The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,......

为主赢得城市

为基督赢得这城市，充满了主荣耀的城市，

被掳的灵魂得释放，被杀的羔羊得胜，

为基督赢得这城市，充满了主荣耀的城市，

喜乐油代替了悲哀，赞美衣代替了忧伤。

为基督赢得这城市，充满了主荣耀的城市，

被掳的灵魂得释放，被杀的羔羊得胜。

主啊求你恩膏我，差我传扬福音的禧年！！！

主啊求你恩膏我，差我传扬福音的禧年！！！

Progression

Have been figuring out a series of progression on the guitar these past one week. Wasn't plan to write an original, but everytime I pick up the faithful les paul, something new, yet simple will flow. The progression is always on an evolution cycle. To be frank, I wasn't quite sure what chord I am in, I just play. But it's really interesting.

I was playin it again last night, this time I plugged in the guitar into the amp, togther with my effect. I got Jieying to backed me up with piano. She came out with another lovely melody to compliment the progression. We just played the night away. Yupp we did something good, given that it's an original. After one and a half year, we are finally able to play together. Well, at least we got something out of our playing, even if it's not so good, we can proudly said it's ours. There's a little blend of classical pianio, gothic feel and tiny weeny bit of Wylde when I turn on the distortion for the guitar. FUN! Maybe I wll figure out a bass line to go along with it. Then maybe the lyrics......we'll see.

My camera is on repair. Got abit of dirt inside. So have to live without it for a week. In the mentime I should really start looking for a decent dry cabinet and a cool camera bag.


Feel like playin guitar now.

Nov 1st!

Been camera crazy these few weeks. Oh how the les pauls and strats and the PJs are hating Canon right now. I have been neglecting these other babies.

Went to library last evening to borrow comics, but instead we borrowed 2 books on wildlife photography, 1 book on cats(which is also photography), and a comic book. Haha. It's really fascinating, and exciting just to look at the pictures. Somehow makes my fashion works seem irrelevant, indignified in some sense. I flipped the pages in awe of God's creation....wish I can be there. Something in those pictures have stirred a fresh interest in a dying heart of passion for photography, after months(or years) of studio slavery. Time to really pack those bags and head for destiny.

Oh by the way the book about cats, it's sooooo cute. I shared it with my family in Batok. They have strongly supporting me. Encouraging me. Even Jieying is getting interested. Was thinking about getting a 20D for her to start. Hope can share this passion with her, like the way we shared music. Truly thankful for my family.

Been listening to alot of dead ppl's songs. Esp 陈百强's songs. It kinda remind me of the years growing up in the 80's. How these songs are always on the radio and tv. Most of these pop icons of the 80's are dead, hence dead people. Leslie Cheung, Anita Mui...etc. Childhood memories.

We went for cycling a few days ago after my work at ECP. First time I see her cycling on her own. We had real fun, I was actually quite worried she will fall down, but thankfully, she didn't. It was her first time on the bike for years. She did well! We took some pictures too!








Jubilee is conquering Taipei at the end of the month for a week long tour! Haha, as if. Yes the three of us, Weiyang, Jiancong and myself is going for holidays to Taipei at the end of the month. It's the first time the three of us went for a trip together( don't count church camp.) I am sure we will enjoy this trip. Maybe it can be use to commemorate 8 years of songs, tears, fights and love~ friendship, if you will. Love those guys.


一生何求　曾妥協也試過苦鬥
夢內每點繽紛　一消散那可收
一生何求　誰計較讚美與咀咒
沒料到我所失的竟已是我的所有

偏偏喜欢你

愁绪挥不去苦闷散不去
为何我心一片空虚
感情已失去一切都失去
满腔恨愁不可消除

为何你的嘴里总是那一句
为何我的心不会死
明白到爱失去一切都不对
我又为何偏偏喜欢你

爱已是负累相爱似受罪
心底如今满苦泪
旧日情如醉此际怕再追
偏偏痴心想见你

为何我心分秒想着过去
为何你一点都不记起
情义已失去恩爱都失去
我却为何偏偏喜欢你

爱已是负累相爱似受罪
心底如今满苦泪
旧日情如醉此际怕再追
偏偏痴心想见你

为何我心分秒想着过去
为何你一点都不记起
情义已失去恩爱都失去
我却为何偏偏喜欢你

情义已失去恩爱都失去
我却为何偏偏喜欢你

Heaven?

Finally!

I have spent some of my precious savings on photography equipments. Being a photographer for six years without my own camera, I must be kidding right? But it's so true. The Canon 5D is of superb build and it's a Canon DSLR fans' dream....I can't believe I am holding it la. Never bought such an expensive item in my life. But there was no pinch. Becos I am gonna need it. And wait, and there's the nice nice nice 17-40mm L lens! I am secretly tellin God that I am ready to use it for Him, be it camps, or events, or even mission trips. This is one peice of equipment I am gonna use for God. I might not be in the fashion industry/ Studio for long, so I am sure God has plans for me and my 5D. Who knows what kind of magic this camera will produce for the kingdom of God? We'll see. Thank You for this lovely gift.

Think this week will be spend on the preparation of curch camp publicity. So excited. There's like so many things happening over at the publicity side...gonna do one good one. This year's camp's gonna be a blast.


I was dreaming of lovely landscapes and sceneries these few nights while sleeping. I dreamt that I was talking pictures of animals and trees and rivers and mountains and really enjoying my work. I felt like a bird, free. Free of bondage. Free of depression. Free of people. Free of the world. Free.

I felt mightily contented, and can breathe so easily. Was that heaven I saw?



The italic Smiley:)

Sunday 21st Oct 2007

Sunday marks my return to the worship team after a good break, and what a break it was. And of cos, what a big day it was to me on sunday. My worship leader has planned a unplugged worship presentation. Most of us have to sing and has a mic to themselves. It was truly awesome, and truly hard to play and sing at the same time. And also new songs to challange us. But we all had fun figuring the hard part out. Definitely refreshing. I don't know, I really felt shy standing on the stage. So many faces.....I remind myself to smile for the Lord, and the congregation. Must show a welcome face.

Sunday evenings used to be special to me. Thats usually the time when I will chat with my friend over the phone. Usually short ones...but always interesting topic in our chats. We will enquire our well beings and spirituality. That was a long time ago. Years.

This sunday evening brings comfort.


I was really unsure, but I am glad. Thank you Lord.

Thank you.



I like the sliced fish soup with rice.

思念

想要写封信给你
点点滴滴
沿著回忆
凭著感觉执笔
总是闭上了眼睛
思念却漫溢
不著边际的想你

恨不能
一辈子贴在你的怀里
穿梭时空也如一

你亲吻了我
绵绵的呼吸
连空气
都充满 欢喜

好想为你唱首歌
熟悉的律
将思念慢慢 累积

WE were talking about this song the other day. It's by Evelyn Tan and I happen to have this track in my library. It kinda brings me to back to Glory days. That's when I started coming to church for the first time..it brings back alot of memories. I like the lyrics alot.

Tired & Bothered

Am really drained right now. Both Seani and I barely rest, just so that we, by any good chance, can finish that dumb Johnnie Walker job, which is due this morning. This job has been carrying on for the past 2 months. We haven't take a breather since. And we feel utterly unappreciated. What a waste of effort. This thing is breaking us.

Anyways I tried to be calm knowing that we might never get it done by today. As the night moves closer to morning, we are spent and wasted and disheartened. And we're not getting paid for this many many digits job. And we're doing all the dirty work.


Shame on you.


But....

I am going to rehersal this evening, by hook or by crook!

your best days are ahead of you!

Monday night is interesting. A filling dinner with a totally fulfilling conversation(for me). A outpour session of sorts. I think learning has ways to surprise you, unknowing ways. It comes in all shapes and sizes, forms and ways. I want to be student, a student of Christ.

"Your best years are not over, your best days are ahead of you!"

I am looking ahead. From now on. And also, I want to be the guy who opens the store room and pushes the trolley with gladness and joy every sunday. My best days are still ahead.




"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and discipline."
~ Proverbs 1:7

Untitled

Time really flies. It's october already.

My last entry was august. I have taken a break from ministry. Was busy, really busy at work. My office is a wreck, like a warzone. Workload is lesser these days, as gradually we are finishing up the job that has been eating us away at work. It's also a time for me to heal and rest. Yes in the midst of business at work, I found out that I am a foul mouth who is bitter about things, hates my work and my boss, can't make myself available to church, a loner....and appreciate the works of God. I could have rot and fade away, which to some point I did. But I think all these while, all the melees I had, I just came back strong. The mirror is an enemy I can't deny. I ultimately found friends among friends. There are actually people who cares alot about me. Emptiness fades away......I am encouraged. What can't kill me, only makes me stronger.

As He continues to use me for his ministry, I can't help but feel wonderous. He could and should have kick me out so long ago, and yet time after time, He uses me. I am guilty, shameful. But these are the basic tools to humble me before Him. He had broken me down for Himself. Thats the only way to work on my other aspect in life, to move forward. I want to give the ultimate sacrifice, and for Him I must do it. For He is worthy.

I am scheduled to be on the team next week. Really looking forward to it.





" He was wounded for our transgressions, crushed for our iniquities; by His wounds we are healed. " Isaiah 53

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go

When you pretend not to see me, you still have to face me. And now your wish will be granted.

Mel, sorry about Auntie. Hope the case will be in your family's favor. God blessed you all. Yes I know, it's been crazy.

Bros, take care.


All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring(maybe not wedding ring, something else lah)

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Shoot

Shoot shoot shoot!

The Hardwares N' Hardcases

My brother bought a Epiphone Casino yesterday. Man am i green with envy....now I know how he felt, all this time! Haha!!

But I must really say this is a fine piece of instruments. Nice sound. Nice finishing. Nice colour. And comes with a vinage E hardcase. Lovely. This is something none of my peers have, and I appreciate it cos it's gonna help my band with the sound. Like I always said, band property. haha!!! It belongs to us....I am sure someone disagree!! Hah!

I am truly inspired. We always said even when we are just accompanying people to but guitars, we will be more excited and thrilled than the fellow doing the purchasing! We truly loves guitar!! Hence, I spent some hours on the internet searching for a low priced, elegantly-crafted Epi or Gretsch...or something that is similiar. Casino has really nice chrome hardwares that were build to impress. And I was impressed!! See what I found....






Hardware rulez! Not to forget, hardcase too!!

Upgrading.

Hush....upgrading is in the process.

Worshiping Together

Much is been said about broken relationship this past few weeks.

Worshiping Together
by Jon Walker


"May God … help you live in complete harmony with each other—each with the attitude of Christ Jesus toward the other. Then all of you can join together with one voice, giving praise and glory to God ….” (Romans 15:5-6 NLT)

Entering God’s presence together requires careful preparation.

Congregational worship isn’t as simple as walking through the doors of a church and singing a few songs. In worship we enter the presence of the living God and declare his praises.

While his arms are open to everyone, not just anyone can snuggle up next to him. The psalmist declared, “Who may climb the mountain of the LORD? Who may stand in his holy place? Only those whose hands and hearts are pure, who do not worship idols and never tell lies … They alone may enter God's presence and worship the God of Israel.” (Psalms 24:3-4, 6 NLT)

Preparing our hearts for community worship requires, first and foremost, that we cleanse ourselves of anything that comes between us and our God. As I’ve said before, we cannot work our way into holiness – that is the work of God, the spirit of Christ within us.

But part of the Holy Spirit’s work is to make us aware of our sins, and once he’s done that, our “work” is confessing those sins and jettisoning them from our lives – confession and jettison.

What is sin? Anything that separates you from God; anything the Holy Spirit says is sin; anything that pushes God down in your life or out of your life; anything you wouldn’t do with Jesus right by your side. The fact is, of course, he isn’t right by your side; the Spirit is inside you, placed there by God at the moment of your salvation.

So what?

· Prepare for community worship – Entering the presence of the living God requires careful preparation. It means slowing down, turning your eyes away from yourself, and contemplating all God has done for you.

· An attitude of gratitude – Think of all the people God has placed in your life who bless you. Think of the things God has given you. Let gratitude well up in your soul, and then express your gratitude through praise. “I long, yes, I faint with longing to enter the courts of the Lord. With my whole being, body and soul, I will shout joyfully to the living God,” the psalmist declared in Psalm 84:2 (NLT).


· Remove obstacles to unity – God wants us united as we come to communal worship: "If you enter your place of worship and, about to make an offering, you suddenly remember a grudge a friend has against you, abandon your offering, leave immediately, go to this friend and make things right. Then and only then, come back and work things out with God.” (Matthew 5:23-24 MSG)

· Initiate healing – Is there someone who comes to mind when you read about broken relationships? Ask God to show you what to do to initiate healing in that relationship.

-Jon Walker (dailydevotionals@purposedrivenlife.com)




I am trying.

Emo Monday Nights

I am open up , to pour out my thoughts.
For you are my brothers, and the Lord
is our center, our focus. And we are one.
We're together to strengthen one another.

We had this wonderful practice on monday. But it's actually the fellowshipping that touches me deeper. And with that kind of fellowshipping, and bonding, comes better practice. I felt as if I am energize after we had share our lives with one another. In retrospective, we had definitely come far. Like I have said earlier, we seek and find solace within one another...Weiyang, Jiancong, me and God. My chains are gone, I have been set free.

Takin'a break from shoots, test shoots, that is.
But I want to thank the people that help me with my shoots. Thanks for the late evenings and willingness to help.

I thank you.

Ecclesiastes 4: 9

Its the last day for rehersal, and not alot of ppl turn up. Very little publicity is made about Let Praise Arise.

Bad sound, and if I may, bad vibe.

vibe:
|vīb| noun informal 1 (usu. vibes) a person's emotional state or the atmosphere of a place as communicated to and felt by others : a lot of moody people giving off bad vibes. [ORIGIN: abbreviation of vibrations.]

My understanding: 2 groups of ppl, a group of musicians and a group of people who plays instruments.


Sleepin' Faith find some time to chilled @ Holland V. Had really nice bread and tea. Had a great time just to talk about music. And to seek solace..from one another. Chuckle.

"I observed that the basic motive for sucess is the driving force of envy and jealousy!" - Ecclesiastes 4:4 (LB)

Came across this verse, while trying to find another verse. A good reminder for me.

"Two are better off than one, because together they can work more effectively. If one of them falls down, the other can help him up...Two people can resist an attack that would defeat one person alone. A rope made of three cords is hard to break."
-Ecclesiastes 4: 9 (TEV)

The above verse i dedicate to my band. May the three of us continue to strive for God's ministry.

Thank you my brothers. Thank you God.

Eh, what should I name this entry, man?

Well, seriously, I haven't really attend to bloggin for months, because I am tired, and I don't feel like bloggin. Somehow, it has lost the meaning to my intentions and my absence is quite intentional. Maybe I feel that a blog is sometime not a good, or wise place to contain your daily outpour of complains and shit. Just check other blogs and you will see what I meant. Some choose blog hopping....some blog to remember, so blog to forget..(hey isn't that a song?) Sometimes blogging gets the better of us, and I should say we must be careful....this bloggin stuff, its a double edge sword, one moment u feel like you are winning, another you felt wasted and shitty. Yes shitty.

On a lighter note, I think I am such an egoistic person, and actually, at this point, I would like to address this officially. I am EGO personified. Ok, right, I've said it, and I think I am suppose to feel good after throwing this weight out from my heart. Yes I am smiling as I type away. But I must insist, I am really shy. Please believe me. :) No don't get me wrong, I am not planning to ride my band as the chief pilot. I love these guys and they are the most probable answers to some of my life questions. They are definite reasons why music breathes...and I do enjoy this mutual admiration we had for one another. Meanwhile, maybe I am tryin my best to be really nice and easy.....so dun push it.

Not very nice to say all these? So much for lighter notes.......

oh i so want to do this. The top ten + one bassist:

1. Duff McKagan( Velvet Revolver/Guns N Roses)
Cool. Uses Made In Japan Fender Jazz Special. He's the reason why I have gotten My PJ Bass, the fore-runner to MIJ jass
Special. And he's been a favourite since high school.
2. Steve Harris (Iron Maiden)
3. Taiji Sawada (DTR/X Japan/Loudness)
4. Mike Inez (Ozzy Osbourne/ Snakepit/ Alice In Chains) a veri special bassist, has been a favourite before I even dig bass.
5. Rachel Bolan (Skid Row) Skid row!! Need there be another reason!
6. J (Luna Sea)
7. Tetsu (L'Arc en ciel) I really cant figure how he came out with such melodious lines.
8. Jason Newstead (Ozzy Osbourne/Metallica) Really, I prefer Jason to Burton. I think he is veri sophisticated.
9. Timothy Schmit (The Eagles)
10. Nikki Sixx (Motley Crue) Use to like him really alot, not because he's a bassist, but more for his image. Anyway, he uses a
Thunderbird, so.........
11. FLEA (Red Hot Chilli Pepper) Need me say more?



So if you 're not dead by now, please continue to tune in for more ear-blistherin' hand typed words in this space call my blog, maybe you'll find something interesting, soon. But be advise, it's not always about you, cos the world doesn't revolves around you. And when you finally think it really does, please check yourself into the nearest mental institue, or get a shrink. Best yet, come to church. You will get more, trust me.

Uglies clusterin'

Uglies in my life.
Clusterin all over.
I need some kind of repellant,
some sort of remedies, walk out
the door, please just go away.

Well, if you can't defeat 'em,
put 'em into perspective,
He will always put them back
uglies in your life.


-michel

May 18th 2007. It's a friday.

May 18th 2007 It's a friday.

How time flies. In a blink, alot has past us by. You, me, the world, everything changes ever so fast. And the space of unspoken words has stretched, and still strectching....ever so fast.

What was the world like a year ago? What am I busy with? Oh don't remind me, let me think, let me think................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................so I see. Right, things happened. Ever wonder what the outcome would be if there's an alternative decision? I guess there's no alternative in things, in God's eyes. I chose this way.

Every step from then til now, there has been potholes and potholes, and mountains and mountains of uglies.....they still come searching for blood ever so often. I wish I can sleep more nowadays.

Every silence is deafening....it cuts.

May 18th 2007. It's a friday.

How time flies...................glad that the amount has tied. At least you don't have to worry so much now.


This is a period when ppl got fever?

我們的九

Our 9th month celebration. A baby takes 9 months to grow in the mummy's stomach, I think. Well, I would say we have passed that baby time swimming in the mummy's tummy, and it's time for us to have another break thru in our relationship. We are moving to a higher stage. And to do that....FEAST!!!! Yummy!! We love our food, no talkin when we're eating........FEAST, not fast!

Anyways, we're thankful again for all these months together, and only it's possible because there's a God up there showering blessings every moment.

The food is really good :)



Shot this awhile back but didn't get to retouch it. Finally can take a breather today.

海闊天空

我曾懷疑我　走在沙漠中　從不結果　無論種什麼夢
　才張開翅膀　風卻便沉默　習慣傷痛能不能　算收穫
慶幸的是我　一直沒回頭　終於發現　真的是有綠洲
每把汗流了　生命變的厚重　走出沮喪才看見　新宇宙

海闊天空　在勇敢以後　要拿執著　將命運的所打破
冷漠的人　謝謝你們曾經看輕我　讓我不低頭　更精采的活

凌晨的窗口　失眠整夜以後　看著黎明　從雲裡抬起了頭
日落是沉潛　日出是成熟　只要是光一定會　燦爛的

海闊天空　在勇敢以後　要拿執著　將命運的所打破
海闊天空　狂風暴雨以後　轉過頭　對舊心酸一笑而過

最懂我的人　謝謝一路默默的陪著我
讓我擁有好故事可以說　看未來　一步步來了

This speaks of how i felt right now, this moment.
Exit:Transit.......................

Ying N' the Sun........

I am veri happy with the result of my latest shoot. I always wanted to do stuff like this, just didn't manage to really go and do it. My aim is to shoot something in the most casual fashion, without much elaborated lighting and such. Just mood and personality, and perhaps a little touch of magic. This shoot is just a couple of minutes, but satisfaction guaranteed! Beautiful sun from the Creator, my Manufacturer, God's lighting!

Raining....

The band didn't get to meet up for dinner, and the rain is quite heavy.

I am surprise it's raining all of a sudden. But I kinda like it. Cooler. Better.

Looks like there's alot of shoot coming up for me. Have been arrangin test shoots here and there, mostly my friends lah. In fact had shot one of them and the results are amaxing, given that i used only one light and one set of clothings, and not to mention late night. And also not much preparation prior to the shoot. But amazing results.....


Anyways i reckon more to come. When there's shoot I am so hype up and energize.

Jiancong believes in getting a 'Fender' Fender Stratocaster for Jieying since she's really been improving. And her 'cherry' Squier is not sounding too right, even though the finish is beautiful. She said she wanted a white Fender the other day......


That will probably cost a bomb. But for better sound and love of music..i think it's worth it.

And this is something probably she will want to get.......


Right Dear? Heehee....

I think the band have to meet up real soon....its been more than a month since we last jammed.

Dreams.......

Friday

Came across some stuff in church on friday that I think it shouldn't be there. Was it forgetfulness or was it like that all these while? I ponder and got no answer unless ppl comes clean with it......

I can say Friday practice was kinda weird. I dunno what I am playing and can't stand being in the room. I just felt out of place.I felt like crying. I have lost my joy of serving(only that night, I hope). And I sure want to get away from that place ASAP. And finding those 'stuff' is really really really not helpin at all.

Angeldust.......coming back together?

I sms Terence today, asking about his thoughts on the band getting back together.

Normally he will be the last person I will talk to about this. But alas, i only have his contacts. We weren't that close before or now..but I see him every now and then @ guitar shops...he owns a studio himself. I have lost a best friend in one of the guitarist, Alex. Lost contact. Lost common interest. We were partners in crime way back. And not to forget the guy who actually push me to be the drummer I am today..Weitai. How long was it ago...we went all the way back to sec 1. Of cos I was in his band only during sec 3. But he was the oldest friend I have in Angeldust.

Angeldust is actually an amalgam of 2 bands. The 2 bands disintegrated almost exactly at the same time. I was with Weitai. Terence were with Alex and our vocalist Jianming. We hit it right off. We fit like a tee. We work really hard. We wouldn't sleep, we were the rock band, living the life. We will stay all night to write music..cover songs...pushing ourselves. We will jammed at three different studios in one day. We headline a few local gigs. We are music. But we are not without big egos...and soon we broke up.

Haven't heard from them in years. Being the introvert, I din blend with them well....but then again I dun blend well. That's just me. Even now....i am still that introvert...that's what my boss of five years said too. "You are too introvert.."

Back to the band.

Can I really bring these people to Christ?


Terence sounded positive abt the whole idea. He said he will called the guys and ask them. My vocalist won't be joining us...either he's doin time or sent back to Malaysia, never to return. Someone will have to fill in his big shoes if the band ever play together again.

How will things be? Angeldust.....

*i just check..there's a band whose name is also Angel Dust......i guess the difference is we are Angeldust...but our old logo looks about the same like theirs'. Now that's spooky. Nope that's not us....we are chinese...:)

next stop.....falter none!

Boy & Girls

i think i know why i cancelled my friendster account, because i can always upload pics on bloggers.

i love uploadin pics.

this one's for the boy and girls......

My chains are gone

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace

Indeed, my chains are gone. I have been set free. One week of frustrations and fury finally came to an end. There were drizzles of God's love, showering my very soul. Yupp, I am not a failure all these years. I have serve others before myself. Yes in many aspect I may not be the sucessful photographer others think I should be...but I have always know in my heart I did right. I have never care about the fame and riches of this job. I just want to be myself. And I did serve being just that.

Had a wonderful time celebrating Rebecca's birthday with the YF ppl. I was sure quite awkward when I walk into Swenson. How would they react? What will they say about me? Questions upon questions in mere seconds. I had to go in.....and sit right infront of Pr Chua.

She was very encouraging about our journey. Thi is the first time she spoke to us together, face to face. We felt honor and very peaceful. And that conversation is another encouragement and boost to our journey. We will walk on with our blessings. We talk abt Falter None too....i invited her to join us one day.

Kaien. Great works on the drums. To me that was quite an accomplishment in 2 hours. I could never do that.

Give us visions O Lord, as we lead Falter None into the new year. No God we will not compromise your values and truth. Sorry for upsetting you with our sinful ways. We hope to grow.

Erm....I have to say this..no more shorts when playing drums......or how about this, your shorts cannot be shorter than your shifu's. Yes drummers.....:)

Falter None T Shirt

We have always wanted our own band tee. This is what I have done. I also include a verse.

How about you guys? Any suitable verse for the tee? :)

“Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom,
and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God.”
Colossians 3:16

Hope you guys like this. BTW our birrthday is April 5th 2006...which is like 456..haha!!

Cheers and God bless.

Gems

This is a gem! Beautiful.

Thanks for Jiancong for being kind and gracious. My brothers have been very kind andpatient with me. Thank God for these gems in my life....

I am coming back to face you on your throne. Little by little, seconds by seconds, minute by minute, day by day............... I walk towards You in search of Your light. Let me know You are sufficient enough for all needs. Be my pillar. Take away my anger and frustrations. Lead me by my hand.....

Here I am, humbled by Your majesty,
Covered by Your grace so free.
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man,
Covered by the blood of the Lamb.

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine,
Since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
Empty-handed but alive in Your hands.

Here I am, humbled by the love that You give,
Forgiven so that I can forgive.
So here I stand, knowing that I am Your desire,
Sanctified by glory and fire.

And now I've found the greatest love of all is mine,
Since You laid down Your life, the greatest sacrifice.
Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
Empty-handed but alive in your hands.

Singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love,
In the presence of Your Majesty.
Majesty.

We're singing Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
And I'm nothing but alive in Your hands.

We're singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love,
In the beauty of Your Majesty.
Majesty.



I am truly sorry for the wrongs I have done...all these years.

Dyin' at the river

I nearly died this morning.

Words and anger embroiled in my heart......somethings takes a longer time to dissolve. Something never. Hurt ensured. Disappoinment......the river couldn't make me feel any better.......the pigeons couldn't. I will never compromise what is to be done right, whatever precious darlings I might lose.

I love elephants. They make me smile......


we will have better set of drums next week, my drummies. :)
"no more tears".........

This makes me smile, too.

2007

2007. A new year. Where it all begins anew, again.

Jamming is a bit messy the other day. Not to mention my not so good mood also. Perhaps we are goin different directions on that day due to no planning prior to the jam. But I am glad my padawan is back in our midst, but my Tudi is not around. I feel that its goin to take some time to make this vehicle to move forward again. We havent been playing for months together.

Sometime i think i dun need to carry a HP at all. Cos I dun bother to reply or pick up sometimes, much to the displease of my good friends. I am like this hermit that doesn't want to be bothered. Doesn't want to be reached. I am all shut up inside my shell. I don't want to go out. I want to be all alone. Really dislike this Gu Pi pattern in my character. Someting is not right with me, I think.

I am gonna leave this shitty place called Geoffstudio. I have been saying that for the last five years.

The first blog of the new year, and I have to sound so depressed.


Anyway, God still reigns as I continue to battle demons from another realm.