I miss her.
Missing her when i woke up from my sleep. Missing her when i go to work. Missing her at work. Missing during lunch. Missing her when i am meeting my clients. Missing her on my way home from work. Missing her when i am having my dinner. Missing her when she goes offline. Missing her when i am about to sleep. Missing her in my sleep.
Yes, I am going to miss her again when i wake up the next morning, the following day, the day after tomorrow, the following week.....everyday. And I am happy to miss her, perhaps that's where i can be nearer to her.
I miss her.
Friday, January 27, 2006
Sunday, January 22, 2006
知足
怎麼去擁有 一道彩虹
怎麼去擁抱 一夏天的風
天上的星星 笑地上的人
總是不能懂 不能知道足夠
如果我愛上 你的笑容
要怎麼收藏 要怎麼擁有
如果你快樂 不是為我
會不會放手 其實才是擁有
當一陣風吹來 風箏飛上天空
為了你 而祈禱 而祝福 而感動
終於你身影 消失在人海盡頭
才發現 笑著哭最痛
那天你和我 那個山丘
那樣的唱著 那一年的歌
那樣的回憶 那麼足夠
足夠我天天都品嚐著寂寞
(知足的快樂 叫我忍受心痛)
怎麼去擁抱 一夏天的風
天上的星星 笑地上的人
總是不能懂 不能知道足夠
如果我愛上 你的笑容
要怎麼收藏 要怎麼擁有
如果你快樂 不是為我
會不會放手 其實才是擁有
當一陣風吹來 風箏飛上天空
為了你 而祈禱 而祝福 而感動
終於你身影 消失在人海盡頭
才發現 笑著哭最痛
那天你和我 那個山丘
那樣的唱著 那一年的歌
那樣的回憶 那麼足夠
足夠我天天都品嚐著寂寞
(知足的快樂 叫我忍受心痛)
Monday, January 16, 2006
Laziness, my silent whisper........
Man, i have been sleeping too much.
Wonder why do i dig sleeping so much? It almost seems like i sleep as much as i have three meals per day. This is crazy.Its been a really slackin' month, can't seem to be able to get anythin thing done. Work has been slack....i havent shoot anythin this year. Gotta plan my career carefully this year. It's about time to plan for the future. Gonna earn more. Gonna save more. Gotta stop being a lazy fellow.......
Oh by the way, I just woke up. Its gonna be a long night...............
Wonder why do i dig sleeping so much? It almost seems like i sleep as much as i have three meals per day. This is crazy.Its been a really slackin' month, can't seem to be able to get anythin thing done. Work has been slack....i havent shoot anythin this year. Gotta plan my career carefully this year. It's about time to plan for the future. Gonna earn more. Gonna save more. Gotta stop being a lazy fellow.......
Oh by the way, I just woke up. Its gonna be a long night...............
Saturday, January 14, 2006
A friend
Can't sleep.
It has finally come to an end.
Didn't know this can hurt so bad. Didn't expect this to happen. My happiness is short-lived. But still i want to be thankful. I want to be thankful cos i am able to help, in certain ways.I am thankful at least she can speak to me, pour out to me. Even though i choose to be taken out of the picture, i want to be joyful, though i am searchin my happiness in an empty void. I prayed that i can cry. That my tears will be able to wash away my sadness. But there's no tears, and my heart is ever so heavy. But i am thankful still, for every heart break comes a lesson, comes an experience, comes a surrendering.
Will God give me a cheerful face when i see her again? So she can be freed. So she's will not be worried. Even if it hurts, at least, it 's still for her. Even in hurt, she can be freed. That she dun have to look thru the windows anymore, but roam freely towards her dreams, without havin to worried about there's a me behind her, every now and then. If that's the least i can do for her, i am willing. I am not a burden anymore. Just be freed.
I will remember everythin that happened last night. It is bittersweet. How can i forget? Cos there might never be another time like this. I will remember, like i have always remembered everything since Day one......maybe its blurry to you, but its always so fresh,ever so clear, ever so sweet to me. I can only savour these memories alone. And be reminded to be thankful for all that had happened.
Let me slowly fade into the background. Let me be smiling from a distance. Let me be quiet again. Let me be a memory. Let me be a joy giver.Let me help, in the most subtle way. Let me listen to you, whenever you need a listening ear. Let me be just............just a simple friend.
A friend. Always.
It has finally come to an end.
Didn't know this can hurt so bad. Didn't expect this to happen. My happiness is short-lived. But still i want to be thankful. I want to be thankful cos i am able to help, in certain ways.I am thankful at least she can speak to me, pour out to me. Even though i choose to be taken out of the picture, i want to be joyful, though i am searchin my happiness in an empty void. I prayed that i can cry. That my tears will be able to wash away my sadness. But there's no tears, and my heart is ever so heavy. But i am thankful still, for every heart break comes a lesson, comes an experience, comes a surrendering.
Will God give me a cheerful face when i see her again? So she can be freed. So she's will not be worried. Even if it hurts, at least, it 's still for her. Even in hurt, she can be freed. That she dun have to look thru the windows anymore, but roam freely towards her dreams, without havin to worried about there's a me behind her, every now and then. If that's the least i can do for her, i am willing. I am not a burden anymore. Just be freed.
I will remember everythin that happened last night. It is bittersweet. How can i forget? Cos there might never be another time like this. I will remember, like i have always remembered everything since Day one......maybe its blurry to you, but its always so fresh,ever so clear, ever so sweet to me. I can only savour these memories alone. And be reminded to be thankful for all that had happened.
Let me slowly fade into the background. Let me be smiling from a distance. Let me be quiet again. Let me be a memory. Let me be a joy giver.Let me help, in the most subtle way. Let me listen to you, whenever you need a listening ear. Let me be just............just a simple friend.
A friend. Always.
不能和你一起
結束還是原諒 愛永遠擱在遠方
眼神不會說話 只有淚光
你給過希望 怎麼能忘
是你填滿溫暖 讓夢想有了翅膀
教我如何控制 風的方向
讓我每一天能飛到更遠的地方
不能和你一起 擁有喜悅和悲傷
不管走多遠 步伐都沒有力量
不能和你一起 走往這世界 幸福方向
孤單的身旁少了堅強 只有簡單感傷
眼神不會說話 只有淚光
你給過希望 怎麼能忘
是你填滿溫暖 讓夢想有了翅膀
教我如何控制 風的方向
讓我每一天能飛到更遠的地方
不能和你一起 擁有喜悅和悲傷
不管走多遠 步伐都沒有力量
不能和你一起 走往這世界 幸福方向
孤單的身旁少了堅強 只有簡單感傷
Blessing.
Hi all.
This is the happiest moment in my life for a long while. I have learned that a ministry is another fellowship too....i have never come to think that way.Worship practice has always ben a highlight of the week for me, cos i just so enjoyed the whole get together and the wonderful practice! Haha, actually its also another thing that makes me so happy. Well the supper after worship practice is wonderful, with everyone attending it. I really enjoy myself with the team after practice. She's driving tonight. So she drove us there. It's an honor to be at the passenger seat beside her. It really feels great, i can't imagine,it's surreal! God is really amazing. I can't help but smiling to myself, but i don't think anyone saw that. Talking to her over supper is great. Eating fish porridge for the first time is great! Everythin is great! But i really do think she should not have sent everyone back, cos she's so tired already(heart-breakin)!! I hope they reached home safely,esp her, cos shes driving and shes so tired. Thank yous to all the bros and sis, for your ever so warmth support! I am still relying on God for all things. All i know i should do is continue to care for her, continue to pray for her. Thank you, for all the wonderful things that happened! I don't deserve them, but yet You blessed me. God will prepare the best for her, the best for me. Amen.
This is the happiest moment in my life for a long while. I have learned that a ministry is another fellowship too....i have never come to think that way.Worship practice has always ben a highlight of the week for me, cos i just so enjoyed the whole get together and the wonderful practice! Haha, actually its also another thing that makes me so happy. Well the supper after worship practice is wonderful, with everyone attending it. I really enjoy myself with the team after practice. She's driving tonight. So she drove us there. It's an honor to be at the passenger seat beside her. It really feels great, i can't imagine,it's surreal! God is really amazing. I can't help but smiling to myself, but i don't think anyone saw that. Talking to her over supper is great. Eating fish porridge for the first time is great! Everythin is great! But i really do think she should not have sent everyone back, cos she's so tired already(heart-breakin)!! I hope they reached home safely,esp her, cos shes driving and shes so tired. Thank yous to all the bros and sis, for your ever so warmth support! I am still relying on God for all things. All i know i should do is continue to care for her, continue to pray for her. Thank you, for all the wonderful things that happened! I don't deserve them, but yet You blessed me. God will prepare the best for her, the best for me. Amen.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Journey
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you ... to you
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you ... to you
Monday, January 9, 2006
Relying On Him
Hi all.
Been having alot of thoughts. Regarding my life and my walk with God. About my bros and sisters. About people. All of sudden many things are happening at one go. I am face with many issues and problems. Actually some of these problems are my friends' problems. Think i am quite helpless in my ability to help them. Guess i am not equipped enough to be of any help. But still i truly believe that by being there without judgemental eyes is the key!
I see alot of distractions. To take me away from my focus. People. Things. But i must gladly say this, i can see better this time round. I know when and where to draw a line. And i do really feel this difference in my perception of things. For the first time, i can really see things better. Focus better. And i learn to surrender correctly. Yes, it's challenging, yet it's really fun and encouragin when you know you are doing it right. When you are doing it like how God wants you to.
I am tryin to take slow steps in helpin, in any ways i can for my dears. At the same time, i know i am finding ways to enrich myself too. I find myself relyin alot alot on God's strength and wisdom. In many ways it help me to understand why i need to focus on Him in times like that. Relyin on God is indeed wonderful. I became less lonely. I am happier. I know He will be standing by my side. As i am writing these, i know He's smiling at me.
It's indeed a year of changes and challenges. And i can thank Him for all these. Sincerely. Gratefully.
Been having alot of thoughts. Regarding my life and my walk with God. About my bros and sisters. About people. All of sudden many things are happening at one go. I am face with many issues and problems. Actually some of these problems are my friends' problems. Think i am quite helpless in my ability to help them. Guess i am not equipped enough to be of any help. But still i truly believe that by being there without judgemental eyes is the key!
I see alot of distractions. To take me away from my focus. People. Things. But i must gladly say this, i can see better this time round. I know when and where to draw a line. And i do really feel this difference in my perception of things. For the first time, i can really see things better. Focus better. And i learn to surrender correctly. Yes, it's challenging, yet it's really fun and encouragin when you know you are doing it right. When you are doing it like how God wants you to.
I am tryin to take slow steps in helpin, in any ways i can for my dears. At the same time, i know i am finding ways to enrich myself too. I find myself relyin alot alot on God's strength and wisdom. In many ways it help me to understand why i need to focus on Him in times like that. Relyin on God is indeed wonderful. I became less lonely. I am happier. I know He will be standing by my side. As i am writing these, i know He's smiling at me.
It's indeed a year of changes and challenges. And i can thank Him for all these. Sincerely. Gratefully.
New Year, New Focus
Hi all it's been a wonderful start for the new year. I hope you find satisfaction in regards of what u do for the start of this year.
Basically I find new hope, new strength today. Looking at the sunday school class this morning, i feel the suddenly urge to make a difference this year for this ministry..i see rooms for improvement, new teachers, new attitudes....and a lot of worries too. Alot of the 'older' teachers are takin a break or doin some other stuff....the newer ones have new roles to play this time. Thanks for stepping down so we younger generation can play a part and stop relyin on you guys for everythin! Haha! We can make a difference, we just needed to find out how. Well we have the whole year to figure. God's plans to mold us deeper is now.
Basically church is goin through a transition period. We are experiencing new environment soon. We are movin soon....to a new place. I think alot of us might have alot of mixed feelings regarding this thing. But I am sure we are looking forward to this as a whole. New year, new place to grow. New opportunities for the expansion of God's Kingdom.
Think 2006 is the year of difference, for me. I truly see the change in my life in 2005. 2006 will be the make a difference year. Hopefully, I will rely totally on God's strength as i embark on the journey for this year. And remind myself the challenges ahead are a means to mold me. Glory to Him.
Basically I find new hope, new strength today. Looking at the sunday school class this morning, i feel the suddenly urge to make a difference this year for this ministry..i see rooms for improvement, new teachers, new attitudes....and a lot of worries too. Alot of the 'older' teachers are takin a break or doin some other stuff....the newer ones have new roles to play this time. Thanks for stepping down so we younger generation can play a part and stop relyin on you guys for everythin! Haha! We can make a difference, we just needed to find out how. Well we have the whole year to figure. God's plans to mold us deeper is now.
Basically church is goin through a transition period. We are experiencing new environment soon. We are movin soon....to a new place. I think alot of us might have alot of mixed feelings regarding this thing. But I am sure we are looking forward to this as a whole. New year, new place to grow. New opportunities for the expansion of God's Kingdom.
Think 2006 is the year of difference, for me. I truly see the change in my life in 2005. 2006 will be the make a difference year. Hopefully, I will rely totally on God's strength as i embark on the journey for this year. And remind myself the challenges ahead are a means to mold me. Glory to Him.
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