel really satisfied cos my room is back to it's original clean state. Went thru some old clothings, realised i have some many cool vintage tees and jeans that i dun wear anymore. But I think they are really cool just the way they are, lying there in the closet. Resemble so much like the vintage clothing stores at HK. Cool.
I had a real quiet sunday. Just very simple and nice. Had good rest. That explains why I am still up. I think of Polly. I think of my friends. I think of things to come. I really like a simple life. But I don't like being alone. Somehow empty.
I want to quickly learn the bass, and practice guitar with Polly. Paige is mad at me, she must have feel bored to be in the case all the time. Haha.
Something weird happened. But I am not gonna blog about it. it bothers me for awhile. Really funny at the same time. Well, hope it's not I thought it is.
I think I am like just waiting for tuesday to come around.
Waiting for the plane to touch down.
Saturday, July 1, 2006
Insignificant me
Some significant things to an insignificant me:
. Empty pocky boxes lying on top of my vinyl record player.
. messages in my cell phone.
. Photographs.
. Her house keys.
. Her tertiary student EZ Link card
. Super Lover watch.
. photos in my cell phone.
. time spent waiting.
. uncertainties.
. my memories.
. Her house keys and tertiary student EZ Link card and photographs......
. more memories fromt he past.
. my room, my sanctuary.
. my understanding of the things that occured...
. .....and many more burdens, waiting for me.
Why can't I sent you off in a better manner?
. Empty pocky boxes lying on top of my vinyl record player.
. messages in my cell phone.
. Photographs.
. Her house keys.
. Her tertiary student EZ Link card
. Super Lover watch.
. photos in my cell phone.
. time spent waiting.
. uncertainties.
. my memories.
. Her house keys and tertiary student EZ Link card and photographs......
. more memories fromt he past.
. my room, my sanctuary.
. my understanding of the things that occured...
. .....and many more burdens, waiting for me.
Why can't I sent you off in a better manner?
Thursday, June 29, 2006
我也很想他
那時我們總有好多話 什麼事都可以講
我的愛情比你早 卻一直放在心上
後來你們之間的變化 我不想再多說話
經過了相遇和掙扎
我還是無法將他放下
那是多久後的事了 有一天你突然問我
在那個時候 是否也愛著他
我也很想他 我們都一樣
在他的身上 曾找到翅膀
只是那時的他 是因為你他開始飛翔
我也很想他 在某個地方
我少了尷尬 你少了肩膀
而夏天還是那麼短 思念卻很長
還記得 那年我們曾許下的願望
星星騙了我們 我們卻因此上了一課
成長必修的學分
我們都一樣
我的愛情比你早 卻一直放在心上
後來你們之間的變化 我不想再多說話
經過了相遇和掙扎
我還是無法將他放下
那是多久後的事了 有一天你突然問我
在那個時候 是否也愛著他
我也很想他 我們都一樣
在他的身上 曾找到翅膀
只是那時的他 是因為你他開始飛翔
我也很想他 在某個地方
我少了尷尬 你少了肩膀
而夏天還是那麼短 思念卻很長
還記得 那年我們曾許下的願望
星星騙了我們 我們卻因此上了一課
成長必修的學分
我們都一樣
Since i threw my sadness away....only yesterday.
ONLY YESTERDAY
After long enough of being alone
Everyone must face their share of loneliness
In my own time nobody knew
The pain I was goin' through
And waitin' was all my heart could do
Hope was all I had until you came
Maybe you can't see how much you mean to me
You were the dawn breaking the night
The promise of morning light
Filing the world surrounding me
When I hold you
(*) Baby, Baby
Feels like maybe things will be all right
Baby, Baby
Your love's made me
Free as a song singin' forever
(**) Only yesterday when I was sad
And I was lonely
You showed me the way to leave
The past and all its tears behind me
Tomorrow may be even brighter than today
Since I threw my sadness away
Only Yesterday
I have found my home here in your arms
Nowhere else on earth I'd really rather be
Life waits for us
Share it with me
The best is about to be
So much is left for us to see
When I hold you
***** It's for you, cos you're family. Pls come back soon......
After long enough of being alone
Everyone must face their share of loneliness
In my own time nobody knew
The pain I was goin' through
And waitin' was all my heart could do
Hope was all I had until you came
Maybe you can't see how much you mean to me
You were the dawn breaking the night
The promise of morning light
Filing the world surrounding me
When I hold you
(*) Baby, Baby
Feels like maybe things will be all right
Baby, Baby
Your love's made me
Free as a song singin' forever
(**) Only yesterday when I was sad
And I was lonely
You showed me the way to leave
The past and all its tears behind me
Tomorrow may be even brighter than today
Since I threw my sadness away
Only Yesterday
I have found my home here in your arms
Nowhere else on earth I'd really rather be
Life waits for us
Share it with me
The best is about to be
So much is left for us to see
When I hold you
***** It's for you, cos you're family. Pls come back soon......
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Goodbye my past, hello my present.
It's late and i have to wake up early tommorrow for work.
Just feel like saying something.
Hi this is Michel.
Drummer. Music lover. Aspired music lover, who is finding it hard to lift up his puny pen to write anythin lately. Who is not playin any right beat on his drums lately.
Think that was the blow that i need. But it's fine actually. People are comin and leavin like it's a club or mall. Feel so deeply unappreciated. But of cos there's a few who were there and stickin to it like a tattoo on their bodies....sometimes i just wonder why do i even bother....which in this case, at this moment, i have decided......i will just have to move on with the rest.
Been reading abt Keith Green. Thanks to Tim who bought me this book about Keith Green. Was so inspired by what i read...the way he and his wife operates...its just so amazing.
I begin to reflect on my life. Wow if only i could be like him. haha....His wife is like the ideal sidekick. Just can't help but to think that it will be wonderful to have somone who plays music passionately with me for the rest of my life. Someone who plays the guitar, or piano...someone who can love God together with me....who can write songs with me.....my thoughts jus go on and on.......yupp that person is so near. I know her face. God....it's amazing.
and so.....He leads me right to Yamaha in the most unnoticeable corner of tampines mall. Yamaha sell many beautiful acoustic guitars. Really lovely ones. Did God lead me here. I was so filled with Him as i walk into the shop, my ipod is playin Don Moen...I begin to ask if this is what He wants me to do.....
Shared this with Polly. I suggested we can ling xiu together once a week, and perhaps practice guitar together once a week too..she was so supportive and totally excited about this. Man...i was so encouraged! I still don't know if this amounts to anythin at all in the future, but for now this is it. U have to believe it to make it happen. But to see Polly's beautiful eyes gleaming with those smiles, what can be wrong about this? :)
For a whole afternoon of reflection....to knowing my existing demons from the past, to God's reassuring breeze, to Polly's readilly nods and smiles....i know there are things i have to do. First is to exorcist any remaining past demons that is holdin me back. Have to ask for forgiveness too, if i offended ppl in the past. Have to talk to my sheperd. Have to account for Polly, for it's my job as a man. For i wanted to take care of her. So i have to do this. I have to look forward, not peek backwards every now and then. Goodbye my past, hello my present.
Thanks Polly. I have find in you all the comfort and inspiration and love. You are always so sweet and understanding. And u never look into my past and judge me. And always encouragin me to move forward....
Thanks........to God who is almighty and was always patting on my back and said: "get up and go!" When times are bad, when people judge, it's always You who stretch out your hand for me. Thanks for being my best friend. :)
Just feel like saying something.
Hi this is Michel.
Drummer. Music lover. Aspired music lover, who is finding it hard to lift up his puny pen to write anythin lately. Who is not playin any right beat on his drums lately.
Think that was the blow that i need. But it's fine actually. People are comin and leavin like it's a club or mall. Feel so deeply unappreciated. But of cos there's a few who were there and stickin to it like a tattoo on their bodies....sometimes i just wonder why do i even bother....which in this case, at this moment, i have decided......i will just have to move on with the rest.
Been reading abt Keith Green. Thanks to Tim who bought me this book about Keith Green. Was so inspired by what i read...the way he and his wife operates...its just so amazing.
I begin to reflect on my life. Wow if only i could be like him. haha....His wife is like the ideal sidekick. Just can't help but to think that it will be wonderful to have somone who plays music passionately with me for the rest of my life. Someone who plays the guitar, or piano...someone who can love God together with me....who can write songs with me.....my thoughts jus go on and on.......yupp that person is so near. I know her face. God....it's amazing.
and so.....He leads me right to Yamaha in the most unnoticeable corner of tampines mall. Yamaha sell many beautiful acoustic guitars. Really lovely ones. Did God lead me here. I was so filled with Him as i walk into the shop, my ipod is playin Don Moen...I begin to ask if this is what He wants me to do.....
Shared this with Polly. I suggested we can ling xiu together once a week, and perhaps practice guitar together once a week too..she was so supportive and totally excited about this. Man...i was so encouraged! I still don't know if this amounts to anythin at all in the future, but for now this is it. U have to believe it to make it happen. But to see Polly's beautiful eyes gleaming with those smiles, what can be wrong about this? :)
For a whole afternoon of reflection....to knowing my existing demons from the past, to God's reassuring breeze, to Polly's readilly nods and smiles....i know there are things i have to do. First is to exorcist any remaining past demons that is holdin me back. Have to ask for forgiveness too, if i offended ppl in the past. Have to talk to my sheperd. Have to account for Polly, for it's my job as a man. For i wanted to take care of her. So i have to do this. I have to look forward, not peek backwards every now and then. Goodbye my past, hello my present.
Thanks Polly. I have find in you all the comfort and inspiration and love. You are always so sweet and understanding. And u never look into my past and judge me. And always encouragin me to move forward....
Thanks........to God who is almighty and was always patting on my back and said: "get up and go!" When times are bad, when people judge, it's always You who stretch out your hand for me. Thanks for being my best friend. :)
Sunday, June 25, 2006
People=Plural but God=Singular
Think people is lightning quick to judge. Yes, live with it. Close friends have a higher tendency sometimes. I think it sure feels good to have the power to judge people......but then again, we are not God.
. Is it really shocking to see what you saw? Perhaps it's becos you haven't know me lately, the things that happened in my life. If u do, i am sure, you can tell things are actually quite good, not shocking. :) There's reason why things happened. I could have guess your reaction....and perhaps to some levels i am not comfortable abt it. But then again it's your feelings, not mine. Who am i to say how u should feel? I think its a probable natural reaction that you are shocked, haha...yes i am sure i know what i am doin. Cos I am at peace with it. At least i would like to say this.....i am not in a 暧昧 stage anymore. Things are clear, thoughts are clear, theres no communication blockage. No heated arguements, only understanding nods and truckload of words spoken from the heart. Why can't people learn how to communicate well, instead of guessings and assuming? Erm, i think we can speak cos we are given a mouth, so use it to communicate. The mouth is not meant to be a weapon by the way....
Sorry to tell u i should leave. Sorry to tell u i am no good for you. Sorry to tell u that you are not ready. Sorry for those tears. @ that point i feel that i am no good. But deep down, I was hoping u will ask me to stay. It's an emotional weekend for you. But I am glad to be there. Yes not to mentioned the buzzings of the unwanted attentions. It's sure irritating to some point. Like it's an eternal road to peacefulville. Yes there should always be a God in our lives. God love u and me. Us. Instead of us holding hands, why dun we let God hold ours' ? :)
People, people, people, people........the messy lot.
That's why people are plural and God is and will forever be, singular..........for He is the one thing we ever need.
. Is it really shocking to see what you saw? Perhaps it's becos you haven't know me lately, the things that happened in my life. If u do, i am sure, you can tell things are actually quite good, not shocking. :) There's reason why things happened. I could have guess your reaction....and perhaps to some levels i am not comfortable abt it. But then again it's your feelings, not mine. Who am i to say how u should feel? I think its a probable natural reaction that you are shocked, haha...yes i am sure i know what i am doin. Cos I am at peace with it. At least i would like to say this.....i am not in a 暧昧 stage anymore. Things are clear, thoughts are clear, theres no communication blockage. No heated arguements, only understanding nods and truckload of words spoken from the heart. Why can't people learn how to communicate well, instead of guessings and assuming? Erm, i think we can speak cos we are given a mouth, so use it to communicate. The mouth is not meant to be a weapon by the way....
Sorry to tell u i should leave. Sorry to tell u i am no good for you. Sorry to tell u that you are not ready. Sorry for those tears. @ that point i feel that i am no good. But deep down, I was hoping u will ask me to stay. It's an emotional weekend for you. But I am glad to be there. Yes not to mentioned the buzzings of the unwanted attentions. It's sure irritating to some point. Like it's an eternal road to peacefulville. Yes there should always be a God in our lives. God love u and me. Us. Instead of us holding hands, why dun we let God hold ours' ? :)
People, people, people, people........the messy lot.
That's why people are plural and God is and will forever be, singular..........for He is the one thing we ever need.
Sunday, June 18, 2006
to be continue
i am lookin for a peaceful corner in my life, and i think i found more than that.
i look high and i look low...and i caught a glimpse of those eyes that glitters.
i have travelled a long and winding path, not knowing what tomorrow brings, but i think i have found hope.
i reckon i have found the missing piece of the puzzle.
wait til i see what the whole puzzle reveal......
............(to be continue.)
i look high and i look low...and i caught a glimpse of those eyes that glitters.
i have travelled a long and winding path, not knowing what tomorrow brings, but i think i have found hope.
i reckon i have found the missing piece of the puzzle.
wait til i see what the whole puzzle reveal......
............(to be continue.)
Thursday, June 15, 2006
Show me The Way
Hi.
Need to blog about this. Relationship stuff.
Truly it's easy to get into a relationship not really understanding the significance and importance of being with another person. Some people take a whole lifetime to understand the true meaning of getting together. I hope i am not that person. I feel that its really really inportant to graps the true concept of getting together with someone, true concept being God's standards.
Many factors have to be considered. Trust, faith, commitment...understanding the other party's needs and to truly love one another in godly ways. Being there for the other person in the most undesirable times. Like-mindness.
I ponder and ponder. How many lessons to go to get prepared and equipped? Have i truly know how to lead and take care of that person? I guess i am not truly prepared yet. I need God's guidance and love, patience and endurance. Perserverance. It's scary sometimes. The situations i got myself into......when will it be the right time?
Sometimes things can be so grey.
Hopefully God shows the way. I need to depend on him for the courage to face whats to come. It's not going to be easy. It just not easy when u are lost in the crowd. Situations. I am beginning to think I might never be ready. But at least I know i must trust God for this, and do the right thing, make the right choice.
To the person who reads this. It's not easy. Never easy. This whirlwind ride. I hope to be silent for now, to let God speaks to me. To let God show me the way. I feel so squashed up. So drained and unworthy. So sinful and.......bad. I need God.
But, I also want to give thanks for the many wonderful things that happened as well. Truly in the midst of getting lost, God has been merciful and has been providing for me. I am continuing to give thanks, and truly learnt how to give thanks in good and bad times. I want to be a man who can lead his family one day, to be able to lead his wife. To be able to provide and to love deeply. To be able to give til the day when we see Him again.
This is a different experinece, and i am a different person. May God continue to show the way, to path the way.
I pray hard.
Need to blog about this. Relationship stuff.
Truly it's easy to get into a relationship not really understanding the significance and importance of being with another person. Some people take a whole lifetime to understand the true meaning of getting together. I hope i am not that person. I feel that its really really inportant to graps the true concept of getting together with someone, true concept being God's standards.
Many factors have to be considered. Trust, faith, commitment...understanding the other party's needs and to truly love one another in godly ways. Being there for the other person in the most undesirable times. Like-mindness.
I ponder and ponder. How many lessons to go to get prepared and equipped? Have i truly know how to lead and take care of that person? I guess i am not truly prepared yet. I need God's guidance and love, patience and endurance. Perserverance. It's scary sometimes. The situations i got myself into......when will it be the right time?
Sometimes things can be so grey.
Hopefully God shows the way. I need to depend on him for the courage to face whats to come. It's not going to be easy. It just not easy when u are lost in the crowd. Situations. I am beginning to think I might never be ready. But at least I know i must trust God for this, and do the right thing, make the right choice.
To the person who reads this. It's not easy. Never easy. This whirlwind ride. I hope to be silent for now, to let God speaks to me. To let God show me the way. I feel so squashed up. So drained and unworthy. So sinful and.......bad. I need God.
But, I also want to give thanks for the many wonderful things that happened as well. Truly in the midst of getting lost, God has been merciful and has been providing for me. I am continuing to give thanks, and truly learnt how to give thanks in good and bad times. I want to be a man who can lead his family one day, to be able to lead his wife. To be able to provide and to love deeply. To be able to give til the day when we see Him again.
This is a different experinece, and i am a different person. May God continue to show the way, to path the way.
I pray hard.
Saturday, June 3, 2006
See you guys.
Its been awhile since i last blog.
This mission trip gives me good reasons to blog at this point of time. It's my first time goin for mission. alot of anticipations and of cos, worries too. Adapting to a new surrounding. China is really far. I havent been there before. alot of uncertainties. Have to admit there are fears in me. Its jus me. for the pass five years werkin for Geoff, i have develope fears of goin overseas. I dun enjoy flyin. Even if its holiday, i dreaded flyin. i enjoy coach better.But I do believe in God's plan, and i believe i will be in good hands, even if problems were to arise. So God, i have been depending on you all these while, and this time time, for i am called to give, to spread your words to all nations, and declare your glory. i am in good hands.
People. I find sadness and joy in them. Gonna leave soon. the people in my life. Glad to have some of the closest ppl in my life in the team. Which is good. Thank God for them in the trip. It will be a blast! haha....
My Falter None buddies who didnt happen to be in this trip. keep the fire burning, will ya. I am gonna miss u guys, yes its just a short trip, sorry for being a tad bit too paranoid. It's just me. And peace be with me at long last. Xiaojia, thanks for reconcilling wif me prior to this trip. I need the peace to go for this trip. And thanks for being a friend. May God bless you the way He blessed me. Bihua, thanks for being a sister to me. SMU project rocks. It's a project worthwhile doin, in reference to our dear fren, xiaolu. Do keep her in prayers. Hopefully we will see her in our midst one day.
I truly enjoy the walkin we did the other night. Never walk that much in my recent memory. And wonderful sharing. Tirng but great. But i would love to walk a 'longer mile'....that breeze from the sea is from God. So refreshing. You can smell peace and calmness in the wind. u can find solace in those breeze, comin from the sea. I found solace in you. You melt those fears away. You set my mind at ease. Let's have another pocky stick.............:)
Alright.
I shall sleep now.
Take care, girls and boys.
3:35AM sunday morning, Jun 4th 2006
This mission trip gives me good reasons to blog at this point of time. It's my first time goin for mission. alot of anticipations and of cos, worries too. Adapting to a new surrounding. China is really far. I havent been there before. alot of uncertainties. Have to admit there are fears in me. Its jus me. for the pass five years werkin for Geoff, i have develope fears of goin overseas. I dun enjoy flyin. Even if its holiday, i dreaded flyin. i enjoy coach better.But I do believe in God's plan, and i believe i will be in good hands, even if problems were to arise. So God, i have been depending on you all these while, and this time time, for i am called to give, to spread your words to all nations, and declare your glory. i am in good hands.
People. I find sadness and joy in them. Gonna leave soon. the people in my life. Glad to have some of the closest ppl in my life in the team. Which is good. Thank God for them in the trip. It will be a blast! haha....
My Falter None buddies who didnt happen to be in this trip. keep the fire burning, will ya. I am gonna miss u guys, yes its just a short trip, sorry for being a tad bit too paranoid. It's just me. And peace be with me at long last. Xiaojia, thanks for reconcilling wif me prior to this trip. I need the peace to go for this trip. And thanks for being a friend. May God bless you the way He blessed me. Bihua, thanks for being a sister to me. SMU project rocks. It's a project worthwhile doin, in reference to our dear fren, xiaolu. Do keep her in prayers. Hopefully we will see her in our midst one day.
I truly enjoy the walkin we did the other night. Never walk that much in my recent memory. And wonderful sharing. Tirng but great. But i would love to walk a 'longer mile'....that breeze from the sea is from God. So refreshing. You can smell peace and calmness in the wind. u can find solace in those breeze, comin from the sea. I found solace in you. You melt those fears away. You set my mind at ease. Let's have another pocky stick.............:)
Alright.
I shall sleep now.
Take care, girls and boys.
3:35AM sunday morning, Jun 4th 2006
Monday, May 22, 2006
I blog again.
I blog again.
Kinda like staring at the computer screen for the longest time. Just blank staring wif occasional chats wif frens, very occasional.
Music had been playing over and over again.....and my work isn't half done. This is a dateline week. Friday is coming soon. Reckon to be another hectic week. I want to rest. I dun want to sleep thats all. I can't anyway wif the amount of work and other commitments to attend to. Where is my hiding place as of late? It seems to vanish into thin air. Oh man, i felt so empty. Where am I headin?
Sometimes i wonder if i have depression. I guess i think too much for my own good.
Courageous yet a the same time timid. Sometimes I am just no sure. I wish I can jus fall into a deep coma and wake up a year later..then i will grow young and i won't be able to remember anythin. Kinda like restartin the computer...everything's fresh and I have a new beginning. A new path. A new hope.
Fear has crept silently into life.
What am I sayin? Does it even makes sense? Why am i sayin all these...things has been goin on well, right? So why am i having typing out these sentiments? Something's wrong somewhere. I gotta call the mechanic, perhaps He can fix me up. He definitely can. I jus keep stalling. Who's willing to drive this car? Fix me.
Emptiness.
I think I am jus been tired. Silly me.
12:19AM Tue May 23rd
Kinda like staring at the computer screen for the longest time. Just blank staring wif occasional chats wif frens, very occasional.
Music had been playing over and over again.....and my work isn't half done. This is a dateline week. Friday is coming soon. Reckon to be another hectic week. I want to rest. I dun want to sleep thats all. I can't anyway wif the amount of work and other commitments to attend to. Where is my hiding place as of late? It seems to vanish into thin air. Oh man, i felt so empty. Where am I headin?
Sometimes i wonder if i have depression. I guess i think too much for my own good.
Courageous yet a the same time timid. Sometimes I am just no sure. I wish I can jus fall into a deep coma and wake up a year later..then i will grow young and i won't be able to remember anythin. Kinda like restartin the computer...everything's fresh and I have a new beginning. A new path. A new hope.
Fear has crept silently into life.
What am I sayin? Does it even makes sense? Why am i sayin all these...things has been goin on well, right? So why am i having typing out these sentiments? Something's wrong somewhere. I gotta call the mechanic, perhaps He can fix me up. He definitely can. I jus keep stalling. Who's willing to drive this car? Fix me.
Emptiness.
I think I am jus been tired. Silly me.
12:19AM Tue May 23rd
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Pocky Choc
Another super packed day!
Another busy day in church. So really packed. Like theres no break @ all. I am not complaining la. I kinda enjoy this day. had a nice sharing wif Sis Charis. Yes God has been gracious to both of us. I just feel that becos of His Almighty grace, we are such great friends who can share so much and so deep. I am appreciating this friendship we have. SMU yearbook project rocks Sis! even tho we are so busy tryin to get this thingy done, I am sure it's another highlight of our wonderful friendship. :)
Pocky Choc. The days will be empty without, Simply You! Things have been wonderful til this stage. U are a source of encouragement. A great inspiration. Enjoyin this journey. Have to rely on God for guidance and strength, peace, love and JOY. The polly in my pocket....................:)
Sleep now. Dun disturb.
1:38AM Mon21stMay2006
Another busy day in church. So really packed. Like theres no break @ all. I am not complaining la. I kinda enjoy this day. had a nice sharing wif Sis Charis. Yes God has been gracious to both of us. I just feel that becos of His Almighty grace, we are such great friends who can share so much and so deep. I am appreciating this friendship we have. SMU yearbook project rocks Sis! even tho we are so busy tryin to get this thingy done, I am sure it's another highlight of our wonderful friendship. :)
Pocky Choc. The days will be empty without, Simply You! Things have been wonderful til this stage. U are a source of encouragement. A great inspiration. Enjoyin this journey. Have to rely on God for guidance and strength, peace, love and JOY. The polly in my pocket....................:)
Sleep now. Dun disturb.
1:38AM Mon21stMay2006
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Even tho its only like 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 seconds......hi and bye!
Had a really fulfilling day!
Woke up. Its 10am. I still have alot to do for the SMU project and the meeting is due in 2 and half hrs. Rush it thru. did some nice designs, i think. Rush to SMU. Met the rest of the commitee. Cool bunch of ppl. Dudes and babes. Spend a great amount of time monkeying around the school. Got some work done too....got the stories shot. Shot the building. Shot ppl. Shot Bibi. Shot Xiaolu. Shot anyone in sight. I am Triggerhappy Mike!
Rush off for CG at ard five plus. Bought dinner. Saw Meiling. Acc her to buy dinner.Took A cab. Reach T21. GOT A PLEASANT SURPRISE @ THE LIFT....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
Had bibble studies. Saw some familiar faces. Bible studies. QnA......make my way home. type sms. reply sms......my bag is so heavy. Pocky sticks on my mind. Tired. Hungry. Hee.
* Kaiwei, great job for initiating to share what u have learnt with Kaien. the Kais should help one another. Yijie, are u learning too? haha. Kaien, make sure u get ready cos i want to hear what u have learnt! Get ready wor!! haha.
** No there's no coincidence in this world. Yes, it's very nice. Even tho its only like 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 seconds......hi and bye!
*** CG rocks even tho there's only 3 of us.
**** Okie i am hungry as i am typin this...i need food!!!
Sun 1:24AM 21st May 2006
Woke up. Its 10am. I still have alot to do for the SMU project and the meeting is due in 2 and half hrs. Rush it thru. did some nice designs, i think. Rush to SMU. Met the rest of the commitee. Cool bunch of ppl. Dudes and babes. Spend a great amount of time monkeying around the school. Got some work done too....got the stories shot. Shot the building. Shot ppl. Shot Bibi. Shot Xiaolu. Shot anyone in sight. I am Triggerhappy Mike!
Rush off for CG at ard five plus. Bought dinner. Saw Meiling. Acc her to buy dinner.Took A cab. Reach T21. GOT A PLEASANT SURPRISE @ THE LIFT....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
Had bibble studies. Saw some familiar faces. Bible studies. QnA......make my way home. type sms. reply sms......my bag is so heavy. Pocky sticks on my mind. Tired. Hungry. Hee.
* Kaiwei, great job for initiating to share what u have learnt with Kaien. the Kais should help one another. Yijie, are u learning too? haha. Kaien, make sure u get ready cos i want to hear what u have learnt! Get ready wor!! haha.
** No there's no coincidence in this world. Yes, it's very nice. Even tho its only like 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 seconds......hi and bye!
*** CG rocks even tho there's only 3 of us.
**** Okie i am hungry as i am typin this...i need food!!!
Sun 1:24AM 21st May 2006
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Heavy Hearted
I am tired.
I have a dateline to meet and a some problems to settle.
Slept with a heavy heart. Woke up with an even heavier heart, had to drag my carcass to work. And now here i am, stoning infront of my computer, blogging my endless thoughts. If only I can be better with my words, then perhaps I will find peace in bloggin my tots. There are words and expressions in my mind. But i can't transfer them to my fingers. They just didnt have the passport to export themselves out of the body...what am i sayin?
I want to trade my heavy heart. But find it so hard to do so. Guess I wasn't brave enuff, or perhaps its just another excuse. I need prayers. I need to think right. This is weird. The spot that was never meant to be. I couldn't find the words. I couldn't find my words.
It's been crazy.
Wed 9:55AM May 17th
I have a dateline to meet and a some problems to settle.
Slept with a heavy heart. Woke up with an even heavier heart, had to drag my carcass to work. And now here i am, stoning infront of my computer, blogging my endless thoughts. If only I can be better with my words, then perhaps I will find peace in bloggin my tots. There are words and expressions in my mind. But i can't transfer them to my fingers. They just didnt have the passport to export themselves out of the body...what am i sayin?
I want to trade my heavy heart. But find it so hard to do so. Guess I wasn't brave enuff, or perhaps its just another excuse. I need prayers. I need to think right. This is weird. The spot that was never meant to be. I couldn't find the words. I couldn't find my words.
It's been crazy.
Wed 9:55AM May 17th
Monday, May 15, 2006
JOY
when I said
"My foot is slipping",
your love,
O Lord, supported me.
When anxiety was great
within me, your consolation
brought joy to my soul.
Psalm 94:18-19
Indeed. God's consolation brought Joy to my soul.
"My foot is slipping",
your love,
O Lord, supported me.
When anxiety was great
within me, your consolation
brought joy to my soul.
Psalm 94:18-19
Indeed. God's consolation brought Joy to my soul.
♥
Have you ever wonder how it can rain so heavily one day and sunshine the next?
The significant ingredients for today:
. Roof terrace.
. Pocky Chocolate.
. The sea.
. A card that i made.
. Three handful of stones and pebbles.
. Nightbreezes.
. City Lights/skyscrappers.
Surprises are wonderful. The bus rides are wonderful.
Conversations are wonderful. Laughter are wonderful.
Smiles are wonderful. SMSes are wonderful. MSN while @ work are wonderful
Silly Jokes are wonderful. Throwing pebbles into the sea is wonderful.
Black is wonderful for this day.
誰戀愛就多障礙
死性我不想改
如我沒有你的愛
我沒法活得來
情人的存在
是我從來都志在
難在我拱手讓愛
2:43AM Tues 16 May 2006
The significant ingredients for today:
. Roof terrace.
. Pocky Chocolate.
. The sea.
. A card that i made.
. Three handful of stones and pebbles.
. Nightbreezes.
. City Lights/skyscrappers.
Surprises are wonderful. The bus rides are wonderful.
Conversations are wonderful. Laughter are wonderful.
Smiles are wonderful. SMSes are wonderful. MSN while @ work are wonderful
Silly Jokes are wonderful. Throwing pebbles into the sea is wonderful.
Black is wonderful for this day.
誰戀愛就多障礙
死性我不想改
如我沒有你的愛
我沒法活得來
情人的存在
是我從來都志在
難在我拱手讓愛
2:43AM Tues 16 May 2006
Sunday, May 14, 2006
"I wanted to be brave but I am a tired soul. There are fears and I am scared."
"I wanted to be brave but I am a tired soul. There are fears and I am scared."
Yes. Truly I don't wish to meet with same fate again. I don't want to go through another year of endless waiting and endless heart breaks. I am tired. I just can't find the strength to face that kind of same situation again. I don't want to. Things are so hopeless sometimes. And helpless too. Shades of grey covering my life. There's no distinctive path. An endless trail of searching. I have been dependant on God, I know i do/did.
Things can be so uncertain at times. Sometimes things happened so fast. Too fast to even savour the beauty of certain situations. I can't seem to grasp anythin at all. Just hate the feeling of waiting and waiting and waiting.....and waiting. Waiting for nothin. One way or another U get the blame. For being there or not being there.
There are so much fear in me.
I am just so tired. I don't know whats right or wrong anymore. What to do or not to do. What to expect or what to wait for.
I look for answers but i got more questions.
I hate to guess yet afraid to know the truth.
I need to sleep now..................
∂ 12:41AM Mon May 15th
Yes. Truly I don't wish to meet with same fate again. I don't want to go through another year of endless waiting and endless heart breaks. I am tired. I just can't find the strength to face that kind of same situation again. I don't want to. Things are so hopeless sometimes. And helpless too. Shades of grey covering my life. There's no distinctive path. An endless trail of searching. I have been dependant on God, I know i do/did.
Things can be so uncertain at times. Sometimes things happened so fast. Too fast to even savour the beauty of certain situations. I can't seem to grasp anythin at all. Just hate the feeling of waiting and waiting and waiting.....and waiting. Waiting for nothin. One way or another U get the blame. For being there or not being there.
There are so much fear in me.
I am just so tired. I don't know whats right or wrong anymore. What to do or not to do. What to expect or what to wait for.
I look for answers but i got more questions.
I hate to guess yet afraid to know the truth.
I need to sleep now..................
∂ 12:41AM Mon May 15th
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Had a great day @ work(even tho I was scolded by boss for a small mistake), anyway I am used to it liao....in fact I was quite cheerful after been scolded. haha.
A happy day cos we are havin jammin to day. Met Kaiwei before Jamming to have lunch. She picked me up cos she jus got her driving license, cool man, but please drive carefully. Had a fast dinner and jamming commenced. We did one hr then the students come in for another 2 hrs. Jieying finally manage to learn guitar from JC. Heard from JC she's a keen learner and ask many questions. Thats nice! keep it up!!
Kaiwei, u did well for the drums. Steady steady.....keep on rollin' and rollin' and rollin', hahaha.....you make me very happy. Very glad to have u as my student. And Yijie, I like your improvement. u know what, i really appreciate your unspoken passion and do keep this up. I think u did great...continue to drum on yah! u have it there liao.....just keep it goin!! Have faith in you! :)
Had a great time suppering with the crew after that. Then i sent Jieying back, carrying my baby to her block (yah treat her well, treat my baby well)...and spent great amount of time on the phone with Bihua and JC regardin music and personal stuff. IT"S A PACKED day.........and i am lovin' it! Haha!
Oh goin to the zoo later!!! Hee:)
I think i am abit xiaoxiao @ this hour.........super crazy!!
∂ 5:21AM FRI MAY 12th
A happy day cos we are havin jammin to day. Met Kaiwei before Jamming to have lunch. She picked me up cos she jus got her driving license, cool man, but please drive carefully. Had a fast dinner and jamming commenced. We did one hr then the students come in for another 2 hrs. Jieying finally manage to learn guitar from JC. Heard from JC she's a keen learner and ask many questions. Thats nice! keep it up!!
Kaiwei, u did well for the drums. Steady steady.....keep on rollin' and rollin' and rollin', hahaha.....you make me very happy. Very glad to have u as my student. And Yijie, I like your improvement. u know what, i really appreciate your unspoken passion and do keep this up. I think u did great...continue to drum on yah! u have it there liao.....just keep it goin!! Have faith in you! :)
Had a great time suppering with the crew after that. Then i sent Jieying back, carrying my baby to her block (yah treat her well, treat my baby well)...and spent great amount of time on the phone with Bihua and JC regardin music and personal stuff. IT"S A PACKED day.........and i am lovin' it! Haha!
Oh goin to the zoo later!!! Hee:)
I think i am abit xiaoxiao @ this hour.........super crazy!!
∂ 5:21AM FRI MAY 12th
PACKED.
Had a great day @ work(even tho I was scolded by boss for a small mistake), anyway I am used to it liao....in fact I was quite cheerful after been scolded. haha.
A happy day cos we are havin jammin to day. Met Kaiwei before Jamming to have lunch. She picked me up cos she jus got her driving license, cool man, but please drive carefully. Had a fast dinner and jamming commenced. We did one hr then the students come in for another 2 hrs. Jieying finally manage to learn guitar from JC. Heard from JC she's a keen learner and ask many questions. Thats nice! keep it up!!
Kaiwei, u did well for the drums. Steady steady.....keep on rollin' and rollin' and rollin', hahaha.....you make me very happy. Very glad to have u as my student. And Yijie, I like your improvement. u know what, i really appreciate your unspoken passion and do keep this up. I think u did great...continue to drum on yah! u have it there liao.....just keep it goin!! Have faith in you! :)
Had a great time suppering with the crew after that. Then i sent Jieying back, carrying my baby to her block (yah treat her well, treat my baby well)...and spent great amount of time on the phone with Bihua and JC regardin music and personal stuff. IT"S A PACKED day.........and i am lovin' it! Haha!
Oh goin to the zoo later!!! Hee:)
I think i am abit xiaoxiao @ this hour.........super crazy!!
∂ 5:21AM FRI MAY 12th
A happy day cos we are havin jammin to day. Met Kaiwei before Jamming to have lunch. She picked me up cos she jus got her driving license, cool man, but please drive carefully. Had a fast dinner and jamming commenced. We did one hr then the students come in for another 2 hrs. Jieying finally manage to learn guitar from JC. Heard from JC she's a keen learner and ask many questions. Thats nice! keep it up!!
Kaiwei, u did well for the drums. Steady steady.....keep on rollin' and rollin' and rollin', hahaha.....you make me very happy. Very glad to have u as my student. And Yijie, I like your improvement. u know what, i really appreciate your unspoken passion and do keep this up. I think u did great...continue to drum on yah! u have it there liao.....just keep it goin!! Have faith in you! :)
Had a great time suppering with the crew after that. Then i sent Jieying back, carrying my baby to her block (yah treat her well, treat my baby well)...and spent great amount of time on the phone with Bihua and JC regardin music and personal stuff. IT"S A PACKED day.........and i am lovin' it! Haha!
Oh goin to the zoo later!!! Hee:)
I think i am abit xiaoxiao @ this hour.........super crazy!!
∂ 5:21AM FRI MAY 12th
Monday, May 8, 2006
Timetable and Programs
Its been a busy week.
Felt so drained and tired. But not in a negative way. Been spending alot of time with frens...old and new. Ok i think i shall make this entry an 'eventful' one, Yijie thanks for reminding me that my blog is not 'eventful' enuff..haha!
sunday..went out with Wenjun, Jieying and Yuhang after service. Stayed out rather late. Tired but fun. And different.
monday...slack, sleep...zzzzzzzzz
tues....meet Jieying to give wenjun a surprise @ her werkplaceas its her first day @ werk.
wed...jamming with the crew. new friends join us...Jieying and Kaien. Yijie got improvements again.
thurs.....went out with Bihua, had a really nice dinner with her. Shared alot of things. Sent her home. Come home late.
Fri...practice @ T21. Had supper with Yixiang and Yijie. Sent Yijie home.
Sat...woke up late, booked air tix for Mission trip after Yijie confirms she's goin. Went to meet Bihua for SMU Yearbook project. Had a great time. went to CG..went home early.
Sun...church service..went out with Wenjun, Liying, Kaien, Jieying, Yijie and Xinglong. shopping @ Orchard. Had dinner with Yijie and Xinglong(thanks bro for the treat) @ Fish n Co. Meet a friend after that...come home late...
Mon....meet Jieying, then Yijie for dinner @ Wenjun's workplace. Had supper with them. Took train home with Yijie.
Guys its been fun hangin out with u guys.....i have never hang out like that..perhap I am getting old liao...haha cannot keep up! Thanks!!
9th May Tues 1:20am
Felt so drained and tired. But not in a negative way. Been spending alot of time with frens...old and new. Ok i think i shall make this entry an 'eventful' one, Yijie thanks for reminding me that my blog is not 'eventful' enuff..haha!
sunday..went out with Wenjun, Jieying and Yuhang after service. Stayed out rather late. Tired but fun. And different.
monday...slack, sleep...zzzzzzzzz
tues....meet Jieying to give wenjun a surprise @ her werkplaceas its her first day @ werk.
wed...jamming with the crew. new friends join us...Jieying and Kaien. Yijie got improvements again.
thurs.....went out with Bihua, had a really nice dinner with her. Shared alot of things. Sent her home. Come home late.
Fri...practice @ T21. Had supper with Yixiang and Yijie. Sent Yijie home.
Sat...woke up late, booked air tix for Mission trip after Yijie confirms she's goin. Went to meet Bihua for SMU Yearbook project. Had a great time. went to CG..went home early.
Sun...church service..went out with Wenjun, Liying, Kaien, Jieying, Yijie and Xinglong. shopping @ Orchard. Had dinner with Yijie and Xinglong(thanks bro for the treat) @ Fish n Co. Meet a friend after that...come home late...
Mon....meet Jieying, then Yijie for dinner @ Wenjun's workplace. Had supper with them. Took train home with Yijie.
Guys its been fun hangin out with u guys.....i have never hang out like that..perhap I am getting old liao...haha cannot keep up! Thanks!!
9th May Tues 1:20am
Thursday, April 27, 2006
YOU GUYS ROCKS!
Haha!!
Isn't all these joyous? I dunno, but I am beginning to be more thankful and spiritually uplifted theses days. awhile ago I thought things might go downhill again. BUT GOD HAS BEEN PROVIDING NONSTOP.......haha...glad to serve you Lord.
First of all, REALLY THANKFUL for all the 'boy and gals' who is learning drums from me. It has been a ride all these while! Even older ones like Siyang and Yizhuang....u guys have encouraged me before too! U guys just makes the sharing of my passion so much more interesting than i thought it will be!! :)
Okok, I want to comment on everyone now....
Terwei. Keep that juice flowing! I have seen your enthusiasm....sure i will get u drumsticks from HK!! JIA YOU JIA YOU!!
Wenjun. Its always fun to have u around!....but i do feel u have lost that touch u had in the beginnig....JIA YOU wor!
Yijie. Impressive! 2nd jamming and you are really doin well, even played with the band. (Oh yes, are u sure u can win me, even twidle the sticks with ur toes huh!! haha!! We shall see! And yah you are not the worst student, since theres no such thing in my class!!) Keep it up!!
Kaiwei. A WONDERFUL 1st lesson!! U surprise me lah! lIke i said before, i taught more then i expected to teach for the first lesson....hey, remember.....theres no stoppin from now onwards yah! You will get to play with the band soon..i promise! And take good care!
And also Yixiang. Bro, my bass buddy, your determination and passion is strong. Continue growing manz!! STEADY!!
Well guys, lets hope this journey will bring us closer not just to music but also to God as well. I have been very proud of you guys and really looking forward to jam or share with you guys. Lets continue to make melodies for God and live for God. You all are an encouragement to me!!
You all are my joy from God!
* oopps i think i am tearing....haha! Have a blessed week!
∂ Thurs 11:35PM 27th May
Isn't all these joyous? I dunno, but I am beginning to be more thankful and spiritually uplifted theses days. awhile ago I thought things might go downhill again. BUT GOD HAS BEEN PROVIDING NONSTOP.......haha...glad to serve you Lord.
First of all, REALLY THANKFUL for all the 'boy and gals' who is learning drums from me. It has been a ride all these while! Even older ones like Siyang and Yizhuang....u guys have encouraged me before too! U guys just makes the sharing of my passion so much more interesting than i thought it will be!! :)
Okok, I want to comment on everyone now....
Terwei. Keep that juice flowing! I have seen your enthusiasm....sure i will get u drumsticks from HK!! JIA YOU JIA YOU!!
Wenjun. Its always fun to have u around!....but i do feel u have lost that touch u had in the beginnig....JIA YOU wor!
Yijie. Impressive! 2nd jamming and you are really doin well, even played with the band. (Oh yes, are u sure u can win me, even twidle the sticks with ur toes huh!! haha!! We shall see! And yah you are not the worst student, since theres no such thing in my class!!) Keep it up!!
Kaiwei. A WONDERFUL 1st lesson!! U surprise me lah! lIke i said before, i taught more then i expected to teach for the first lesson....hey, remember.....theres no stoppin from now onwards yah! You will get to play with the band soon..i promise! And take good care!
And also Yixiang. Bro, my bass buddy, your determination and passion is strong. Continue growing manz!! STEADY!!
Well guys, lets hope this journey will bring us closer not just to music but also to God as well. I have been very proud of you guys and really looking forward to jam or share with you guys. Lets continue to make melodies for God and live for God. You all are an encouragement to me!!
You all are my joy from God!
* oopps i think i am tearing....haha! Have a blessed week!
∂ Thurs 11:35PM 27th May
Monday, April 24, 2006
Joy
when I said
"My foot is slipping",
your love,
O Lord, supported me.
When anxiety was great
within me, your consolation
brought joy to my soul.
Psalm 94:18-19
We had our first lesson finally! Given that we didnt really plan for this lesson, i think we did well! I really enjoy teaching Xiaomei. In many ways, she is the ideal student for me. And she really is enthusiastic about drums! Same mindset.....this is really encouraging. I think i taught more than i wanted to teach for the first day. Haha! Nevermind about the little cut i got from the snare drum..it's worth it! And I am indeed joyful for she is very independant......:) Very encourage, very joyful, very happy to walk this journey with you!
Yupp! The journey has just begin......jia you Xiaomei! I can see the joy in your eyes when you roll across the toms! I am sure one day u will roll more toms and crash more cymbals!( and get rid of that extra third bass drum kick! And thanks for the Kaiwei's Little Ballerina Girls collectors' edition booklet!)
Yes, I should be feelin blue....but the Lord puts joy in my heart, my mind, my soul. Amen.
∂ 1:18AM Tues April 25th
"My foot is slipping",
your love,
O Lord, supported me.
When anxiety was great
within me, your consolation
brought joy to my soul.
Psalm 94:18-19
We had our first lesson finally! Given that we didnt really plan for this lesson, i think we did well! I really enjoy teaching Xiaomei. In many ways, she is the ideal student for me. And she really is enthusiastic about drums! Same mindset.....this is really encouraging. I think i taught more than i wanted to teach for the first day. Haha! Nevermind about the little cut i got from the snare drum..it's worth it! And I am indeed joyful for she is very independant......:) Very encourage, very joyful, very happy to walk this journey with you!
Yupp! The journey has just begin......jia you Xiaomei! I can see the joy in your eyes when you roll across the toms! I am sure one day u will roll more toms and crash more cymbals!( and get rid of that extra third bass drum kick! And thanks for the Kaiwei's Little Ballerina Girls collectors' edition booklet!)
Yes, I should be feelin blue....but the Lord puts joy in my heart, my mind, my soul. Amen.
∂ 1:18AM Tues April 25th
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Hiding Place
Hiding Place
You are my hiding place
You always fill my heart
With songs of deliverance
Whenever I am afraid
I will trust in You
I will trust in You
Let the weak say
I am strong
In the strength of the Lord
You are my hiding place
You always fill my heart
With songs of deliverance
Whenever I am afraid
I will trust in You
I will trust in You
Let the weak say I am strong
In the strength of the Lord
I will trust in You
You are my hiding place
You always fill my heart
With songs of deliverance
Whenever I am afraid
I will trust in You
I will trust in You
Let the weak say
I am strong
In the strength of the Lord
You are my hiding place
You always fill my heart
With songs of deliverance
Whenever I am afraid
I will trust in You
I will trust in You
Let the weak say I am strong
In the strength of the Lord
I will trust in You
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Learn To Be Still
God's unimaginable challenges, pour out like golden waves.
I recieved alot of these, was washed over by them, over and over..... again and again.
Anyways, another golden wave of challenge, if not challenges, are comin at my directions. As i am writing this, my computer is playin this song...Learn To Be Still, by The Eagles...the lyrics goes like this:
"It's just another day in paradise
As you stumble to your bed
You'd give anything to silence
Those voices ringing in your head
You thought you could find happiness
Just over that green hill
You thought you would be satisfied
But you never will-
Learn to be still........."
Learn to be still.....I want to be still..and think deep, think still. At this turn, there are important decisions to make. God has given me enormous courage to move on from the past...i am continuing to count on my blessings, at this point of time.
Learn to be still......I really want to jus teach one person on drums. I want to concentrate on one, jus one person who has passion for music and heart for drums...i am still lookin for that one. Hopefully i have already found that person. We will see.
Learn to be still.....Lord ease my heart and teach me to be still in your presense. No more bitterness, no more misunderstandings, no more sadness, no more tears....just you Lord. I want to be silent. Sorry if i have forgotten any promises....i just want my silent serenity back...even if it's not something i desired. If it's constructive, if it helps....if it heals....
I am learning to be still.
"Now the flowers in your garden
They don't smell so sweet
Maybe you've forgotten
The heaven lying at your feet"
∂ 3:26PM Thurs April20th it's raining.....
I recieved alot of these, was washed over by them, over and over..... again and again.
Anyways, another golden wave of challenge, if not challenges, are comin at my directions. As i am writing this, my computer is playin this song...Learn To Be Still, by The Eagles...the lyrics goes like this:
"It's just another day in paradise
As you stumble to your bed
You'd give anything to silence
Those voices ringing in your head
You thought you could find happiness
Just over that green hill
You thought you would be satisfied
But you never will-
Learn to be still........."
Learn to be still.....I want to be still..and think deep, think still. At this turn, there are important decisions to make. God has given me enormous courage to move on from the past...i am continuing to count on my blessings, at this point of time.
Learn to be still......I really want to jus teach one person on drums. I want to concentrate on one, jus one person who has passion for music and heart for drums...i am still lookin for that one. Hopefully i have already found that person. We will see.
Learn to be still.....Lord ease my heart and teach me to be still in your presense. No more bitterness, no more misunderstandings, no more sadness, no more tears....just you Lord. I want to be silent. Sorry if i have forgotten any promises....i just want my silent serenity back...even if it's not something i desired. If it's constructive, if it helps....if it heals....
I am learning to be still.
"Now the flowers in your garden
They don't smell so sweet
Maybe you've forgotten
The heaven lying at your feet"
∂ 3:26PM Thurs April20th it's raining.....
Friday, April 14, 2006
Connecting With People
Connecting. With people.
Paige's previous owner, the seller of my beautiful bass guitar, is an extra-ordinary seller. The transaction and all things concern with the bass guitar wasn't exactly smooth. Paypalcan't use cos the amount has exceeded. Check was thought to be lost turned up when i cancelled it. A lot of hassels and problems. But all these didnt affect the relationship between seller and buyer. Which is great. No one wants any negativity on Ebay.
Quarkbo, AKA Val Golden, is easiest the nicest seller around. I would like to affirm his great patience at this point. I have never seen his qualities on Ebay before. His qualities makes the already difficult transaction easier. Less tense.
Yes we are continue to exchange e-mail even after the sale. Apparently Val suggested we keep in touch as he feels that its interestin to connect with somone so far away. Which is cool to me too. I would like to think that Val is an older man..perhaps in his fifties...cos he mentioned he has a daughter who works in a shipping company. I told him the bass was meant for God's worship ministry. And he replied sayin he would like to play for the church someday. He had friends who are playin for the church and he is envious of them. Haha. Sounds familiar....he also mentioned he play the bass for so long....and i told him, i played the drums for awhile now...15 years.....and i still not very good @ it. haha...Well, we will continue to share. I would like to share more about my faith, my walk, my relationship with God with this old and very nice friend from so far away...and also hopefully one day he will get to play for God someday soon.
Thank you God, for you have blessed me with a new friend.
Good day.
∂ 11:39AM April 15th SAT
Paige's previous owner, the seller of my beautiful bass guitar, is an extra-ordinary seller. The transaction and all things concern with the bass guitar wasn't exactly smooth. Paypalcan't use cos the amount has exceeded. Check was thought to be lost turned up when i cancelled it. A lot of hassels and problems. But all these didnt affect the relationship between seller and buyer. Which is great. No one wants any negativity on Ebay.
Quarkbo, AKA Val Golden, is easiest the nicest seller around. I would like to affirm his great patience at this point. I have never seen his qualities on Ebay before. His qualities makes the already difficult transaction easier. Less tense.
Yes we are continue to exchange e-mail even after the sale. Apparently Val suggested we keep in touch as he feels that its interestin to connect with somone so far away. Which is cool to me too. I would like to think that Val is an older man..perhaps in his fifties...cos he mentioned he has a daughter who works in a shipping company. I told him the bass was meant for God's worship ministry. And he replied sayin he would like to play for the church someday. He had friends who are playin for the church and he is envious of them. Haha. Sounds familiar....he also mentioned he play the bass for so long....and i told him, i played the drums for awhile now...15 years.....and i still not very good @ it. haha...Well, we will continue to share. I would like to share more about my faith, my walk, my relationship with God with this old and very nice friend from so far away...and also hopefully one day he will get to play for God someday soon.
Thank you God, for you have blessed me with a new friend.
Good day.
∂ 11:39AM April 15th SAT
Back with Grace
God has prepared so many things to happened when He knows i am ready to come back for Him!
Gosh so many things to said! I dun even know where to begin!! Ok step by step.......
Me.....
Okie, firstly, I am ready to serve my Lord peacefully and whole heartedly. It has not being easy for me. But God has been providing comfort and grace all the time. And thankfully I have keep the faith. It has not been easy, and now that the clouds has passed, i want to sing praises to Him!
The music..
Worship team still rocks! Have not lose my passion for the ministry or music. I am still enjoyin the worship practices and the sunday worship. In fact more passionate then ever! Terwei is my chosen bro for my drums lesson. I want to help him along the way, spiritually and musically. A very surprisin incident happened when I am coachin him. That day we had JC in the studio with us...he's coachin Siyang on the electric guitar. Yixiang joined us for bass guitar(Weiyang's apprentice). We all had fun jammin to one of our old cover songs,'Jesus Loves Me'. In the midst of laughter and fun.....we realise that hey, the three guys can form a band! Haha. Man you should see the enthusiasm in them. Well hopefully music will keep all of us alive and well in our walk with God. I really hope to see them play more songs as weeks roll by, and all of us will be in sync with God all the way. Wenjun joined us for jammin last week....i think she has alot talent in drums. All she needs is to join us every week....consistently playin, and she will be good!! (Jia You!) And the same goes to Terwei too! Hopefully this thing will help him grow along in Christ.( Bro, whenever u played a good roll or fill, I am being encourage, so cont to play and grow yah!) As bass kakis, Yixiang and me definitely has alot of common interest! We can really talk non stop about bass and God..and how we are goin to serve him with this instruments, well, God has put another bro in my life. :)(Man, lets cont to be as fervent for Him!..anyways, I am sure u will own a Fender soon! eh, maybe a american deluxe or M.I.J..hahaha!!)
Kaiwei......
Before our lessons begin lets cont to pray for God's direction in this musical walk!
Glad that u asked that question...haha, and it just happened, just like that, its no coincidence! One year for your preparation....one year is a good time to be a well trained drummer..and I am sure u will be one. Cont to pray about it. Lets hope this also brings about a more fervent heart and thirst for God! Xiaomei jia you!
JR.
Recently I did a shoot for Bryan Wong. My good friend, who's a stylist, help styled Bryan for the shoot. This shoot actually helps us get closer. We chat frequently...MSN...and i actually found out he's a backslided christian. The first thing that comes across my mind is to get him back God. And that message keeps ringin i my mind the whole day since.....i cant take that suggestion off my mind. So i have decide, nothin happens coincidentally. God is teelin me to get him back to Him. And this friend is one good friend i have from my industry, as i dun have alot of close friends @ work. I must help him get up....cos he's dear to me. And he's such a nice guy. And i am sure God will help me along the way.
My CG!
...i really hope God will continue to strengthen us in ths difficult times. And i love u guys. Even though you guys think that i should join YF..haha, no lah, i want to stay with you guys. It could be difficult for us to come together, but lets make every CG a time worth remembering....lets remember that God put us together to experince His love. And may we cont to grow as one unit for as long as we can. :)
My new Bass guitar, Paige!
It comes to me like an Easter gift form God. And Lord this is an instrument that i want to commit to you. I want this instrument to only serve You in your ministry. After so much difficulties it finally arrived, and Lord, I know i will treasure this gift, for i know it was made to serve you. And also Scarlett....hope she will arrive soon...:) Thank you God.
Falter None.
Hey bro(JC), it's just us, but like we always said, this one baby is meant for God only! God uses Sleepin Faith to teached us so many lessons....pride, egos, selfishness....we went thru alot of pain when we disbanded. We both shed tears for this band. But I am sure Falter None is definitely goin to be different. I know you are experiencin difficulties at this point of time, just remember that God is always there, unlike me, who is not always available. I am sure this difficult time u are goin thru now is another phase to shape u up. Keep the faith, bro!
And the person i didn't mention.
Hope all is well...........:)
Lets commemorate this week to God as we reflect on His sacrifice for us some 2000 years ago......
".....O wash me in His precious blood, My Jesus Christ, the Lamb of God."
∂ 3 AM April 15th SAT
Gosh so many things to said! I dun even know where to begin!! Ok step by step.......
Me.....
Okie, firstly, I am ready to serve my Lord peacefully and whole heartedly. It has not being easy for me. But God has been providing comfort and grace all the time. And thankfully I have keep the faith. It has not been easy, and now that the clouds has passed, i want to sing praises to Him!
The music..
Worship team still rocks! Have not lose my passion for the ministry or music. I am still enjoyin the worship practices and the sunday worship. In fact more passionate then ever! Terwei is my chosen bro for my drums lesson. I want to help him along the way, spiritually and musically. A very surprisin incident happened when I am coachin him. That day we had JC in the studio with us...he's coachin Siyang on the electric guitar. Yixiang joined us for bass guitar(Weiyang's apprentice). We all had fun jammin to one of our old cover songs,'Jesus Loves Me'. In the midst of laughter and fun.....we realise that hey, the three guys can form a band! Haha. Man you should see the enthusiasm in them. Well hopefully music will keep all of us alive and well in our walk with God. I really hope to see them play more songs as weeks roll by, and all of us will be in sync with God all the way. Wenjun joined us for jammin last week....i think she has alot talent in drums. All she needs is to join us every week....consistently playin, and she will be good!! (Jia You!) And the same goes to Terwei too! Hopefully this thing will help him grow along in Christ.( Bro, whenever u played a good roll or fill, I am being encourage, so cont to play and grow yah!) As bass kakis, Yixiang and me definitely has alot of common interest! We can really talk non stop about bass and God..and how we are goin to serve him with this instruments, well, God has put another bro in my life. :)(Man, lets cont to be as fervent for Him!..anyways, I am sure u will own a Fender soon! eh, maybe a american deluxe or M.I.J..hahaha!!)
Kaiwei......
Before our lessons begin lets cont to pray for God's direction in this musical walk!
Glad that u asked that question...haha, and it just happened, just like that, its no coincidence! One year for your preparation....one year is a good time to be a well trained drummer..and I am sure u will be one. Cont to pray about it. Lets hope this also brings about a more fervent heart and thirst for God! Xiaomei jia you!
JR.
Recently I did a shoot for Bryan Wong. My good friend, who's a stylist, help styled Bryan for the shoot. This shoot actually helps us get closer. We chat frequently...MSN...and i actually found out he's a backslided christian. The first thing that comes across my mind is to get him back God. And that message keeps ringin i my mind the whole day since.....i cant take that suggestion off my mind. So i have decide, nothin happens coincidentally. God is teelin me to get him back to Him. And this friend is one good friend i have from my industry, as i dun have alot of close friends @ work. I must help him get up....cos he's dear to me. And he's such a nice guy. And i am sure God will help me along the way.
My CG!
...i really hope God will continue to strengthen us in ths difficult times. And i love u guys. Even though you guys think that i should join YF..haha, no lah, i want to stay with you guys. It could be difficult for us to come together, but lets make every CG a time worth remembering....lets remember that God put us together to experince His love. And may we cont to grow as one unit for as long as we can. :)
My new Bass guitar, Paige!
It comes to me like an Easter gift form God. And Lord this is an instrument that i want to commit to you. I want this instrument to only serve You in your ministry. After so much difficulties it finally arrived, and Lord, I know i will treasure this gift, for i know it was made to serve you. And also Scarlett....hope she will arrive soon...:) Thank you God.
Falter None.
Hey bro(JC), it's just us, but like we always said, this one baby is meant for God only! God uses Sleepin Faith to teached us so many lessons....pride, egos, selfishness....we went thru alot of pain when we disbanded. We both shed tears for this band. But I am sure Falter None is definitely goin to be different. I know you are experiencin difficulties at this point of time, just remember that God is always there, unlike me, who is not always available. I am sure this difficult time u are goin thru now is another phase to shape u up. Keep the faith, bro!
And the person i didn't mention.
Hope all is well...........:)
Lets commemorate this week to God as we reflect on His sacrifice for us some 2000 years ago......
".....O wash me in His precious blood, My Jesus Christ, the Lamb of God."
∂ 3 AM April 15th SAT
Tuesday, April 4, 2006
FALTER NONE inventing the new........
Hi.
Its another quiet week so far. Great news. We finally have a new band name. After listening and listening to our old jam tracks, Jc and me finally realise that Sleepin' Faith is a thing of the past. We spent much time the last 2 weeks discussing abt the old, and inventing the new. All floorplans and statistics have been set up......in God's glory and grace.......Falter None is born.
Its an exciting time for us. Of cos we realise this is not just a 2 men band. But it will be a movement of sorts. Right now we are keen on building and sharing with new ppl who wants to know abt music. Me myself are embarking on a bass guitar journey. We are thinkin of setting up a studio of our own..so we can record. We need drums, amps..sound-proofing of the room...hopefully mine..a four track recorder. Stuff like that. And all these can perhaps be of use to God. Hopefully this is somethin He wanted us to do. I am seeing all theses being fruitful, in times to come. So far we have good support from ppl.
Sometimes you just need to step back and see clearly. There's mist in the eyes of ppl who are narrow-minded. There are people who said hurtful words to others to feel good about themselves. Sometimes, all the time, i felt so misunderstood by people and words. Suddenly you are throw into this turmoil of soul-wrenching discomfort and pain. Word just can't discribe. People, with their mouth, are a dangerous tool. It sets a clear path for Satan to use for his dirty ministry.
Anyways, I am glad to be able to hold on to the peace of God so far. Even if i falter, I know God will lift me up. I know ppl will hurt me, from time to time. I just want to pray that I will hold onto God for all peace and His grace. I need to forgive. I want to pray for the people who hurt me....they don't have the slightest idea who i I am or my intentions or whatsoever. Assumptions and judgemental eyes kills! God knows my heart. It beats true for Him. It doesnt beat for anyone, but for Him alone. I urge anyone who reads this...do not judge people or assume people's character with your own naked eyes.
Alrite enough of my pourin'! Get back to my song writing......see you soon!
∂ 1:39 PM Wed 05 April 06
Its another quiet week so far. Great news. We finally have a new band name. After listening and listening to our old jam tracks, Jc and me finally realise that Sleepin' Faith is a thing of the past. We spent much time the last 2 weeks discussing abt the old, and inventing the new. All floorplans and statistics have been set up......in God's glory and grace.......Falter None is born.
Its an exciting time for us. Of cos we realise this is not just a 2 men band. But it will be a movement of sorts. Right now we are keen on building and sharing with new ppl who wants to know abt music. Me myself are embarking on a bass guitar journey. We are thinkin of setting up a studio of our own..so we can record. We need drums, amps..sound-proofing of the room...hopefully mine..a four track recorder. Stuff like that. And all these can perhaps be of use to God. Hopefully this is somethin He wanted us to do. I am seeing all theses being fruitful, in times to come. So far we have good support from ppl.
Sometimes you just need to step back and see clearly. There's mist in the eyes of ppl who are narrow-minded. There are people who said hurtful words to others to feel good about themselves. Sometimes, all the time, i felt so misunderstood by people and words. Suddenly you are throw into this turmoil of soul-wrenching discomfort and pain. Word just can't discribe. People, with their mouth, are a dangerous tool. It sets a clear path for Satan to use for his dirty ministry.
Anyways, I am glad to be able to hold on to the peace of God so far. Even if i falter, I know God will lift me up. I know ppl will hurt me, from time to time. I just want to pray that I will hold onto God for all peace and His grace. I need to forgive. I want to pray for the people who hurt me....they don't have the slightest idea who i I am or my intentions or whatsoever. Assumptions and judgemental eyes kills! God knows my heart. It beats true for Him. It doesnt beat for anyone, but for Him alone. I urge anyone who reads this...do not judge people or assume people's character with your own naked eyes.
Alrite enough of my pourin'! Get back to my song writing......see you soon!
∂ 1:39 PM Wed 05 April 06
Sunday, April 2, 2006
And the hours go by like minutes.....and the shadows come to stay.....
Finally.
I am able to blog again. Thought I will never blog anytime soon..but I guess it's easier to blog then to pick up a phone.
Well, done with the recuperating..and now makin a slow comeback. My drums lose their magic. I can't hear joy from them a month back. I have burned out, lost touch..and withered. And the hours go by like minutes.....and the shadows come to stay..... I want to give up. I can't hear God speakin'. He speaks thru my drums, but i cant hear Him anymore. Everything's like broken down. Unfairness becomes my roomate...bitterness sleeps with me...............................................................................................................but thats all past.........
Finding my way home.
Life's been rough. Life's been good.
Life's been quiet. Really quiet.
I love the night. The smell of the midnight air.
And my bass guitar is not here yet. But thank You for the wonderful sabbath....we had great fun and experience playin' for the first combine service. Glory be Yours.
∂ 12:29AM April 3rd Mon
I am able to blog again. Thought I will never blog anytime soon..but I guess it's easier to blog then to pick up a phone.
Well, done with the recuperating..and now makin a slow comeback. My drums lose their magic. I can't hear joy from them a month back. I have burned out, lost touch..and withered. And the hours go by like minutes.....and the shadows come to stay..... I want to give up. I can't hear God speakin'. He speaks thru my drums, but i cant hear Him anymore. Everything's like broken down. Unfairness becomes my roomate...bitterness sleeps with me...............................................................................................................but thats all past.........
Finding my way home.
Life's been rough. Life's been good.
Life's been quiet. Really quiet.
I love the night. The smell of the midnight air.
And my bass guitar is not here yet. But thank You for the wonderful sabbath....we had great fun and experience playin' for the first combine service. Glory be Yours.
∂ 12:29AM April 3rd Mon
Friday, March 3, 2006
Silent Serenity
Hey.
Enjoying the silence of the night...not really silence but the serenity of the night. Of cos i have those lovely oldies to keep me company. Why do i blog? Perhaps it's because i need to speak to someone. I am speakin thru my blog now, and it feels good. And of cos no physical being is here. Just me and my words. But it feels good.
Kinda enjoy these days of seclusion(in a way). No one to 'invade' this world of mine. This quiet world. God has been quiet. God's silence is the loudest when you need Him the most. But i am alright. I know He is always here...but He is just quiet. Ok, perhaps at this moment God and me can enjoy this silence together. Nah He gave me lovely songs for companionship. So it's good. How long will we be quiet? How long will this period of silence be? I kinda enjoy it. It serenades me. And it's good.
Music, yes, music. It's been a helpin factor lately. Havent written any songs for years. I remember i has this little excercise book during sec school days. I will faithfully wrote all my tots and inspirational words in it. I will make songs without melody. I still cant make melody now, cos i dunno how to play a guitar. This book is my personal treasure. This little indulgence of a book. All my emotions in it. It's such fun to just write songs back then. Back then I wana be the biggest rock star in my circle of musician friends. MUSIC is everything! so much faith and hope and love for it! It's wonderful 24/7 music!! Alas my ex guitarist took the book from me, sayin he will make melodies out of my words. It never came back......i never see it again. Thinkin back....i kinda miss that little book now.
I want to start writing again. I might not be good with tense, and stuff like that...but each word that i wrote represents the sentimental values from my heart...and it's that true, that precious. It ain't easy being myself sometimes. Perhaps to write is a way for me to make myself better..like blogging. I was havin this funny thought. Perhaps i will quit my job and concentrate music full time. My job has always been secondary to music....sometimes even tertiary or worse.....man, my passion fer photography is that shallow now...i am getting worried. Five years on the same job.....now i dun even feel alot for it. Am i burned out for my profession? Or is it because i can't stand the industry? Or is it music? God is still silent. Perhaps I will ask Him when we are thru with this silence........I know it will be good then.
Oh well, it's 2 AM. And theres work tomorrow..........gotta sing some lullabies and catch some sleep.
∂ 2:08AM Fri 3rd Mar 2006
Enjoying the silence of the night...not really silence but the serenity of the night. Of cos i have those lovely oldies to keep me company. Why do i blog? Perhaps it's because i need to speak to someone. I am speakin thru my blog now, and it feels good. And of cos no physical being is here. Just me and my words. But it feels good.
Kinda enjoy these days of seclusion(in a way). No one to 'invade' this world of mine. This quiet world. God has been quiet. God's silence is the loudest when you need Him the most. But i am alright. I know He is always here...but He is just quiet. Ok, perhaps at this moment God and me can enjoy this silence together. Nah He gave me lovely songs for companionship. So it's good. How long will we be quiet? How long will this period of silence be? I kinda enjoy it. It serenades me. And it's good.
Music, yes, music. It's been a helpin factor lately. Havent written any songs for years. I remember i has this little excercise book during sec school days. I will faithfully wrote all my tots and inspirational words in it. I will make songs without melody. I still cant make melody now, cos i dunno how to play a guitar. This book is my personal treasure. This little indulgence of a book. All my emotions in it. It's such fun to just write songs back then. Back then I wana be the biggest rock star in my circle of musician friends. MUSIC is everything! so much faith and hope and love for it! It's wonderful 24/7 music!! Alas my ex guitarist took the book from me, sayin he will make melodies out of my words. It never came back......i never see it again. Thinkin back....i kinda miss that little book now.
I want to start writing again. I might not be good with tense, and stuff like that...but each word that i wrote represents the sentimental values from my heart...and it's that true, that precious. It ain't easy being myself sometimes. Perhaps to write is a way for me to make myself better..like blogging. I was havin this funny thought. Perhaps i will quit my job and concentrate music full time. My job has always been secondary to music....sometimes even tertiary or worse.....man, my passion fer photography is that shallow now...i am getting worried. Five years on the same job.....now i dun even feel alot for it. Am i burned out for my profession? Or is it because i can't stand the industry? Or is it music? God is still silent. Perhaps I will ask Him when we are thru with this silence........I know it will be good then.
Oh well, it's 2 AM. And theres work tomorrow..........gotta sing some lullabies and catch some sleep.
∂ 2:08AM Fri 3rd Mar 2006
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Boring Day
Lets talk about my boring life today.
Haha...like usual, wake up, rushed to work. Have to see so many unfamiliar faces before i can reach my office room. I think the make up artist, hair..crew..etc, must be thinkin that i am such a snobbish person. Always that "i dun care' look. Aiyah tired mah...i have to drag myself out of bed, then take an hour plus ride to work leh..have to squeezed with the morning crowd leh....the only thing i greeted this morning is Ivon's work piece from Lasalle days...haha..i am like:" eh how come it's here!!"
I ask Jeff, "hey do we have beer in the fridge?" He must be thinkin xiao ah, it's morning lor. haha, eh kiddin can? Then there's some work i must do..think i didnt do a good job. I am like concussing tryin to figure out how to do it. I am indeed tired.But the good thing is no one is around in the studio today to 'ga jiao' me....so i can be left alone. I love the silence in the studio. love it! Like the studio is all mine!
Then knock off, go home, and slack lor. Nothin much...do abit of surfing..stoning..chatting...upload songs...and little chatting..then JC called...crap along with him. Ah boring. haha...oh i just showered....man, i forgotten to shave. Ah i look good anyways.....
∂ 28 wed feb 2006 1:09AM.........hungry lah...
Haha...like usual, wake up, rushed to work. Have to see so many unfamiliar faces before i can reach my office room. I think the make up artist, hair..crew..etc, must be thinkin that i am such a snobbish person. Always that "i dun care' look. Aiyah tired mah...i have to drag myself out of bed, then take an hour plus ride to work leh..have to squeezed with the morning crowd leh....the only thing i greeted this morning is Ivon's work piece from Lasalle days...haha..i am like:" eh how come it's here!!"
I ask Jeff, "hey do we have beer in the fridge?" He must be thinkin xiao ah, it's morning lor. haha, eh kiddin can? Then there's some work i must do..think i didnt do a good job. I am like concussing tryin to figure out how to do it. I am indeed tired.But the good thing is no one is around in the studio today to 'ga jiao' me....so i can be left alone. I love the silence in the studio. love it! Like the studio is all mine!
Then knock off, go home, and slack lor. Nothin much...do abit of surfing..stoning..chatting...upload songs...and little chatting..then JC called...crap along with him. Ah boring. haha...oh i just showered....man, i forgotten to shave. Ah i look good anyways.....
∂ 28 wed feb 2006 1:09AM.........hungry lah...
Monday, February 27, 2006
HELP!
Help came in the form of good friends.
God's grace is sufficient for everything. As i am facin the consequences from my past mistakes, cant help but feelin really down. Things are a little too difficult to handle for me these days. My sleeping habit is way too jumble up. I dun think i am sleepin like a regular guy..even though i know i am not your regular guy, anyway. Have to drag myself to work. work has been cool so far. PPl have been nice and all. No sweat. Jeffrey, Boon and Co rocks! Oh and i had beer from Jeffrey's beer test shoot..finished the whole bottle by myself. BRRP! And then i was like, "hey Jeff any more beer?" "Yah there's stout in the fridge, but i need to shoot it!" Fine.
Evening is perhaps the time when i felt so lost in the crowd of hustle. Lost in the music in my ears. I got down at a totally wrong station, i dun know where i am goin...and the rain is not helpin at all. But i think God make me stop there so i can pay my friend, JC, a visit. Before long i was on my way to meet him.
JC put my whole set of problems on the table and begin to dissect all the difficulties which i am facin now, details by details. U know what, i feel like he's doin a better job than the rest. Yah sure he hasn't been to church lately, regularly..blah blah blah....but he's such a encouraging bro. And whatever reasoning did not jus comes from his heart but also base on God's teachings. And i do see his point. I really do felt better. And i can move on a little better. And i am clearer abt things. At least, he's not judgemental abt things. Like he said:"ppl can blame you for the mistakes u have make in the past, but they can never judge u!"..............thanks bro. Thank God. We had a great time sharing. And he forced me to go home.
I know i am not a perfect person. I am working on that. And if ppl want to hold me down for the mistakes i make in the past, they can do that. For I only do things and changes for God, and only thru that perspective, i can be a blessings to ppl. I am not here to please ppl. I am sorry abt my past. I am sorry abt the wrongs that i am still correcting. And i am dependant on God's ever beautiful grace for me to pull this thru. It's goin to be hard i guess. But i have to drag myself on this journey.
Yes i make mistakes, dun u? Only time will tell......i will face this bravely.
∂ 1:32AM 28th FEB TUES.
God's grace is sufficient for everything. As i am facin the consequences from my past mistakes, cant help but feelin really down. Things are a little too difficult to handle for me these days. My sleeping habit is way too jumble up. I dun think i am sleepin like a regular guy..even though i know i am not your regular guy, anyway. Have to drag myself to work. work has been cool so far. PPl have been nice and all. No sweat. Jeffrey, Boon and Co rocks! Oh and i had beer from Jeffrey's beer test shoot..finished the whole bottle by myself. BRRP! And then i was like, "hey Jeff any more beer?" "Yah there's stout in the fridge, but i need to shoot it!" Fine.
Evening is perhaps the time when i felt so lost in the crowd of hustle. Lost in the music in my ears. I got down at a totally wrong station, i dun know where i am goin...and the rain is not helpin at all. But i think God make me stop there so i can pay my friend, JC, a visit. Before long i was on my way to meet him.
JC put my whole set of problems on the table and begin to dissect all the difficulties which i am facin now, details by details. U know what, i feel like he's doin a better job than the rest. Yah sure he hasn't been to church lately, regularly..blah blah blah....but he's such a encouraging bro. And whatever reasoning did not jus comes from his heart but also base on God's teachings. And i do see his point. I really do felt better. And i can move on a little better. And i am clearer abt things. At least, he's not judgemental abt things. Like he said:"ppl can blame you for the mistakes u have make in the past, but they can never judge u!"..............thanks bro. Thank God. We had a great time sharing. And he forced me to go home.
I know i am not a perfect person. I am working on that. And if ppl want to hold me down for the mistakes i make in the past, they can do that. For I only do things and changes for God, and only thru that perspective, i can be a blessings to ppl. I am not here to please ppl. I am sorry abt my past. I am sorry abt the wrongs that i am still correcting. And i am dependant on God's ever beautiful grace for me to pull this thru. It's goin to be hard i guess. But i have to drag myself on this journey.
Yes i make mistakes, dun u? Only time will tell......i will face this bravely.
∂ 1:32AM 28th FEB TUES.
Monday, February 20, 2006
My Song
As i stand at the edge of the world
and look at what had went down
i breathe away my trouble,
but kept my problems within.
I had left a life,
but entered another.
Too soon, too beautiful.
And then it went down in flames.
In a beautiful blaze.
Now as i make my way,
to a sanctuary called loneliness
I know my prayers will be answer...
in my dreams, I am sure.
Just when things went right
Doesn't mean they're always wrong.
I had left a life,
and left another.
Too soon, too beautiful.
And i saw a new covenant,
In a beautiful rainbow.
∂
2:09 AM Tues Feb 21st
and look at what had went down
i breathe away my trouble,
but kept my problems within.
I had left a life,
but entered another.
Too soon, too beautiful.
And then it went down in flames.
In a beautiful blaze.
Now as i make my way,
to a sanctuary called loneliness
I know my prayers will be answer...
in my dreams, I am sure.
Just when things went right
Doesn't mean they're always wrong.
I had left a life,
and left another.
Too soon, too beautiful.
And i saw a new covenant,
In a beautiful rainbow.
∂
2:09 AM Tues Feb 21st
Home Sweet Home
You know I'm a dreamer
But my heart's of gold
I had to run away high
So I wouldn't come home low
Just when things went right
Doesn't mean they're always wrong
Just take this song and you'll never feel
Left all alone
Take me to your heart
Put me in your bones
Just one more night
And I'm comin' off this
Long & winding road
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
Tonight tonight
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
You know that I've seen
Too many romantic dreams
Up in lights, fallin' off
The silver screen
My heart's like an open book
For the whole world to read
Sometimes nothing keeps me together
At the seams
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
Tonight tonight
I'm on my way
Just set me free
Home Sweet Home
But my heart's of gold
I had to run away high
So I wouldn't come home low
Just when things went right
Doesn't mean they're always wrong
Just take this song and you'll never feel
Left all alone
Take me to your heart
Put me in your bones
Just one more night
And I'm comin' off this
Long & winding road
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
Tonight tonight
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
You know that I've seen
Too many romantic dreams
Up in lights, fallin' off
The silver screen
My heart's like an open book
For the whole world to read
Sometimes nothing keeps me together
At the seams
I'm on my way
I'm on my way
Home sweet home
Tonight tonight
I'm on my way
Just set me free
Home Sweet Home
Friday, February 17, 2006
Proverbs 31:30
"In prayer, I said, 'Lord, would you just show me if she's the right one.' And the Lord drew my attention to a verse, Proverbs 31:30. It says 'Favor is deceitful and beauty is vain, but a woman that fears the Lord, she shall be praised.'
"I began to think, 'I'm not attracted to her because she's physically beautiful, though she is. But my primary attraction to her is that she has a relationship to God, she reverences God.' God used that to show me that it wasn't just a passing attraction."
"I began to think, 'I'm not attracted to her because she's physically beautiful, though she is. But my primary attraction to her is that she has a relationship to God, she reverences God.' God used that to show me that it wasn't just a passing attraction."
God Will Make A Way
Another 3 1/2 hours talk.
There were tense moments. There were moments of agreements. Moments of sadness and hurt. Moments of little silly talkings. Moments of misunderstandings. Moments of understandings. Moment of moments....and moments of prayers.
I am sure, thru all these little discussion talk we have, we will be a step up in our mutual understandings. No doubt i was so sad and hurt at one point of time, i still believe that God will make a way. She still sound so cute. And all tension melts away. Hey, never have the intention of rushin into a relationship, but will probably take a step back from where i am now. Just want you to concentrate on your studies, as i know its important to you. Let God guide you. Let Him speak to you. Do what is pleasing to God. There might or might not be a future, but certainy our friendship must carry on. I know what to do now. Perhaps you can figure a way out for yourself.
After that first ever prayer that i said for you/us, God has lifed my anxiety and hurt and sadness. I enjoy that prayer. It takes a lot of courage to pray for you, and so glad that i did it. And hopefully i can be able to pray for you again someday. :)
God will make a way.
Goodnight.
There were tense moments. There were moments of agreements. Moments of sadness and hurt. Moments of little silly talkings. Moments of misunderstandings. Moments of understandings. Moment of moments....and moments of prayers.
I am sure, thru all these little discussion talk we have, we will be a step up in our mutual understandings. No doubt i was so sad and hurt at one point of time, i still believe that God will make a way. She still sound so cute. And all tension melts away. Hey, never have the intention of rushin into a relationship, but will probably take a step back from where i am now. Just want you to concentrate on your studies, as i know its important to you. Let God guide you. Let Him speak to you. Do what is pleasing to God. There might or might not be a future, but certainy our friendship must carry on. I know what to do now. Perhaps you can figure a way out for yourself.
After that first ever prayer that i said for you/us, God has lifed my anxiety and hurt and sadness. I enjoy that prayer. It takes a lot of courage to pray for you, and so glad that i did it. And hopefully i can be able to pray for you again someday. :)
God will make a way.
Goodnight.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
我找你找了好久
可以彼此分享得意驕傲 不擔憂誰的心理不是味道
可以傳染給你心情不好 連說一個理由也不需要
可以直來直往提醒勸告 就算爭吵也都是為對方好
可以和你商量秘密苦惱 不害怕全世界都會知道
我找你找的好久 一個互相了解的朋友
生活有人分享的時候 快樂就變得容易許多
我找你找得好久 一個拿心來換的朋友
傷痛有人抱緊的時候 未來有什麼路不敢走
Something for Valentine's/Friendship Day!
Cheers! :)
可以傳染給你心情不好 連說一個理由也不需要
可以直來直往提醒勸告 就算爭吵也都是為對方好
可以和你商量秘密苦惱 不害怕全世界都會知道
我找你找的好久 一個互相了解的朋友
生活有人分享的時候 快樂就變得容易許多
我找你找得好久 一個拿心來換的朋友
傷痛有人抱緊的時候 未來有什麼路不敢走
Something for Valentine's/Friendship Day!
Cheers! :)
Valentine's Day Greetings
"Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires."
Happy Valentine's n Friendship Day :)
Happy Valentine's n Friendship Day :)
Monday, February 13, 2006
Monday, Feb 13th
We talk on the phone for two hours straight.
Everytime we wanted to keep our conversation short, yet we can't seem to do. Hmm, of cos it always feels great to have lengthy conversations wif 'the' person. I wouldn't exchange anything in the world for that. So glad that at least on a friendship level, we can talk about alot of things in our lives. I thank God for that.
I do really feel close to her(in a subtle way). Last time i will think of this feeling as something i imagine it to be. But i am certain theres a closeness in our friendship. A kind of bonding..a young bonding....not a matured bonding, but a bonding nonetheless. I think we can jus go on and on...i really enjoy this kind of talk in the early hours.
Actually i was rather hurt in the afternoon/daytime. I do believe i am feeling better after the talk. Thrash things out. Surprisingly the present(which i always tthink is a bad idea), turns out to be......good. She likes it. I like it when she likes it. Haha! I felt relieved and joyful. Hopefully the lady in red will be wearing that gift soon...i want to see. Hah! :)
And yes i am still going ahead with that plan of surrendering her. And i do want to continue to pray for her. And yes i might stay abit further this time, but i am still gonna care for her. I am hoping that God is paving the way and i will have the wisdom to follow the path that He paved for me. I need to pray about this.
Well everything begins anew. In God there's always renewal.
Faith. Love. Hope.
Everytime we wanted to keep our conversation short, yet we can't seem to do. Hmm, of cos it always feels great to have lengthy conversations wif 'the' person. I wouldn't exchange anything in the world for that. So glad that at least on a friendship level, we can talk about alot of things in our lives. I thank God for that.
I do really feel close to her(in a subtle way). Last time i will think of this feeling as something i imagine it to be. But i am certain theres a closeness in our friendship. A kind of bonding..a young bonding....not a matured bonding, but a bonding nonetheless. I think we can jus go on and on...i really enjoy this kind of talk in the early hours.
Actually i was rather hurt in the afternoon/daytime. I do believe i am feeling better after the talk. Thrash things out. Surprisingly the present(which i always tthink is a bad idea), turns out to be......good. She likes it. I like it when she likes it. Haha! I felt relieved and joyful. Hopefully the lady in red will be wearing that gift soon...i want to see. Hah! :)
And yes i am still going ahead with that plan of surrendering her. And i do want to continue to pray for her. And yes i might stay abit further this time, but i am still gonna care for her. I am hoping that God is paving the way and i will have the wisdom to follow the path that He paved for me. I need to pray about this.
Well everything begins anew. In God there's always renewal.
Faith. Love. Hope.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Think.
"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and discipline" Proverbs 1:7
Lately there were alot problems concerning BGRs in my circle of christian friends. Some of them my good friends. And i am also facing some difficulties as well. Well for some, i can say its because the problems lies in there's no room for three. Its jus he and she ,or she and he..God is not present for he is being kick out..or is he?
I dunno if i sound like being judgemental. I care for these ppl. But somehow i feel they have compromise God to a certain degree. Sometimes in their situation, its a case of self confidence and compromise. They are handling things like non christians. The focus was never on God, but on the person they want to be with...or should i say they themselves are the focus.
I care for these people. they are my friends. If you have to make a decision, be firm. If u have to sacrifice in the name of love, and for your Father, please do so. Are you hangin on to something/somebody u should not? Do u think u are the best solution for them? Aren't they too young to be in a relationship? Are they or you ready for this walk in life? Do you think you are doing the best for them? Do you think you guys can continue to be friends without takin time off to cool down? Are you leading that person on? Are you hindering that person from moving on? Are you doing something God wouldn't want you to do? Does your self-confidence gets the better of you? You think you can handle, but you can't?
Is God please....with your actions?
Think.
"the best medicine is the most bitter."
Lately there were alot problems concerning BGRs in my circle of christian friends. Some of them my good friends. And i am also facing some difficulties as well. Well for some, i can say its because the problems lies in there's no room for three. Its jus he and she ,or she and he..God is not present for he is being kick out..or is he?
I dunno if i sound like being judgemental. I care for these ppl. But somehow i feel they have compromise God to a certain degree. Sometimes in their situation, its a case of self confidence and compromise. They are handling things like non christians. The focus was never on God, but on the person they want to be with...or should i say they themselves are the focus.
I care for these people. they are my friends. If you have to make a decision, be firm. If u have to sacrifice in the name of love, and for your Father, please do so. Are you hangin on to something/somebody u should not? Do u think u are the best solution for them? Aren't they too young to be in a relationship? Are they or you ready for this walk in life? Do you think you are doing the best for them? Do you think you guys can continue to be friends without takin time off to cool down? Are you leading that person on? Are you hindering that person from moving on? Are you doing something God wouldn't want you to do? Does your self-confidence gets the better of you? You think you can handle, but you can't?
Is God please....with your actions?
Think.
"the best medicine is the most bitter."
Wednesday, February 8, 2006
有一天我會
有些事我沒說 但我有感覺 有些事我沒說
但我知道結果 有些事我沒說
但你有感覺 有些事我沒說 但你知道結果
有一天我會 插上翅膀飛 有一天我會
張開雙眼看 有一天我會 見到我的夢中有誰
有一天我會 飛過世界的背
當太陽昇起的那一天 你再看我一遍
你將會發現我 所有的改變
但我知道結果 有些事我沒說
但你有感覺 有些事我沒說 但你知道結果
有一天我會 插上翅膀飛 有一天我會
張開雙眼看 有一天我會 見到我的夢中有誰
有一天我會 飛過世界的背
當太陽昇起的那一天 你再看我一遍
你將會發現我 所有的改變
Tuesday, February 7, 2006
Love Is Surrender
Think i need to do this.
Was doing alot of thinking lately. I can't explain why
i always have this feeling of uncertainty. Perhaps God
is telling me something. I have been advising ppl and
frens about surrendering. About giving up things that
are not meant for us.
I should advice myself instead. Cos i am the
one watchin the sand falling rapidly to the ground
from my tightly quenched fists.
I duno how to begin sharing this...i feel i must be
firm, and be a man of my words. When i said let go,
means let go. Basically, i felt like i went back to
square one...i am starting to do the same thing all
over again...i am starting to get close to her(no
wisdom). In fact we talked almost everyday. My hopes
went up as usual, and there i go, telling myself all i
do is to be a fren, so when she needed someone, i can
always be there. I am tryin to do things for her as a
friend, unknowingly(or knowingly) i am still attaching
myself to her life....and tryin to push her into
mine....something is gotta be done here....
I admit , i really dunno how to look at her and be
convince i will be happy enough to see her as a simple
friend. Deep down, i know i wanted us to evolve,
somehow, with God's blessing, we can be together. Man
was i so confident. I was so wrong to think this way.
Cos i believe if things are not goin to work out, or
if she happens to be with another person, i will be
crushed.
i used to think that will be the ultimate
sacrifice...that i will do my best to be there..even if
i know eventually i will be broken if things happen in
a way that i have not expect it to be..i am still
tryin to get close to her...i am not letting go....i
didnt live up to my words...i didnt live up to my
promise. I should run away and hide....and pray to God
to make this rain stop.
I am living in my dream. And now i want to be awake.
And slowly, i will sip through her life...i will be
silent. I want to be a friend again. i want to please
God, by not putting myself in jeopardy, or let Satan
have the chance to make me sin. I think i still
cherish us as friends. And i dun want to hate her for
anything. Cos i love her. And to love her is to let
go...and go away.
Love is Surrender.
" I'm wrapped, around your finger, like the ring on
your hand. I'm trapped, by your love, i'm lost, please understand......"
Was doing alot of thinking lately. I can't explain why
i always have this feeling of uncertainty. Perhaps God
is telling me something. I have been advising ppl and
frens about surrendering. About giving up things that
are not meant for us.
I should advice myself instead. Cos i am the
one watchin the sand falling rapidly to the ground
from my tightly quenched fists.
I duno how to begin sharing this...i feel i must be
firm, and be a man of my words. When i said let go,
means let go. Basically, i felt like i went back to
square one...i am starting to do the same thing all
over again...i am starting to get close to her(no
wisdom). In fact we talked almost everyday. My hopes
went up as usual, and there i go, telling myself all i
do is to be a fren, so when she needed someone, i can
always be there. I am tryin to do things for her as a
friend, unknowingly(or knowingly) i am still attaching
myself to her life....and tryin to push her into
mine....something is gotta be done here....
I admit , i really dunno how to look at her and be
convince i will be happy enough to see her as a simple
friend. Deep down, i know i wanted us to evolve,
somehow, with God's blessing, we can be together. Man
was i so confident. I was so wrong to think this way.
Cos i believe if things are not goin to work out, or
if she happens to be with another person, i will be
crushed.
i used to think that will be the ultimate
sacrifice...that i will do my best to be there..even if
i know eventually i will be broken if things happen in
a way that i have not expect it to be..i am still
tryin to get close to her...i am not letting go....i
didnt live up to my words...i didnt live up to my
promise. I should run away and hide....and pray to God
to make this rain stop.
I am living in my dream. And now i want to be awake.
And slowly, i will sip through her life...i will be
silent. I want to be a friend again. i want to please
God, by not putting myself in jeopardy, or let Satan
have the chance to make me sin. I think i still
cherish us as friends. And i dun want to hate her for
anything. Cos i love her. And to love her is to let
go...and go away.
Love is Surrender.
" I'm wrapped, around your finger, like the ring on
your hand. I'm trapped, by your love, i'm lost, please understand......"
Friday, January 27, 2006
I Miss Her
I miss her.
Missing her when i woke up from my sleep. Missing her when i go to work. Missing her at work. Missing during lunch. Missing her when i am meeting my clients. Missing her on my way home from work. Missing her when i am having my dinner. Missing her when she goes offline. Missing her when i am about to sleep. Missing her in my sleep.
Yes, I am going to miss her again when i wake up the next morning, the following day, the day after tomorrow, the following week.....everyday. And I am happy to miss her, perhaps that's where i can be nearer to her.
I miss her.
Missing her when i woke up from my sleep. Missing her when i go to work. Missing her at work. Missing during lunch. Missing her when i am meeting my clients. Missing her on my way home from work. Missing her when i am having my dinner. Missing her when she goes offline. Missing her when i am about to sleep. Missing her in my sleep.
Yes, I am going to miss her again when i wake up the next morning, the following day, the day after tomorrow, the following week.....everyday. And I am happy to miss her, perhaps that's where i can be nearer to her.
I miss her.
Sunday, January 22, 2006
知足
怎麼去擁有 一道彩虹
怎麼去擁抱 一夏天的風
天上的星星 笑地上的人
總是不能懂 不能知道足夠
如果我愛上 你的笑容
要怎麼收藏 要怎麼擁有
如果你快樂 不是為我
會不會放手 其實才是擁有
當一陣風吹來 風箏飛上天空
為了你 而祈禱 而祝福 而感動
終於你身影 消失在人海盡頭
才發現 笑著哭最痛
那天你和我 那個山丘
那樣的唱著 那一年的歌
那樣的回憶 那麼足夠
足夠我天天都品嚐著寂寞
(知足的快樂 叫我忍受心痛)
怎麼去擁抱 一夏天的風
天上的星星 笑地上的人
總是不能懂 不能知道足夠
如果我愛上 你的笑容
要怎麼收藏 要怎麼擁有
如果你快樂 不是為我
會不會放手 其實才是擁有
當一陣風吹來 風箏飛上天空
為了你 而祈禱 而祝福 而感動
終於你身影 消失在人海盡頭
才發現 笑著哭最痛
那天你和我 那個山丘
那樣的唱著 那一年的歌
那樣的回憶 那麼足夠
足夠我天天都品嚐著寂寞
(知足的快樂 叫我忍受心痛)
Monday, January 16, 2006
Laziness, my silent whisper........
Man, i have been sleeping too much.
Wonder why do i dig sleeping so much? It almost seems like i sleep as much as i have three meals per day. This is crazy.Its been a really slackin' month, can't seem to be able to get anythin thing done. Work has been slack....i havent shoot anythin this year. Gotta plan my career carefully this year. It's about time to plan for the future. Gonna earn more. Gonna save more. Gotta stop being a lazy fellow.......
Oh by the way, I just woke up. Its gonna be a long night...............
Wonder why do i dig sleeping so much? It almost seems like i sleep as much as i have three meals per day. This is crazy.Its been a really slackin' month, can't seem to be able to get anythin thing done. Work has been slack....i havent shoot anythin this year. Gotta plan my career carefully this year. It's about time to plan for the future. Gonna earn more. Gonna save more. Gotta stop being a lazy fellow.......
Oh by the way, I just woke up. Its gonna be a long night...............
Saturday, January 14, 2006
A friend
Can't sleep.
It has finally come to an end.
Didn't know this can hurt so bad. Didn't expect this to happen. My happiness is short-lived. But still i want to be thankful. I want to be thankful cos i am able to help, in certain ways.I am thankful at least she can speak to me, pour out to me. Even though i choose to be taken out of the picture, i want to be joyful, though i am searchin my happiness in an empty void. I prayed that i can cry. That my tears will be able to wash away my sadness. But there's no tears, and my heart is ever so heavy. But i am thankful still, for every heart break comes a lesson, comes an experience, comes a surrendering.
Will God give me a cheerful face when i see her again? So she can be freed. So she's will not be worried. Even if it hurts, at least, it 's still for her. Even in hurt, she can be freed. That she dun have to look thru the windows anymore, but roam freely towards her dreams, without havin to worried about there's a me behind her, every now and then. If that's the least i can do for her, i am willing. I am not a burden anymore. Just be freed.
I will remember everythin that happened last night. It is bittersweet. How can i forget? Cos there might never be another time like this. I will remember, like i have always remembered everything since Day one......maybe its blurry to you, but its always so fresh,ever so clear, ever so sweet to me. I can only savour these memories alone. And be reminded to be thankful for all that had happened.
Let me slowly fade into the background. Let me be smiling from a distance. Let me be quiet again. Let me be a memory. Let me be a joy giver.Let me help, in the most subtle way. Let me listen to you, whenever you need a listening ear. Let me be just............just a simple friend.
A friend. Always.
It has finally come to an end.
Didn't know this can hurt so bad. Didn't expect this to happen. My happiness is short-lived. But still i want to be thankful. I want to be thankful cos i am able to help, in certain ways.I am thankful at least she can speak to me, pour out to me. Even though i choose to be taken out of the picture, i want to be joyful, though i am searchin my happiness in an empty void. I prayed that i can cry. That my tears will be able to wash away my sadness. But there's no tears, and my heart is ever so heavy. But i am thankful still, for every heart break comes a lesson, comes an experience, comes a surrendering.
Will God give me a cheerful face when i see her again? So she can be freed. So she's will not be worried. Even if it hurts, at least, it 's still for her. Even in hurt, she can be freed. That she dun have to look thru the windows anymore, but roam freely towards her dreams, without havin to worried about there's a me behind her, every now and then. If that's the least i can do for her, i am willing. I am not a burden anymore. Just be freed.
I will remember everythin that happened last night. It is bittersweet. How can i forget? Cos there might never be another time like this. I will remember, like i have always remembered everything since Day one......maybe its blurry to you, but its always so fresh,ever so clear, ever so sweet to me. I can only savour these memories alone. And be reminded to be thankful for all that had happened.
Let me slowly fade into the background. Let me be smiling from a distance. Let me be quiet again. Let me be a memory. Let me be a joy giver.Let me help, in the most subtle way. Let me listen to you, whenever you need a listening ear. Let me be just............just a simple friend.
A friend. Always.
不能和你一起
結束還是原諒 愛永遠擱在遠方
眼神不會說話 只有淚光
你給過希望 怎麼能忘
是你填滿溫暖 讓夢想有了翅膀
教我如何控制 風的方向
讓我每一天能飛到更遠的地方
不能和你一起 擁有喜悅和悲傷
不管走多遠 步伐都沒有力量
不能和你一起 走往這世界 幸福方向
孤單的身旁少了堅強 只有簡單感傷
眼神不會說話 只有淚光
你給過希望 怎麼能忘
是你填滿溫暖 讓夢想有了翅膀
教我如何控制 風的方向
讓我每一天能飛到更遠的地方
不能和你一起 擁有喜悅和悲傷
不管走多遠 步伐都沒有力量
不能和你一起 走往這世界 幸福方向
孤單的身旁少了堅強 只有簡單感傷
Blessing.
Hi all.
This is the happiest moment in my life for a long while. I have learned that a ministry is another fellowship too....i have never come to think that way.Worship practice has always ben a highlight of the week for me, cos i just so enjoyed the whole get together and the wonderful practice! Haha, actually its also another thing that makes me so happy. Well the supper after worship practice is wonderful, with everyone attending it. I really enjoy myself with the team after practice. She's driving tonight. So she drove us there. It's an honor to be at the passenger seat beside her. It really feels great, i can't imagine,it's surreal! God is really amazing. I can't help but smiling to myself, but i don't think anyone saw that. Talking to her over supper is great. Eating fish porridge for the first time is great! Everythin is great! But i really do think she should not have sent everyone back, cos she's so tired already(heart-breakin)!! I hope they reached home safely,esp her, cos shes driving and shes so tired. Thank yous to all the bros and sis, for your ever so warmth support! I am still relying on God for all things. All i know i should do is continue to care for her, continue to pray for her. Thank you, for all the wonderful things that happened! I don't deserve them, but yet You blessed me. God will prepare the best for her, the best for me. Amen.
This is the happiest moment in my life for a long while. I have learned that a ministry is another fellowship too....i have never come to think that way.Worship practice has always ben a highlight of the week for me, cos i just so enjoyed the whole get together and the wonderful practice! Haha, actually its also another thing that makes me so happy. Well the supper after worship practice is wonderful, with everyone attending it. I really enjoy myself with the team after practice. She's driving tonight. So she drove us there. It's an honor to be at the passenger seat beside her. It really feels great, i can't imagine,it's surreal! God is really amazing. I can't help but smiling to myself, but i don't think anyone saw that. Talking to her over supper is great. Eating fish porridge for the first time is great! Everythin is great! But i really do think she should not have sent everyone back, cos she's so tired already(heart-breakin)!! I hope they reached home safely,esp her, cos shes driving and shes so tired. Thank yous to all the bros and sis, for your ever so warmth support! I am still relying on God for all things. All i know i should do is continue to care for her, continue to pray for her. Thank you, for all the wonderful things that happened! I don't deserve them, but yet You blessed me. God will prepare the best for her, the best for me. Amen.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Journey
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you ... to you
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you ... to you
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