Came across some stuff in church on friday that I think it shouldn't be there. Was it forgetfulness or was it like that all these while? I ponder and got no answer unless ppl comes clean with it......
I can say Friday practice was kinda weird. I dunno what I am playing and can't stand being in the room. I just felt out of place.I felt like crying. I have lost my joy of serving(only that night, I hope). And I sure want to get away from that place ASAP. And finding those 'stuff' is really really really not helpin at all.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Angeldust.......coming back together?
I sms Terence today, asking about his thoughts on the band getting back together.
Normally he will be the last person I will talk to about this. But alas, i only have his contacts. We weren't that close before or now..but I see him every now and then @ guitar shops...he owns a studio himself. I have lost a best friend in one of the guitarist, Alex. Lost contact. Lost common interest. We were partners in crime way back. And not to forget the guy who actually push me to be the drummer I am today..Weitai. How long was it ago...we went all the way back to sec 1. Of cos I was in his band only during sec 3. But he was the oldest friend I have in Angeldust.
Angeldust is actually an amalgam of 2 bands. The 2 bands disintegrated almost exactly at the same time. I was with Weitai. Terence were with Alex and our vocalist Jianming. We hit it right off. We fit like a tee. We work really hard. We wouldn't sleep, we were the rock band, living the life. We will stay all night to write music..cover songs...pushing ourselves. We will jammed at three different studios in one day. We headline a few local gigs. We are music. But we are not without big egos...and soon we broke up.
Haven't heard from them in years. Being the introvert, I din blend with them well....but then again I dun blend well. That's just me. Even now....i am still that introvert...that's what my boss of five years said too. "You are too introvert.."
Back to the band.
Can I really bring these people to Christ?
Terence sounded positive abt the whole idea. He said he will called the guys and ask them. My vocalist won't be joining us...either he's doin time or sent back to Malaysia, never to return. Someone will have to fill in his big shoes if the band ever play together again.
How will things be? Angeldust.....
*i just check..there's a band whose name is also Angel Dust......i guess the difference is we are Angeldust...but our old logo looks about the same like theirs'. Now that's spooky. Nope that's not us....we are chinese...:)
Normally he will be the last person I will talk to about this. But alas, i only have his contacts. We weren't that close before or now..but I see him every now and then @ guitar shops...he owns a studio himself. I have lost a best friend in one of the guitarist, Alex. Lost contact. Lost common interest. We were partners in crime way back. And not to forget the guy who actually push me to be the drummer I am today..Weitai. How long was it ago...we went all the way back to sec 1. Of cos I was in his band only during sec 3. But he was the oldest friend I have in Angeldust.
Angeldust is actually an amalgam of 2 bands. The 2 bands disintegrated almost exactly at the same time. I was with Weitai. Terence were with Alex and our vocalist Jianming. We hit it right off. We fit like a tee. We work really hard. We wouldn't sleep, we were the rock band, living the life. We will stay all night to write music..cover songs...pushing ourselves. We will jammed at three different studios in one day. We headline a few local gigs. We are music. But we are not without big egos...and soon we broke up.
Haven't heard from them in years. Being the introvert, I din blend with them well....but then again I dun blend well. That's just me. Even now....i am still that introvert...that's what my boss of five years said too. "You are too introvert.."
Back to the band.
Can I really bring these people to Christ?
Terence sounded positive abt the whole idea. He said he will called the guys and ask them. My vocalist won't be joining us...either he's doin time or sent back to Malaysia, never to return. Someone will have to fill in his big shoes if the band ever play together again.
How will things be? Angeldust.....
*i just check..there's a band whose name is also Angel Dust......i guess the difference is we are Angeldust...but our old logo looks about the same like theirs'. Now that's spooky. Nope that's not us....we are chinese...:)
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Boy & Girls
i think i know why i cancelled my friendster account, because i can always upload pics on bloggers.
i love uploadin pics.
this one's for the boy and girls......
i love uploadin pics.
this one's for the boy and girls......
Monday, January 22, 2007
My chains are gone
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
Indeed, my chains are gone. I have been set free. One week of frustrations and fury finally came to an end. There were drizzles of God's love, showering my very soul. Yupp, I am not a failure all these years. I have serve others before myself. Yes in many aspect I may not be the sucessful photographer others think I should be...but I have always know in my heart I did right. I have never care about the fame and riches of this job. I just want to be myself. And I did serve being just that.
Had a wonderful time celebrating Rebecca's birthday with the YF ppl. I was sure quite awkward when I walk into Swenson. How would they react? What will they say about me? Questions upon questions in mere seconds. I had to go in.....and sit right infront of Pr Chua.
She was very encouraging about our journey. Thi is the first time she spoke to us together, face to face. We felt honor and very peaceful. And that conversation is another encouragement and boost to our journey. We will walk on with our blessings. We talk abt Falter None too....i invited her to join us one day.
Kaien. Great works on the drums. To me that was quite an accomplishment in 2 hours. I could never do that.
Give us visions O Lord, as we lead Falter None into the new year. No God we will not compromise your values and truth. Sorry for upsetting you with our sinful ways. We hope to grow.
Erm....I have to say this..no more shorts when playing drums......or how about this, your shorts cannot be shorter than your shifu's. Yes drummers.....:)
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
Indeed, my chains are gone. I have been set free. One week of frustrations and fury finally came to an end. There were drizzles of God's love, showering my very soul. Yupp, I am not a failure all these years. I have serve others before myself. Yes in many aspect I may not be the sucessful photographer others think I should be...but I have always know in my heart I did right. I have never care about the fame and riches of this job. I just want to be myself. And I did serve being just that.
Had a wonderful time celebrating Rebecca's birthday with the YF ppl. I was sure quite awkward when I walk into Swenson. How would they react? What will they say about me? Questions upon questions in mere seconds. I had to go in.....and sit right infront of Pr Chua.
She was very encouraging about our journey. Thi is the first time she spoke to us together, face to face. We felt honor and very peaceful. And that conversation is another encouragement and boost to our journey. We will walk on with our blessings. We talk abt Falter None too....i invited her to join us one day.
Kaien. Great works on the drums. To me that was quite an accomplishment in 2 hours. I could never do that.
Give us visions O Lord, as we lead Falter None into the new year. No God we will not compromise your values and truth. Sorry for upsetting you with our sinful ways. We hope to grow.
Erm....I have to say this..no more shorts when playing drums......or how about this, your shorts cannot be shorter than your shifu's. Yes drummers.....:)
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Falter None T Shirt
We have always wanted our own band tee. This is what I have done. I also include a verse.
How about you guys? Any suitable verse for the tee? :)
“Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom,
and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God.”
Colossians 3:16
Hope you guys like this. BTW our birrthday is April 5th 2006...which is like 456..haha!!
Cheers and God bless.
How about you guys? Any suitable verse for the tee? :)
“Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom,
and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God.”
Colossians 3:16
Hope you guys like this. BTW our birrthday is April 5th 2006...which is like 456..haha!!
Cheers and God bless.
Gems
This is a gem! Beautiful.
Thanks for Jiancong for being kind and gracious. My brothers have been very kind andpatient with me. Thank God for these gems in my life....
I am coming back to face you on your throne. Little by little, seconds by seconds, minute by minute, day by day............... I walk towards You in search of Your light. Let me know You are sufficient enough for all needs. Be my pillar. Take away my anger and frustrations. Lead me by my hand.....
Here I am, humbled by Your majesty,
Covered by Your grace so free.
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man,
Covered by the blood of the Lamb.
Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine,
Since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
Empty-handed but alive in Your hands.
Here I am, humbled by the love that You give,
Forgiven so that I can forgive.
So here I stand, knowing that I am Your desire,
Sanctified by glory and fire.
And now I've found the greatest love of all is mine,
Since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
Empty-handed but alive in your hands.
Singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love,
In the presence of Your Majesty.
Majesty.
We're singing Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
And I'm nothing but alive in Your hands.
We're singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love,
In the beauty of Your Majesty.
Majesty.
I am truly sorry for the wrongs I have done...all these years.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Dyin' at the river
I nearly died this morning.
Words and anger embroiled in my heart......somethings takes a longer time to dissolve. Something never. Hurt ensured. Disappoinment......the river couldn't make me feel any better.......the pigeons couldn't. I will never compromise what is to be done right, whatever precious darlings I might lose.
I love elephants. They make me smile......
we will have better set of drums next week, my drummies. :)
"no more tears".........
This makes me smile, too.
Words and anger embroiled in my heart......somethings takes a longer time to dissolve. Something never. Hurt ensured. Disappoinment......the river couldn't make me feel any better.......the pigeons couldn't. I will never compromise what is to be done right, whatever precious darlings I might lose.
I love elephants. They make me smile......
we will have better set of drums next week, my drummies. :)
"no more tears".........
This makes me smile, too.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
2007
2007. A new year. Where it all begins anew, again.
Jamming is a bit messy the other day. Not to mention my not so good mood also. Perhaps we are goin different directions on that day due to no planning prior to the jam. But I am glad my padawan is back in our midst, but my Tudi is not around. I feel that its goin to take some time to make this vehicle to move forward again. We havent been playing for months together.
Sometime i think i dun need to carry a HP at all. Cos I dun bother to reply or pick up sometimes, much to the displease of my good friends. I am like this hermit that doesn't want to be bothered. Doesn't want to be reached. I am all shut up inside my shell. I don't want to go out. I want to be all alone. Really dislike this Gu Pi pattern in my character. Someting is not right with me, I think.
I am gonna leave this shitty place called Geoffstudio. I have been saying that for the last five years.
The first blog of the new year, and I have to sound so depressed.
Anyway, God still reigns as I continue to battle demons from another realm.
Jamming is a bit messy the other day. Not to mention my not so good mood also. Perhaps we are goin different directions on that day due to no planning prior to the jam. But I am glad my padawan is back in our midst, but my Tudi is not around. I feel that its goin to take some time to make this vehicle to move forward again. We havent been playing for months together.
Sometime i think i dun need to carry a HP at all. Cos I dun bother to reply or pick up sometimes, much to the displease of my good friends. I am like this hermit that doesn't want to be bothered. Doesn't want to be reached. I am all shut up inside my shell. I don't want to go out. I want to be all alone. Really dislike this Gu Pi pattern in my character. Someting is not right with me, I think.
I am gonna leave this shitty place called Geoffstudio. I have been saying that for the last five years.
The first blog of the new year, and I have to sound so depressed.
Anyway, God still reigns as I continue to battle demons from another realm.
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